I don't even know
I'm selfish. I always whine about how sad I am. How I want to die. How I want to stop existing. I'm always thinking about my fucking self. I feel like an attention seeker. Dramatic. Weak. Hurtful. Mean. Terrible. Dumb. Ugly. Tired. Lazy. Cold.
Those are only some things that I am. I can't ever be myself. I can't ever be Happy. Sometimes I feel like I have to be strong for everybody. I can't let them see me cry. Then I'll be weak. I gotta admit, when I cry, I feel like I'm somewhat free. Like I can stop being strong, or hide my emotions. I can just let it all out. If I ever break down in front of somebody, I don't want them to say "Shh, shh, stop crying. It's okay" to try and be sympathetic. I want them to tell me "Let it all out".