Phillip Wilson

Amazingly, I survived my Life
2011-09-30 00:06:03 (UTC)

2005 REVIEW (PART THREE)

January- Childersburg, AL (continues)

(acerca de 10:37 A.M.) Now that I have seen FAHRENHEIT 451 (8:15-10:15 P.M.,T.C.M.), I have an idea of what Michael Moore's FAHRENHEIT 911 is about: Obviously the latter is a satire of sorts of the former. That FAHRENHEIT 451 is too real for comfort. That the policies of the Bush administration are as destructive to society as the book-burning, regmented "culture" imposed for "our protection" that all controlling regimes give __ the reason for the dictatorial control.
While watching FAHRENHEIT 451, I could not help but compare the film to those of Sergi Eisenstein, especially: The editing, even though the mid-1960's and by a team of French film makers, was "silent filmish" in rhythum and the emphasis on normally mundane ___..
POTEMKIN comes to min_. Also CITIZEN KANE, though not a silent film.
Friday evening when Kayla was her, the Disney film NOW YOU SEE IT . . ., provides a reason to use magic as a learning tool: Magic is defined as a different way of looking at things. Of course, that definition applies to all creativity: That is what "Creativity" is, in fact. And not only the arts: Education, business, science, etc. Each could do with a dose of "creativity"!

(acerca de 11:47 A.M.) As long as the advantages outweighed the disadvantages, I was o'kay with circus life. A card I mailed to Steve and Mary yesterday depicted a nature scene in Washington state. Experiencing nature first-hand, the location of the lot, side-trips - eased the "pain"of circus.
But that advantage was soon negated by a growing resentment of circus life.
C.A.C.C. employment is still relatively new. I am thrilled to be with the educational facility. As of yet, the humi_liation of having to live in Childersburg, AL, hasn't overwhelmed that excitment. But it will, sooner or later.
I was reminded of the Eukanuba National Championship Dog Show on Animal Planet when I went to the kitchen yesterday evening to microwave popcorn in preparation for the movie, and Joyce and granny were watching the program in the Family Room. Ron Reagan, a fellow non-theist, is the host of the live competition from Tampa, FL.
In spite of who his father was, I am a fan of Ron Reagan. He has a great speaking voice, much better than his father ever had!
As a non-theist, Ron Reagan is aware that he has no future in politics. Although George Wallace, Jr., said he wasn't interested in state politics, and he eventually became a political leader in this state. So it is remotely possible that Ron Reagan could be the first atheist president!
By his own admission, Dick Cheney had better things to do than fight in Vietnam. So did many Civil War soldiers: Plowing, harvesting, and other farm chores!

(acerca de 2:11 P.M.) I was wondering why the heat wouldn't "cut off" at 70-degrees: The upper-40-degrees (F) are on the prowl outside! Phoebus wouldn't allow the Cold hegemony if It (Phoebus) had Its way! But the Wind is too closely al_ with Cold.
The Wind is a Bitch!
That's why Deah was bathed inside. I had planned on al fresco drying, but The Weather Channel convinced me to cancel, or alter, my plans.
Later, though, when Deah was somewhat dried, I took her to the back and applied Frontline Plus on her, bounce-juggling while the flea and tick stuff soaked into her blood stream.
One must have a strong foundation. Which is why I consciously and intentionally paid special attention to the timing and force of bounce necessary for a “successful” circle bounce juggle!
“You” wouldn’t think that I still needed such detail work, but I no one told me that I must make sure the basics are polished before moving to the next step!
There is a scene in FAHRENHEIT 451 in which one of the book burners, “Montag,” looks up the word “rhinoceros” in the dictionary.
One day, many years ago, the question on a game show was something like, “What is the most dangerous animal in the Nile?” or “What animal causes more deaths in the Nile (or was it the Amason?) River?” My answer? Rhinoceros. I don’t know how I knew that: I just did! And did it ever feel good when the host said I was correct!

(acerca de 4:47 P.M.) At the moment I can’t locate the article: “You” just have to take my word for it.
Either Friday or Saturday, “The Daily Home” has an article “explaining” that the United States won’t be Top Dog in the world in fifteen years. Although it would have happened regardless, the Bush presidency has and is hastening the day when the United States is no longer a superpower. Way to go, George! We couldn’t have done it without you!
Have you ever notice that, whenever George W. Bush conducts a Town Hall meeting, that his “spill” is written out for him in outline form that he read from, on a music stand? There can only be one reason for this: The head of the administration has something to “push” - some agenda- and s/he calls upon the president to be the “talker,” as in a car commercial.
Tuesday, I was in conversation with Milt- in the book store - about Richard, Eric’s former helper. Milt was telling me how independent living “drove” Richard to take up drinking again.
I exclaimed to Milt that I didn’t know Richard had a substance abuse problem! Which made Hazel, in her office, giggle.
I am so náive that I didn’t realize that it was alchol and drugs that landed Richard in prison in the first place!

(17th, About 8:32 A.M.) Today is the annual celebration of the birthday anniversary of Martin Luther King, Jr.
It is why today is a non-work. The Cultural Unity Organization at CACC should have held a special observance Thursday, but the advisor, Glenda Bland, mis-uses the C.U.O. for her own “mis-placed” agenda.
On Wednesday, Donna expressed disdain for the King Day: I had asked about the bus “line” not operating __me Monday, and then she whined that John Kennedy’s birth wasn’t a holiday. But, as I stated the rhetorical question, what did Kennedy do?
If I had JFK’s looks and money, I would be a womanizer, also! I said this when Donna was leaving the bus in order to help an elderly lady that is confined to a wheel chair. Donna told me, “You’re awful!”
Donna wondered what a second Kennedy term would have been like.
I had stated to Ursula Morgan, my teaching supervisor at Tallahassee Community College in the Spring of 1999, that “if I had the looks and money of JFK, Jr . . .” in reference to the reported skirt-chasing of the late son of the late president.
Donna tried to claim that the birthdays of George Washington and Abraham Lincoln weren’t celebrated. But alas, they are in February!
Friday evening, Kayla, semi-reclined in the non-rocking arm chair, her feet south, her head north, told Joyce that in school she (Kayla) had learned about King and wanted a confirmation that King had been shot by a white man.
Joyce quickly changed the subject and asked Kayla if she had learned about John Kennedy.
As a legal holiday, the garbage collectors are “off” today. Yesterday evening I asked Joyce - she was in the Family Room- if she knew or had read in “The Daily Home” when the garbage would be collected this week.
Joyce insisted that the garbage collectors worked 2004’s King Day.
And Joyce “swears” that racism does not exist anymore? Yea, right! So what if African Americans are as discriminatory as whites: Does this justify discrimination and racism?
Something else I told Donna on Wednesday: The South use to celebrate the birthday anniversary of Robert E. Lee (many southerners, I’m sure, still do), the Conferate general. But why celebrate the birth of a loser? I’m sure this “disclaimer” didn’t sit well with Donna!

