NO1

My life experiences
2020-07-11 23:06:13 (UTC)

I'm not ok.....

hi it's have been some time since I have written something I thought u know I would be okay but the sad truth is that I'm not and more importantly I lost control, I'm living in delusion I live inside my mind like I built this character like I'm this person who got everything I want from this world everything that In reality I can't have and may not achieve it hard to live in reality to admit everything is wrong, to just fix things to be, do better to live a life that I want that I truly desire but I can't, I can't help but to avoid it, it feels that I live inside my mind all the time I creat friends ppl who love me ppl who wants me, I created a family it's like u have the ability to imagine and fix what wrong and redo things because in ur head u are in control, not like life when bad things happen u can't go back in time and fix things when u lose u lose there is no coming back and i can't deal with that it too much so i just give up life and the life the one that in my head is so much safer and comforting sometimes i just wish i can be banished from this world i don't want to live anymore i don't, i want to scream i just wanna scream i need help can u hear me i need help i can't deal with it I'm done please take me somewhere real somewhere that i can be safe a place where there is real ppl i don't remember the last time that i have friends I'm a loner i wish this would end and i wish it would end now!!!




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