Amethyst

I don't even know
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2020-08-10 01:57:47 (UTC)

Expectations

Dear Diary,
Today I woke up with a terrible headache. And I mean like, bad. I tried to ignore it and drink some tea. The tea worked for a while, then it just got worse. I got some medicine and it slowly went away. Really tired today. I tried not to eat a lot today. I wanted to be productive, work out, do something other than be on my phone all day. That didn't work out. I'm so lazy. I can't do anything other than eat, sleep, and be on tech all day. Whatever. I mean, I can't put enough effort into anything anyway. I feel like I failed. Everything and everybody. My parents, friends, siblings, everybody I love, even myself. I didn't do well in online classes and that really effected my grades. I mean, I HAVE to live up to everybody's expectations. My siblings look up to me. I'm the oldest so I'm expected to never fail. My friends think that I'm super smart. Everybody thinks that I'm so perfect. Like I'm someone with no negativity. Someone who, can't cry. Can't get angry. A worthless, annoying, embarrassing person....


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