(acerca de 9:20 A.M.) It was “suggested” by whom: Dave Hubbert? Richard Pereles?
No doubt it was half-jokingly.
I should become a gynecologist: In this way I would have access to female ass in my Old Age!
THE MCLAUGHLIN GROUP (3-3:25 P.M., P.B.S.) was a good way to begin the “electronic” portion of my day.
I later depended on NBC NIGHTLY NEWS (5:30-6:00 P.M.) and ABC WORLD NEWS TONIGHT SUNDAY (5:30-6:00 P.M.), along with C-Span and C-Span 2, to further my “knowledge” of the world’s scene.
Two notes that, once upon a time, meant something: I can’t let myself think! This “warning” could very well be as timely today as when I wrote it 2-3 days ago.
What’s even worse, I pee-peed with the door opened as if such was normal!
As “you” can guess, the above is in response to my Friday open-door pissing with Joyce in the house!

(acerca de 10:43 A.M.) You have heard it often said: Go out and do “God’s” work each day. And so verily I say to you: “God” is in caffein, nicotine, pills to stay alive, etc.
Yesterday morning, there was 6-7 pills in a measuring cup in the kitchen. It is how granny “becomes one with God.”
As with many that swear they aren’t, granny “plays God” every morning.
NAKED PLANET SPECIAL (8-9:00 P.M., P.B.S.) “lectured” about Uluru (or as the white man calls it, Ayers Rock). I sure hope I can remember most of the data given out!
BOSTON: LEGAL (9-10:00 P.M., A.B.C.): Didn’t you ever just want to be irresponsible and forget about books and learning? Well, that’s how it was with me yesterday evening!
The danger of regaining one’s child-like enthusiasm and fascination with life: The “fascination” could manifest itself as an enjoyment of viewing teenagers in a state of undress and/or engaging in sex.
One never knows how the past will apply itself to the future! Don’t whine if the manifestation is not to “your” liking: “You” are the one that insisted on the past returning!
So I thought about yesterday while smoking and relying on nicotine to bring forth something.
Can one be “creative” and not “kinky” with sex? If one gets rid of the latter, will the former stick around? Or are they so interwoven that one can’t have one without the other?

(acerca de 12:10 P.M.) Hozel? It was Wednesday (I could have sworn that this was a part of an earlier day!). Hazel asked me to get a roll of pennies for the five dimes she handed to me: I was sent to Joyce’s or Sheila’s office.
I first went to Joyce’s office (what the hell, right-angled from Sheila’s). When I asked for a “thing” of pennies, Joyce wanted to know who had asked for them. I said “Hozel.” Hozel? Who in the hell is “Hozel”?
Sheila was the one that provided the roll of pennies: She had to go out to her car, however.
April, Jade, Milt, and I, on Thursday, discussed bad weather and animals: I was telling them about what I had heard years ago, that one could slit a cow’s abdomen open on cold days and crawl inside for warmth.
Everyone, needless to say, were incredulous.
As I pointed out, the stench would drive a person back to face the Cold!

(acerca de _:13 P.M.) The final sentence of Part 3, Chapter 9: “. . . but then, all women are mothers of great men -it isn’t their fault if life disappoints them later.”
The same chapter, but Part V: “Often it’s something you paid no attention to at the time - a vague thought that you didn’t bother to think out to the end, words spoken without feeling and which passed unnoticed - these are the things that return at night, clothed in flesh and blood, and they become the subjects of dreams, as if to make up for having been ignored during waking hours.
The translators included the word “queuing” (Chapter XIV, Part 4, the fourth sentence): How did they come up with that term as oppose to “lining up”?
Except for The Poems of Yurii Zhivago, I completed the second reading of “Doctor Zhivago.” Although the entire novel is a poem in prose, so I really won’t do the novel an injustice if I don’t read all the poems!
Be sure to keep this in mind when analyzing “Doctor Zhivago”: It is one long poem in “Free Verse”!
“Doctor Zhivago” is also a “you are there” account of the Russian Revolution and Civil War, an early “transcript” of a CNN report, if “you” will!
“Doctor Zhivago” must be included in any research of the early-20th century Russia!

(acerca de 2:30 P.M.) I heard a “rumor” on THE MCLAUGHLIN GROUP that Jeb Bush, the brother of the current “president,” may be “running” for president or vice-president in 2008. I suppose it’s only fitting that the Republicans have their “Kennedys”!
But I would compare the nascent dynasty to the Medicis, especially if George W. Bush’s nephew (Jeb’s son) George P. Bush takes over one day!
What the hell, there won’t be a United States, as we know it, to “take over”: THE POSTMAN, Kevin Costner’s film about the demise of the United States and its reconstruction, may just be the ultimate reality show!
It is also reported that tourism at Ayers’ Rock (Uluru) is in danger of dissolving due to massive water consumption. For the sake of the Rock, it is hoped! Ulu__ (?) doesn’t exist to serve humans.
This is more like it! Although I don’t like it at all, Winter has finally come to Month I: The mid-30⁰’s (F) while Phoebus, and not Phoebe, is on watch!
Wind made leaf-collecting rather tricky, although I did manage three bags full.
No Clouds: It’s too Cold for Them!

(18th, About 6:11 A.M.) The Cold? The in-house heat to combat the Cold?
The “new” sweat shirt I now wear - the previous one had a hole in the left sleeve that was only getting “bigger”!
The fleas?
Something is intervening in my intimacy with Sleep! The past 4-5 nights I have laid awake most of my time in bed, getting just the occasional “nap”!
It can’t go on like this!
Joyce bought a new bed from Badcock of Sylacauga. Two workers delivered and assembled the bed yesterday.
On King Day!?! If Robert E. Lee’s birthday was still celebrated, I wonder if Badcock would still have operated?
Sunday evening Joyce “hinted” that she could use help the next morning moving her bed. But when I got out of bed around 8:15, the mattress, box springs were already outside.
This is all I’m going to say about this!
One of the “soldiers” that participated in the prisoner abuse was recently sentenced to ten years in prison. It seems the jury didn’t buy that “following orders” excuse.
Now, granted, the jury may have somehow been influenced or pressured by the Bush administration! It wouldn’t be out of character for it to do something like that.
I would argue, though, that the guy is one of many thugs and murderers that make up the military of the United States!
And the number of thugs will only increase as the Bush administration lowers military entrance standards in order to increase troop strength!

