Emily

Day In the Life of an American Teen
2020-07-06 21:07:02 (UTC)

Well...

She was drunk. I guess I should've known. She mentioned that Nick wanted to buy alcohol to me and said that she didn't want to have any drinks. She ended up getting real drunk and then saying all of that.

Yesterday, she said sorry in reference to being dry and sarcastic during the movie. She didn't even remember everything that happened until Nick told her this morning after I went to work.

I wrote a letter to her while I was at work. When she picked me up, she apologized and basically said everything I had written down. We talked for a while. She said that I always sorry for things and then keep doing it, like drugs and drinking and Leo and other men. I explained to her that I wasn't doing it just for the sheer fun of it, but just that it was an addictive pattern of behavior.

She found the puff bar. Lol I lost it last night. I lost it in the sheets last night and quit bothering to hide it. She asked why I kept doing it. I told her. I don't think it's wrong. I don't think it's wrong to smoke weed or drink and vape. I don't really like smoking wee or drinking that much. I don't even like vaping. I don't even really inhale it. I just like blowing out the smoke in patterns lol. You can't change someone who doesn't think what they're doing is wrong. I guess that's not the best way to at least get a door back, but I don't want it if I'm getting it because I pretended to regret certain things.

It's easier to cope with knowing she was drunk and easier to understand. I wish I'd known the whole time, then I wouldn't have irritated her. I'm probably gonna fall asleep so goodnight




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