DominiqueCasise

Silver Lining
2020-06-22 00:00:00 (UTC)

22.06.2020

It's currently 05:48, I cannot sleep, I had to stay awake all night while trying to complete my essay. I gave up around 5 but have had no luck getting to sleep.
Today is the day I'm moving out and I feel as though I am too stressed to fall asleep. I decided to meet Nathan which resulted in us sleeping together 7 times over 3 days. I'm an idiot and didn't use protection so I am most likely pregnant now too. (I was ovulating at the time I did it).
I'm such an idiot because I've just fallen back into that trap. I still love him and I just want to run into his arms and cry to hard. I rely on him for comfort and it's so hard to detach myself. Nathan is my home, home is where the heart is and all. I just want him to keep me safe from the bad world and keep me happy. I feel like I'm leaving my home again.
I feel really bad as this was the last weekend I was going to be with my family but I haven't really been around. My friend Jade is staying with me you see, so I've neglected talking to my parents. I feel so guilty. Jade is asleep next to me and I just want her to piss off, I know that's bad but she's snoring and had distracted me from my dad on Father's Day and from being with my family.
I don't know I need to try and get sleep real bad




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