(acerca de 6:42 A.M.) It was Thursday, according to all indications.
I was conversing with Milt by the north end of the counter in the book store.
A customer was “checking out” the supply shelves.
While talking and listening to Milt, I heard the male customer inquire about a pencial sharpener.
I had just a few minutes before brought the electric pencial sharpener from the “old” book store, and connected it to a wall socket and placed it on one of the two shelves (the 3rd shelf on the east end of the western-most of the displays).
The book store provided such services before, and there is no reason to quit.
While still given my “full” attention to Milt, I informed the older male where the pencial sharpener is. Then I showed him a portable pencial sharpener, the kind one must twist the pencial by hand.
“1927 technology!” , I said, which caused Jade to giggle.
The pencial sharpener - the portable one - is a part of a “hanging” display opposite the display shelves.
I approached the man on his right.
I suppose I am a store-p__p_, after all!:

(acerca de 1:08 P.M.) “You” know how the “back” of the counter in the book store is inter-laced (the best way to describe the tangle) with wires? Of course “you” don’t! Silly me! Well, “you” just have to trust me on this.
There are wires for the computers; for the phones; for the calculators; for the Cash registers; etc.
I have tried to tape then down, but to no avail!
Around noon, “Laney” Blackeley came to the book store for two 3-ring binders. As I went for her “Personnel” card to charge the purchase, my right foot became entangled in one of the many cords. A calculator hit the ground, “face” down.
Fortunately, the calculator survived the fall, unlike Humpty Dumpty!
What is amazing is that such hasn’t happened before today! It would have to be me, though!
I didn’t realize I couldn’t claim myself on my tax return/1040!
After having filled out the federal “return” yesterday evening, I had it on the table - face down - to mail this morning.
Paying only $100 a month for “rent,” Joyce uses me as an exemption.
She was angry when I took the envelop/form back to my room, declaring that I wouldn’t pay any taxes then!
I made $6789 and some odd cents last year at C.A.C.C. I suppose I will re-do my “return,” don’t claim myself, and pay taxes.
And, yes, look for other quarters!
It was bound to come to this!
I had a feeling that Joyce would somehow prevent the “return” from being mailed: I just didn’t know how! I thought that it would be postage or my address sticker!
Don’t you just love family?
I also had a “night mare” early this morning! “You” want to hear about it?
Are “you” sure?
This day was gone and I hadn’t gotten my timesheet signed!
My work days, since December _, 2004, has been spent in the book store. So I was confused as to who would “approve” the hours.
Last pay period, if “you” recall, Eric signed the time sheet, since most days were on grounds.
Leisa McGaha, enterring the bookstore early this morning, told me, in answer to my inquiry, that Andy would sign it.
So I turned the 2-page time sheet over to her.
I take it that I am unofficially a worker in the book store. At least, until otherwise told differently.
THE NEWSHOUR WITH JIM LEHRER (5:30-6:25 P.M., P.B.S.) was my first King Day television.

(acerca de 1:58 P.M.) It’s not that I don’t care about Jack Johnson: Ken Burns produced a documentary, “The Rise and Fall of Jack Johnson,” which P.B.S. presented yesterday evening.
I mean, boxing has its place, although not in this room!
Instead, I “attended” The History Channel’s “lecture” on THE FRENCH REVOLUTION from 8:00 to 10:00.
Boxing may contribute to America’s culture, but I felt I needed to know more about the French Revolution: Jack Johnson can wait until another time!
Hazel asked me what she needed to order, as far as supplies go. Looking “over” the supply shelves, I suggested 3” x 5” index cards.
No sooner had I said it then a female came into the book store wanting index cards! And 3” x 5” is what she bought!
What a co-incidence!

(acerca de 3:00 P.M.) I saw the butt end of a program explaining tsunamis on The History Channel just before the revolution started.
In “discussing” with Hazel the “open” position at C.A.C.C. - Mandy Rollins’ old job - Hazel, who had the position prior to the book store, declared that there is too much “finger pointing” up at the business office, that she would rather be off by herself.
Well, she is: Sort of. Although the book store is more business office than grounds is!
I explained to Hazel that the entire business office staff is more “Leisa” than Leisa is! I have an idea she was aware of my reference!
The low-40⁰’s (F): I suppose there’s no way to avoid the Cold! It’s going to happen, so deal with it!
Phoebus couldn’t be better behaved! And the Clouds: Don’t “you” just love Them when They are gone?

(19th, About 6:16 A.M.) $678, federal, $298, state. That’s a tax bill of, what, $976?
Is there some reason that Joyce didn’t let me know each month my tax bill so I could have been saving all these months?
No telling how much Joyce is making off me! I was wondering why she has never “demanded” money for the siding that was added to the house 6-7 months ago!
How could she afford a new bed?
It all makes sense, now. Joyce is not sacrificing for me: She is benefitting from my presense!
I shouldn’t be surprised: Her criticism of Tara and the financial system were becoming too unrealistic!
I am almost certain now that Tara was explaining the financial system to Joyce and Sheila when the former had the conference in Joyce’s office last week (?)!
Joyce is harshly critical of granny “pouting” and retreating to her (granny’s) room whenever Kayla gives her (Kayla’s) attention to someone else. Well, Joyce did this “granny-ism” yesterday evening: I was on the floor playing with Kayla. The coffee table had been moved to create more floor space.
The dinner “break.”
After dinner, Kayla requested me back on the floor. I went there. In the meanwhile, granny had moved the coffee table back to its original location, in order to get to her (granny’s) place on the couch.
When Kayla “whined” that the table was in the way, Joyce reacted childishly!

(acerca de 6:50 A.M.) Just in time for my 55th birthday!
I think it’s “great” that my “rent” is paid automatically! But I can’t believe that Joyce refused to tell me! Actually I can believe it!
How illegal is what she’s doing?
All I can do is work around Joyce “brilliant” financial system, and have money ready next year! For Joyce is going to do it: I must compensate for what she does.
Anyway, instead of sitting in the rocking arm chair, she stomped to her room. Kayla was sad for a while, and then announced that “we’ll just have to do without her!".
The fact that it was Kayla’s choice angered Joyce! Although later, Joyce and granny were Kayla’s playmates in Joyce’s room, which I’m sure Joyce was elated about!
The question is, why is Joyce reacting to the income tax situation? She is trying to shift the blame to me for her unethical financial system!
Or does she know that the power lies in my hands? I can direct the IRS in her direction?
Come what may, I am more than willing to relocate. I don’t know how, but a way, either legally or illegally, will be found!
A car with a front tag expressing support of “Jesus” was illegally parked in front of Building “E” yesterday. Religion, illegally: Why am I not surprised?

