Imperfectly Perfect

My Secret Submission
2020-08-03 17:22:17 (UTC)

The women behind the life you read about

So, it was brought to my attention all my entries are mostly sex. So, I am going to give you all a rare look at the women behind the life you read about. If someone had told me I would practically give up meat and be eating veggies or told me I would be pushing myself to run 5 times a day I would have told them they were nuts. Yet here I am 5 or miles a day while my body screams at me to stop. For those that don't know I am like a medical anomaly. I saved a patient and in doing so I suffered greatly. In that first year I was told I would never walk again that I needed a spinal fusion. I was told I would never be normal after. I lost a man I love because if I am honest, I didn't want him to see me like I was, and I didn't want him to meet my parents under those conditions. What I told him wasn't anything like that and so he put distance there and eventually left. I lost my career that I worked so hard for and thankfully I was business smart and had funds to fall on. The only thing I could control I did and so I ate. I gained weight of course because I couldn't get out of bed. Now I know it’s sad but stay with me. 2 years later I am alive up running of all things! I am a totally new person. I have lost so much weight and I am thriving. Let me be real with you all tho the running I do because it hurts it reminds me, I am alive and if I am honest really turns me on. If you haven't gotten it by now, I love pain I thrive on it. So, a spinal injury just about does it for me. It hurts all the time like most people wouldn't be able to focus hurts. For me it makes me hyper aware and keeps me on a tightrope I walk between giving in or not. I am a ticking time bomb they tell me now. It is only a matter of time before my spine says screw you. I disagree I have met every challenge and did it with grace. I started fighting back and Instead saying I can't I said I can, and I haven't looked back since. My neuro doc is dumbfounded on how I manage to function and how I am better than I was before I got hurt. I told him its pure willpower and stubbornness. So, this is the women behind it all I am a fighter to my core and I never give up if I want something. I am ruthless and at time cold. I am also tender and at times sweet and innocent. I know what I want and know how to get it. I don't flaunt my money I live modest and quiet, but I could live loud and wild if I wanted so could my kids and probably their kids. If you met me, you would think I had a heart of ice it's true I was raised to trust no one not even my own parents. Those close to me know I love with everything I am. I don't show my emotions I learned to hide them if I feel them at all at all times. This is me truly. I love sex and I love to give the full control to my partner if he earns it, I embrace all my kinks no matter how depraved. So yeah this is the only time I will show this women behind it all. This is all you get unless of course I like you or you are good at reading people.

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