Elliott Nest

The Importance of Being Earnest...and Frank
2020-07-15 05:59:50 (UTC)

Trophies For Everyone

-We finally did our taxes; turned them in Monday, signed for them this morning. We do them on this nearby military base for free, appointments pending. Social distancing had us fill out forms and add documents to a packet they checked out and called us to sign when ready. Of course, we waited to the last minute...(tax day ends Weds), but we got it in. So there!

-An old friend from the military called me this afternoon. The kind of friend who you haven't seen/talked to in awhile but it feels like time hasn't moved on once you reconnect. Our time was crazy because he was going tru a divorce, as were other families and yeah. Anyway we made up once it was over; he now lives in Boston; got a job as an Executive Admin something for a upcoming company...Army vet is his boss and everything is coming together for him now, which is great. He had lots of issues but the VA is helping ico disability and PTSD. It was good to reconnect; he sent pics I haven't looked at yet. Fam friend-cool juice!

- Watching Hamilton on Disney Plus there was one song or scene about leaving a mark/legacy, etc... and I'm like, what's mine? Plus, I started thinking after the WW2 and Vietnam, a few vets went out and did great things for society to whatnot, and maybe most just went into normal jobs, raised families and then got old and died. It's scary kind of because I think at 51 I have more days behind me than in front of me; I know that it seems like everyday is the same, I'm avoiding advancing at work, just want to do a good job and go home. I do this Diary, Yelp and Google reviews but it's often sporadic; I never finished college, I have the GI Bill but don't see using it in the near future, I think about music playing everyday but hesitate to pick up the damn instruments. I do not want to get old(der), lose the ability to do things and sit around and think "could've should've would've and cry like dude did at the end of Schindler's List, how he could have saved more Jews if he hadn't been so selfish. I realize everyone has their demons, it seems mine is procrastination...let me tell you IT'S A MOTHERFUCKER

-Lastly, I can picture the 5 of us visiting Mom and Dad's house, where I can finally give them a tour and with my bro there, show them how we grew up...and seeing them roll their eyes at it. I'd just want to (I wouldn't but I'd want to in another world) grab them by the shoulders and say PAY ATTENTION, THIS IS HOW IT WORKS IN REAL LIFE. ADVICE AND IMPORTANT THINGS COME TO YOU WHEN YOU ARE NOT RECEPTIVE TO IT. TAKE IT ALL IN, FOR YOU FUCKING IMBACILLS!!!!

I think the problem is partly generational; we were all like that to some degree.

The problem I think is this quote:

"I HAVE SEEN THE ENEMY, AND THEY ARE US"

Meaning, I think the Generation X'ers (me included) were like "we made it but our parents raised us hardcore and/or with tough love; we're not going to raise our kids that harsh." And then you got 'everybody gets a trophy' kind of BS and this and that, then the kids grew up and think they're entitled to shit, hence Antifa, Cancel Culture and shit. I think we created the monsters.

Well, I feel better thinking and talking about it. Any input (or not) is appreciated and listened to. I need to read other entries by others and feel connected. Have a good night!




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