(acerca 2:00 P.M.) By the way, I’m not losing sleep over what Joyce did, or is. In fact, I slept better last night/this morning than I have in about a week! The sweat shirt that replaced the blue sweat shirt last week, due to the ever-increasing hole in the left shoulder, was itself ___planted by a regular shirt. The sweat shirt irritated my skin too much.
And, by “God,” the change made all the difference in the world!
This morning on the way to CACC, Joyce asked me if my continuation in the book store had been approved. Not really, but I told Joyce that the only reason I was in the bookstore was because Leisa “encouraged” it.
So I lied! And why shouldn’t I to Joyce?
As with most people - men and women - that think of themselves as “independent,” Joyce wants “dependent” persons around her, I suppose to re-enforce her false independence. Which is why she was silent after finding out that I am doing CACC my own way and not via hers!
I didn’t want to be correct, but it is the family in the vast majority of the cases that stiffle its members!
The true independent person doesn’t behave independently, or have anything to prove. S/he can be inter-dependent with no problem!
I was beginning to suspect Joyce in her complicity!
Yesterday, Kayla wanted the play “road” that, at one time, was in the laundry room. However, granny told her to wait until “Nana” got home: Joyce has recently re-arranged things “neatly,” and granny told Kayla that Joyce would be angry if anybody made a mess.
Kayla “rolled” her eyes! The child is becoming too old for such treatment!
It was around 3:30 when Kayla came over yesterday afternoon: Around 7:25 she went home with her father.
This is why I “missed” about fifteen minutes of THE PRESIDENTS (7-8:00 P.M., The HIstory Channel). But fear not: Another episode followed!
Then again, I have no doubt that the mini-series (eight hours) will be on The History Channel again!
The final 10-12 minutes of SEX AND THE CITY (TBS) followed the 8-9:00 P.M., showing of THE PRESIDENTS.

(acerca de 2:45 P.M.) “Leave you father and mother and follow me!”
These words attributed to “Jesus” tells it as it must be: Only a fool remains with her/his family, physically or spiritually!
How ironic that Jade works from the office that was used by Mandy Rollins! I have already told “you” how much alike the two women are!
Cold: The mid-40⁰’s (F). But I guess you know that by now! This being mid-January and all!
The few times Phoebus has been sighted, It has lackadaisical glowed: From this part of earth, only a half-life made it through the White of the sky.
Social Security is “unfair” to begin with: A person must work 20-25 years at least before her/his pension starts gathering money!

(acerca de 3:45 P.M.) “A young person can be ‘set’ in her/his ways as an old person can!” This is what I told a wheel chair-confined elderly African American female before Donna assisted her in de-bussing at the Baptist Medical Center branch on the highway (280).
Donna was explaining how “homesick” her son, J_sh, was when he was at college in Montgomery. But, not to burst her bubble I told her, it was the racing and other grown-up “play” that he missed, not his mother!
One would think that the medical center would have a door that could be operated by those in wheelchairs: An electric door, as FSU has. But a ramp is all the medical center does to accomodate the physically handicapped.
The road in front of the main entrance/exit of the administration building was full of stopped cars (“Boots” finally arrived with the light “flashing” on his car, and he in uniform). The unused portions of Pell Grants were given out.
Is that a good idea, Financial Aid? Are “you” aware that releasing cash only invites abuse? Students will drop to the mimimum and “live” on the Pell Grants (cars, stereos, televisions, etc)!
Why isn’t the unused portions taken back and used for other needy students?
As an alternative, each student that receives a “refund” should, instead of cash, be given credit? This way, future Pell Grants to that person can be adjusted.

(acerca de 5:55 P.M.) New regular Candice Bergman’s character on BOSTON: LEGAL, last Sunday, is one of those women that considers herself superior to men.
Are women the most recent economics mainstay of this country? Have women died in the past in order that a generation would be able to watch and identify with, programs like BOSTON: LEGAL and DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES?
It’s rumored that women are the ones that gave George W. Bush four more years. It only goes to show “you” that women are as irrational as men: The Bush administration protecting us from terrorism? Right!!
The film version of “Fahrenheit 451”: The children’s voices at the school reciting the multiplication table. Oh how I wish I could figure out the meaning!
“National Geographic”: By judging the photographs, a reader would think that a country in Africa is years behind us urbane folks! But towns like Childersburg, AL, St. Mark’s, FL, etc, are as just behind cities such as Atlanta, GA, Chicago, IL, etc!
There are towns in Africa as sophicicated as New York City is alleged to be!

(20th, About 6:52 A.M.) As I said, I’m not losing sleep over what Joyce is doing! In fact, I slept “straight through” to 5:50, of course, making myself behind schedule twenty minutes or more!
Ms. Salotto and “King Andrew” were leading a group of people on a tour of the book store yesterday. Since the book storage areas have yet to be powered, I stood at a “half-way” point and operated the hand-held lantern that has been used as lighting.
The source of lighting guided the tour groups until the door to the “atrium” was opened.
Later Hazel asked me if Ms. Salotto and Andy went out the “back” door. I replied “yes.” Then she wanted to know if that door had been closed. I answered that I didn’t care who the lady ___. I kept a watch on the door.
Half-jokingly, I told Hazel that I was “brown-nosing” Ms. Salotto. Hazel reacted by saying nothing.
I am working in the book store more than I am helping Hazel, you realize! Hazel really can’t handle the book store, just as Milt can’t handle the grounds!
I get the sneaky feeling that Joyce talks me down, and Hazel listens to her! I have spent over two years being denigrated: It’s time I take things into my own hands, being that no one else is willing or able!

