Easy to get but hard to forget

Miculy
2020-07-06 19:28:52 (UTC)

a big mess

Since the last time I've wrote here, a lot of things happened. Bad things.
Horrible things.

The worst thing that happened is that I failed the entrance exam for university, again. But there's something more to it. There were 5 flutists taking the exam, and 2 of us could pass, like every year. 4 of us gathered and had fun and laughed and stuff, and then this girl Sara came - I'm not gonna mention the details but basically she treated us like crap. We didn't even know who the hell this girl was. Later we found out that she's taking the entrance exam too. We were like, okay. When everyone finished with the exam, normally we all waited for the results, and Sara literally just packed her things and left after she finished ('cause we were taking the exam one by one). We were kind of confused and wondering why she left, but ignored it soon after. After the entrance exam was over, the jury and the flute teacher came out and told us: "Only Sara passed the exam. You all can go home." After I called my teacher and told her what happened (and the rest of us who were taking the exam figured this out) - she told me that she must have known in advance that she was gonna pass. And we came to the conclusion: she was literally the only one who was taking private classes with this flute teacher. None of the others, including me, took more than two private classes. There was this one girl who took the exam, she won 25 first prizes only this season, and someone's trying to tell me Sara is better? Never heard of her before in my life. Another guy that was there, passed the exam in Switzerland, and didn't go just because it was too expensive. And now he failed in fucking Serbia, and passed in Switzerland, world famous music academy? Me, an international soloist that has dozens of teachers WORLDWIDE, couldn't pass, but Sara that no one ever heard about did. But then, literally everyone from this uni confirmed -- she must have known. And that's now it goes. The one who pays for private classes the longest, is the one that's gonna pass the entrance exam.
Bullshit.
Now on top of that, my shitty father tells me I have to give up and never play the flute again, because it's not for me.
You know what? D i e.
I don't give a FUCK. I'll try million times more if I have to. I'll keep trying until I get in. Motherfuckers can only kiss my ass and keep on minding their own business.

The only good thing is that my relationship with Alex is literally amazing.




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