(acerca de 1:32 P.M.) Milt spends much time in the book store visiting Hazel. He did it in the “original” book store, the temporary book store, and the “new and improved” book store.
I have never been sure what the relationship is. Several months back I asked Joyce one morning, and she told me that Milt is a “wannabe” suitor of Hazel’s.
Yesterday morning, the south end of the counter- Milt in “front,” Hazel sitting before the computer at that end - Milt and Hazel had a “discussion” about “serving the “Lord”: Hazel declared that one can serve the “Lord” away from church. And of course Milt was the opposite mind-set
This morning, Milt told Hazel that he “had to work” when Hazel asked him if he attended bible study.
Hazel criticized him for saying one thing and doing another.
Then Milt and Hazel - joined soon by Dori Bowen - discussed the high school athletics: Milt hasn’t been to any basketball games to see h__ son play. Milt’s belief is that working and providing money is much more important.
It was a typical male “viewpoint” expressed by Milt.
Dori told of her former evening job - clean-up lady a_ the place she was a secretary by day - and how it became family time.
I remained neutral during the entire time. Early on, Hazel asked me if I was anti-religion. I said “no,” only to avoid an “argument.”
To continue: Milt left, and soon Hazel called him to see if he was mad at her.
Later Milt returned to the book store and eventually admitted to me, although Hazel could hear, that if he hadn’t been sent to Fayetteville High School to integrate it and Hazel sent to Childersburg High School, he would have married Hazel instead of James.
I assume Hazel thought this the same nightmare scenario as I did, but when, later, I told Hazel - I was on the customers’ side of the counter - that if she ever think that things can’t get worse, or if she and James ever have an argument, think about marriage to Milt.
Hazel’s silent reaction? She really wasn’t thrilled that I had said such!
Two pens for $1.08. And Hazel suggested that I keep the cap on them when I am not writing with one: Gel ink, I take it, evaporites.
Although she was most likely being sarcastic, Elinor Clift (_?) on THE MCLAUGHLIN GROUP last Sunday that elections take place in the Middle East, though only males can vote.
In the early days of the United States, only men - and white at that - were allowed to vote.

(acerca de 2:23 P.M.) Still confused as to how my income tax will be handled, I “asked” Joyce right out this morning that I assume that she would be filing my tax returns. She told me, in essence, that I should go ahead and file, that she will pay $400.
According to Joyce, I am entitled to EIC - Earned Income Credit. I thought that was only for a person with children.
But I will be able to get $500 from EIC.
I was wondering if Joyce would be able to figure it out that I could get my hands on money and pay her more each month!
THE PRESIDENTS (7-8:00 P.M. The History Channel) began my television quest yesterday evening.
I have vowed to ignore George W. Bush as much as possible, and don’t recognize him as the president of the United States! He begins his second term today: It would have been nice if I could have flown the flag “upside down,” the international call of distress, as I was hoping to do! Even wearing a flag lapel pin with the field of star at the bottom right corner would protest enough! But all that happen was a group of people turn their backs on the swearing in!
The week is warming in spite of Bush’s freezing the country! The low-60⁰’s (F) and a “strong” Phoebus.
Blue sky with no clouds to speak of.
As I told Hazel, if the Country can survive a person like Andrew Jackson as president, the country can make it through four more years of George W. Bush!
So this is how the anti-Clinton people felt, huh?

(acerca de 3:31 P.M.) For something to do, I stocked writing pens, on the eastern-most supply shelves. As I was busy with that “chore,” Hazel decided that the pens needed re-plenishing. Did she become jealous of my initiative? Gender “competition”: No man will out-initiative a woman?
And Hazel became awful “busy,” too! Apparently she’s more of a Control freak than I thought!
What if “you” were married to Hazel, Milt? How long could “you” last? Or to “your” wife Hazel-like?
AUSCHWITZ: INSIDE THE NAZI STATE (8-8:53 P.M., P.B.S.): A “play-by-play” recreation of the Holocaust, on this 60th anniversity of Auschwitz . I must see the show again: For, yes, I dozed the last part! The program isn’t able factually to “outwit” my fatique.
I saw the final 3-4 minutes on the Hoover Dam on The History Channel before THE PRESIDENTS took me over!

(acerca de 4:21 P.M.) The 13th, if I have it correct in my notes, was when I “explained” to Milt about the United States monetary pledge to the victims of the tsunami.
Two days before, Donna and I had discussed financial aid.
Then and yesterday Donna told me that her children didn’t qualify for Pell Grants for matriculation (of course Donna didn’t use such a term!) at CACC, although Donna “clings” to her claim that her son received a Pell Grant for attending Hundington College!
Damn if I can figure out why any person that considers her/himself intelligent would attend a community college, especially CACC!
One’s past and present must be equal. Don’t worry: I will explain myself - eventually! But for now, try to figure out what I mean!

(acerca de 6:41 P.M.) All I can tell “you” is that I saw this commercial on television within the last month: A female nuttionist announces that a person’s energy is a result of a high diet of carbohydrate.
The commercial wasn’t a direct indictment of the current low-carb fad! Instead, the commercial was a straight-forward declaration of the role of carbohydrate: What a person does with the truth is her or his own problem!
Rebels and insurgents: Not true independent people. The French Revolution is a classic example of this!
Jealousy of power is packaged in a “love for freedom” excuse! One only has to read history to understand what I mean!
What did the anti-Franklin Roosevelt do for over twelve years?
To take the president - any president - seriously enough to be vocal in one’s protest is a terrible mistake! Hell, it’s only the president, not someone that really does anything important!
Ronald Reagan himself implied that if his acting “career” had gone as planned, he would have stayed in the business!

(21st, About 7:34 A.M.) Remember when the United States Supreme Court ruled that a state university in Washington State wasn’t allowed to provide financial assistance to a ministerial student? I whole-heartedly agree.
However, federal financial aid can be use to attend a private, sectarian school, so what’s the difference? In theory, the financial aid is to provide assistance to the student and it doesn’t matter where s/he attends, but we all know that the educational institution reaps more of the benefit than the student.

(acerca 7:51 A.M.) The federal government has no business adjusting a Pell Grant to where a student will matriculate! A Pell Grant should be the same regardless of where a person attends higher education!
Donna is probably lying about her son - no doubt she is - but she told me that he received a Pell Grant for matriculation at Hundington College, but not for attendance at C.A.C.C.
But there’s no way to fight religion: It is too much of a Big Business and is too powerful to touch!
(acerca de 8:20 A.M.) Milt told me yesterday that the reason Dr. Cornell and Ronnie left so suddenly is due to the fact that the Bettye Carroll (?) Building on the Alex City campus went over budget. I was confused when he stated this “theory” to me, and I am still confused as I write this. Damn if I can see a connection between going over budget and the “retirements” of Jim Cornell and Ronnie Harkins!
During the same conversation in the Cafeteria by the door to the lobby - Milt faced north east, I south west - Milt and I also discussed the fact that, no doubt, the auditors are trying to make sense of CACC’s confusing accounting system, in preparation for Tara’s take-over in September.
Joyce and I “discussed” this yesterday morning: If “you” have seen the bookstore before it was renovated, it is, indeed, impressive. But compared to a “normal” bookstore . . .
I told Joyce about the tours led by Ms. Salotto and Andy, Wednesday.
As I explained to Hazel yesterday, if the book store was “normal” where people could get her/his own books, there would have to be a collection area for back packs and things.
And “you” are right, Joyce: The majority of book stores are independent of the university or college!
As a non-profit, or not-for-profit institution, C.A.C.C. has no business trying to make a profit! Even if “Carpentry” is a losing venture for C.A.C.C., it should still be kept around!

(acerca de 12:56 P.M.) UAB will become the University of Birmingham before it is merged with the main University of Alabama campus! This is what I told Milt yesterday during our “discussion” in the Cafeteria.
It is too late: The main campus has been trying to take back the Birmingham “branch” of the University of Alabama for years!
The national ranking in football precludes any future take-over!
I had made mention of the Career Day held Wednesday in the cafeteria, and that having a campus of Auburn University in Montgomery, as well as a branch of Troy State University, dilutes the state funding of higher education: Why not merged those with Alabama State University?
“Speaking” of Career Day, why was Stillman College represented? That Tuscaloosa sectarian school, although a Historic Black College, is private and shouldn’t be considered with public funding!
I question the “alliance” between CACC, a public institution of higher education, and Faulkner University, a religious school in Montgomery!
A “historian” theorizes that Abraham Lincoln was “gay,” based on letters. In the first place, who cares? If homophobia is so out of control, America will need all the blessing of “God” it can get!
Although the “historian” may be only satirizing the country’s fear of homosexuals. She may also be suggesting: “Hey, what difference does a person’s sexual orientation make? S/he can still do great things!”
THE NEWSHOUR WITH JIM LEHRER (5:30-6:25 P.M., P.B.S.): As expected, portions of George W. Bush’s second inauguration speech was the mail “serving” of the program.
World domination: That’s what Bush is after! And that’s scary: Napoleon, Hitler, Alexander the Great, communism, etc, all sought to control the world!
It’s as if the rest of the world is a “suburb” of the United States!
As Mark Shields, the Bush administration doesn’t want Nation-building: Nothing short of World-building will satisfy the Bush administration!
But it may work: It’s a gamble!
A $2.__ pack of cigarettes from the convenient store on the highway; two stamps from the post office; ten dollars via the ATM at The Bank; $12 for the “Smithsonian Magazine”; a 30-something cents Cola from the downtown Convenient Store: My business downtown.
I returned “Doctor Zhivago” in exchange for Ray Bradbury’s “Fahrenheit 451.” Let’s see what the movie ignores.
THE DAILY SHOW WITH JON STEWART (10-10:30 P.M., Comedy Central) took up where the NEWSHOUR left off. Immediately following was the episode from Wednesday evening that my work schedule prevented me from watching.

(acerca de 2:06 P.M.) It’s really not fair of public television to broadcast HERITAGE: CIVILIZATION AND THE JEWS (8-10:00 P.M., P.B.S.) only every twenty years! Hell, it takes time to develop a learning “format” for anything! And the entire mini-series is so crammed full of details, that multiple viewings are a necessity!
And I doubt if I have twenty years left in this world!
So please, P.B.S., re-air the mini-series soon! I promise I will absorb more next time!
Although, before it’s all over, I will have picked-up 2-3 facts that will be of tremendous help! 10%: That’s the best any source can leave one with!
Whenever I’m sure that Winter has let up some, I will return to the outside, to prepare for the yearly arrival of plants and flowers! There is much to do, but Cold would have me with my “thumb up my ass” if not for the book store!
The upper-60⁰’s (F): A great day for a hike! And with Phoebus escorting me, “I shall fear no evil, for thou art with me!”! Although the Clouds stayed out of sight.

(acerca de 6:05 P.M.) When, “you” ask? I have no idea! I only know that this was in the “new” book store.
Doug Stearns was leaning against the counter. I asked him about the dog food that he had received by U.P.S., in the book store, the day before. He joked that he ate it, also.
Cats can eat dog food, but dogs don’t suppose to eat catfood: The latter is too sweet.

(Purchased from CVS Pharmacy in Childersburg, AL, on Saturday, June 21, 2003, at 11:50 A.M., for $3.99 [and 32¢ tax])

(22nd, About 7:58 A.M.) It has been said of old that when “Jesus” was on the cross, “he” shouted to “God”: “Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do!” And: “Father, into thy hands I commend my spirit!”
But verily I say unto you: What “Jesus” really said was: “Take this job and shove it . . .!”
Or was that when “Jesus” was thinking about his future plans in the Garden of Gethsemane?
Somewhere between joking and meaningful is, “Work your fingers to the bone/what do you get?/Bony fingers . . !” After all, a person can suffer and sacrifice for “three years” and still end up on the “cross”!
I could be wrong: Maybe “Adam” told “God” to “take this job and shove it!”.
Last night (yesterday evening), Kayla was “lecturing” us - Joyce, granny, and I were “students” to her “teacher.” I was on the north end of the couch, Joyce on the south end and granny in the middle - on “Adam and Eve.” She was explaining about the “serpent,” the “apple,” the “tree of life”: And how “Adam” and “Eve” got naked. Kayla was innocent in her explanation, of course, but she made the myth sound so pornographic, as it is!

(acerca de 8:19 A.M.) I was spot-cleaning the “outside” window of the book store Thursday. Milt was to my left, looking at the tables in the Cafeteria.
Five (or four) rows of five tables! But one table, the east end of the “row” nearest the lobby, wasn’t in place.
I suggested that maybe it had been relieved of its duties in order that people coming from the lobby to the side door - or vice versa - would have a more “direct” route.
But come to find out, both Milt and I realized that the “missing” table was in reality being used by the auditors in Room 107, the “old” book store!

(acerca de 8:57 A.M.) The 18th: Tuesday? That was the day Donna and I discussed Fran, the postal carrier.
Fran, who was Fran Butts as my high school classmate, became Fran Harry.
However, Fran is divorced, which is a surprise to Donna: Fran came across as being so “family.” But as I told Donna - I was, by this time, on the ground leaning in the bus door - one never knows what is really going on in a person’s inner-most being!
The bus had come upon Fran delivering mail.
Not Fran Curry: She is a reporter for NBC13.
Thursday Hazel told me abo__ four orientals that were sought in connection with terrorism. I really didn’t believe Hazel - people over-react to terrorism, thanks to this administration - but an article in “The Daily Home” yesterday confirms what Hazel said!

(acerca de 10:36 A.M.) WASHINGTON WEEK (7-7:25 P.M., P.B.S.) was the only program that I watched privately from beginning to end: The portion of THE NEWSHOUR WITH JIM LEHRER (5:30-6:25 P.M., P.B.S.) amounted to no more than 6-7 minutes.
For many days but especially Thursday, Amy had been looking for a package that the sender had claimed to have shipped to CACC the first week in December.
The assumption was that U.P.S. had delivered the package, and the unspoken thought, most likely, was that I had mislaid it.
Well, Amy found the package Thursday: It had arrived by mail, and was, surprise! surprise! In the mail room!
Laney Blackeby is responsible for delivies by the United States Postal Service.
Hazel and I “discussed” the organized chaos that is Amy’s desk and, before the package was found, had predicted that the package was probably somewhere on her desk!

(acerca de 12:12 P.M.) As soon as the weather begins to allow it, I will return to the outside, I “discussed” with Milt Thursday in the Cafeteria.
Some grass grows in Cold weather, Milt stated, in reference to my “concern” about the hill I am re-grassing (or grassing for the first time).
That sawdust will, once again, be applied to the base of the trees.
This “World-Building” policy that George W. Bush articulated Thursday? Damn if it doesn’t sound like a new “Manifest Destiny”!
I recall something in reference to the semi-unreadable hand-writing of Burt Yarborough, Thursday, in the Book store.
Burt was on the customer side of the counter, and Hazel and me were standing on the business side: Burt Yarborough handed Hazel a list of things, and she had a hard time making the words out!
And of course I wanted to see someone else suck-ass handwriting!
Can Hazel handle the book store by herself? If I hadn’t mentioned the “building blocks” of black, narrow ba_kets still at the “old” book store, that much of the clothes would never have been cleared away! But everything is about taken care of, which was my purpose while Cold was lurking around outside.
I “trouble shoot outside: Why not the bookstore? Eric and Milt can’t or won’t attend to problems out side, and Hazel “ignores” much in the book store.
Hazel has no business bitching about the business office!
Is the business office as it is due to the book store, or is the book store as it is due to the business office?

(acerca de 3:36 P.M.) Damn near twenty-four hours! Kayla arrived here with Joyce around 3:45 yesterday afternoon, and didn’t leave until about 3:0_ today! And then only because Leslie “begged” her!
The weather has been worsening: It is down to the mid-50⁰’s (F), from the low-60⁰’s late this morning.
The wind is so strong, clouds have left the “building” for Their own protection! This is why there is such a blue sky.
Even Phoebus realizes that It can’t prevent Cold from assuming the hegemony in a few hours, try though It (Phoebus) may!
What the hell, F.D.R. tried - and almost succeeded - to gather dictatorial powers! The United States Supreme Court was only one of the many vehicles he attempted to shape in his own image.
If not for Death, would F.D.R. had been “King Franklin”? Or was it his disability the motivation for his attempted coup d’etat of democracy, knowing, as I’m sure he did, that he wouldn’t be around to experience the “legacy”?
I paid particular attention to my physical status while being the playmate of Kayla last Tuesday evening: My “walk” was that of an Old Man, a shuffle!
Of course I am an Old Man!

(acerca de 6:30 P.M.) It’s too pathetic to criticize!
Both Steve and Mary treated me almost childishly when it came to Mary’s e-mail address! But when I finally got it right and sent forth a message via e-mail, neither of them reciprocate!
A counter-greeting card, but not like response to my latest card!
Neither have changed, and most likely never will!
And another thing: I take it the Bush administration expects the Senate to “rubber-stamp its selection of Condoleezza Rice as Secretary of State, with no questions asked! Damn I love this country!
Why must atheism be the exception to the mainstream? Wouldn’t it be nice if it was “scornful” to practice theism, known for what religion really is: “Devil”-worship?
Minorities have wished the above for years! I’m sure “gay” people want “straight” people marginalized!
Almost a 2-hour nap! And boy, did it feel good! As good as sex, but not nearly as smelly!

(23rd, About 8:39 A.M.) If “someone” is trying to tell me that there are “hidden” notes that should be transferred to my journal, I wished that “someone” would let me know where to look!
Sleep whispered in my ear this morning that there are many notes awaiting attention, that I should get my “ass” out of bed and attend to them!
But as I figured, the whore Sleep was only trying to rid Herself of me!
Although it was around 8:15 when I did decide to begin my day: Reluctantly! So maybe Sleep did me a good thing!
Here I would like to confess: Last week sometime, Milt was in the bookstore. The dark-haired female that could very well be Nan M_tley, who was also in the book store, put her left arm around Milt’s neck.
I hate myself for it, but such black-white intimacy still makes me cringe! Why? Or am I one of those that believe in “conditional” equality? And, by definition, equality isn’t “conditional”!
Thursday: Milt kept stating that he knew nothing about Rock music.
The “cheery” inmate that cleans the administration building came into the book store with Milt. I was standing among the clothes, west of Milt and the inmate.
Milt was south of the inmate, the inmate north of Milt, and both were on the northern “quadrant” of the bookstore.
When Milt announced his ignorance of Rock music I approached the 2-man group and volunteered my expertise.
The inmate asked, “Who is the lead singer for ‘Van Halen’?”
“Eddie Van Halen!”, I answered.
I don’t think it should be held against Milt for not knowing about Van Halen!
The inmate is in prison for drugs offense. Milt told me that, speaking in a low tone, as if the inmate might hear and react violently.
I was by the counter, and Milt was on his way to leaving the book store, when I “popped” the question.

(acerca de 9:20 A.M.) Tuesday, Hazel asked me if I was going to watch AMERICAN IDOL with Joyce that evening.
The next day I asked Hazel if she had seen her AMERICAN IDOL the evening before. She said she didn’t, and I related to her that I happened to see the show only because Kayla was visiting. Not that Kayla was watching it, “you” understand, but Joyce is addicted to the sight and sound of television!
The statement may not be appropriate any longer: No telling how much money Joyce is making off me! But the fallo- is true: The more raise I get, the more she make! That is, if Joyce still claims me on her income tax.
If so, is what she doing legal? Is this why she may be giving up the policy of claiming me, and not out of sisterly concern?
I have suspected all along Joyce is trying to hold me back! Such made not really be the case any more, but it may have been Joyce’s tactic at one time!

(acerca de 10:14 A.M.) Wednesday: In response to an “explanation” by Donna of an elderly woman, that relies on drugs and frequent medical care for h__ “survival,” I stated that gerontology and pediatrics were profitable branches of medicine, and to a large extent, one and the same thing.
Most elderly over-medicate themselves. On the other hand, health care providers must cover their asses to avoid being sued for neglect or incompetent treatment.
But it is true what I have always heard: That many elderly - as well as others - visit doctors just for the attention and/or because they are lonely.
A physician is really nothing more than a mechanic. And that shouldn’t “cheapen” physicians: It’s getting to be that mechanics need to be as specialized as doctors!
NBC NIGHTLY NEWS, ABC WORLD NEWS TONIGHT SATURDAY, the president’s weekly radio address (C-Span), The Democratic governor of the state of Washington - Christina Gregoir (?) delivering the Democratic response (C-Span), C-Span 2: Between 5:30 and 6:00, the above were invited guest in my room.
Sorry to say that it wasn’t until I was meeting with a male in his office at the Food Stamp or Welfare Headquarters on Pensacola Street in Tallahassee, FL, in 1997 (?) that I learned the meaning of “pro bono”! 1997! I was forty-seven years old, for heaven’s sakes! I was long past due to be acquainted with the term!
How much damage am I doing to myself by vegetating in Childersburg, AL? Although what options do I have?
I damn near lost my chance with the above: I was reading an article Saturday morning in “Smithsonian” Magazine or the “Wilson Quarterly” when the flash back appeared before my eyes. I was in the middle of a paragraph, and before I could encore the flash back on paper, it had gotten away!
But, as sometimes happens, the flashback became disoriented and ran into my waiting arms!

(acerca de 11:09 A.M.) “Checking out” the new arrival of clothes with Hazel Thursday, we came upon a mini-skirt. The shirt was no more than eighteen inches long. I stated to Hazel that it was something that Jade would wear. Hazel made a comment in reply, but I have forgotten it.
A week ago Thursday, Hazel told me that Jade and April would be working the next day: I had “hinted” that I would work on the Friday if I was needed.
Well, I think Hazel lied to me about April or Jade working on that Friday: I don’t think either works on Friday!
FIRST INVASION: THE WAR OF 1812 (9-11:00 P.M., The History Channel): How degrading it is that I have to rely on television for knowledge that should have been “pumped” into me by higher education!

(acerca de 12:13 P.M.) It may be worth while to research meteorology for the purpose of what can only be called “reachionary weather: The British bombarded Fort McHenry and other areas in the United States during the War of 1812, only to have the heavens respond in kind. Although someone like George W. Bush would swear that “God” is on the side of the United States. I wonder if the real cause of the storm was some kind of chemical reaction to the gunpowder.
Don’t forget: The Normandy landing was delayed by one day due to weather and almost didn’t come off on June 6, 1944!
The gods do choose sides in the “Iliad,” contrary to what I always deny about the Deity. Although the “Iliad” is just a book like the bible!
Anti-evolution people confuse evolution with Darwinism. Darwinism is just one of many “interpretations” of evolution, just as the Judeo-Christian myth of the creation of the world is only one of many non-scientific theories of the Big Bang!
Instead of fighting the forced teaching of non-evolution as a reason for the universe’s raison d’etre, why not take the opportunity to introduce a class to all the creation myths that abound?
It will also stop Creationists from their insistence on a Christian hegemony: Banning non-Christian Creationists from the discussion is legally as “bad” as banning evolution-only from school!

(acerca de 3:32 P.M.) Days like this is the reason I am in the book store! Damn near freezing: The low-30⁰’s (F)! That wind is biting! What a bitch the day is, in spite of Phoebus and Blue Sky!
“Cold-phobic,” the Clouds are in hiding!
And this, the afternoon! No plant or flower is enough to put me outside!
I may as well tell “you” now and get it over with: My near-suicidal tendencies yesterday were brought on by what happened in the back store Thursday.
Hazel and I were inventorying clothes in “back” of the book store. Someone came in: I looked and, jokingly, told Hazel it was only Glenda Bland.
Later - about thirty seconds later - I had to “explain” to Glenda that we were concerned about “theives and robbers.” But only after Hazel asked me what I had said: Glenda was unable to understand my speech pattern and Hazel asked what I had said.
I was on the customer side of the counter.
Glenda Bland was very patronized, saying she thought I was her buddy.
Around noon, I announced to Hazel that I would be protesting the swearing-in of George W. Bush for the second term. She thought I had said something about lunch at 12:00.
Hazel, for whatever reason, turned on the small 4” television in her office and made the room dark, thinking that I was hinting about seeing the swearing-in. When I didn’t “jump at the chance,” she turned the television off and returned the lights to active.
Writing, juggling, reading: Nothing I can do can change the reality of my speech! I must deal with it as a fifty-five (about to be) year-old man. There is nothing I can do to convince people of my intellect, no matter what I do!
The speech pattern has nothing to do with mental or emotional manifestations: My reaction to my speech pattern has everything to do with my mental or emotional manifestations! I can let my speech pattern control me, or I can control my speech pattern. Only death will make it right, and I’m not ready to go there yet!

(24th, About 6:11 A.M.) The more I read and research the French Revolution, the more I read and research the Bush administration! The levée en mass, the Committee of Public Safety: What is happening in the country with George W. Bush in the White House has happened many times before, and “throughout” the world! That is why one shouldn’t take Bush seriously: And this, too, will pass!
I am always “disgusted” by the policy of many southerners to call the Civil War “the War Between the States”! It‘s like saying that everyone that lives in a “red” state like Alabama is a supporter of George W. Bush! One needs look no further than me to disprove that about the “red” states!
When I was more “public,” I would tell people that on my wedding day, I would sing, “Why me, Lord/What have I ever done?”

(acerca de 6:43 A.M.) Is the means of escaping bad or good? Or is it the mere act of escaping?
Religion is a “drug.” Pretending that religion is a good thing, is using religion to gloss over the trials and tribulations of life better than opium?
Do my study and practice make me an addict as much as any inmate?
Many join the military to escape. You say as long as it doesn’t hurt yourself or anybody else? Leaving aside the damage inflicted on society by religion, I would definitely say war hurt others, wouldn’t you?
The prisoners abuse that was and is being done: I suspect that much escape mentality is at play! (continued)




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