Emily

Day In the Life of an American Teen
2020-07-03 03:24:10 (UTC)

Pink and Blue

I don't know why, but I just decide to blow all my money. Spent like $150 just on my feet and nails. And then went out to eat. And then bought puff bars. I cannot believe he let me. They're expensive though. He only had banana left, which i don't really life. Being honest, this is my first time actually owning one. I always just hit off my friends.

I can't believe I feel guilty. She could've tracked me if she had given the phone. My idea was to make her regret not giving me my phone. We were gonna meet up with this guy. I'm just really fucking horny. And then I thought, how am I supposed to please myself with these fucking nails.

I'll probably just go to the mall and steal a vibrator.

I got pink and blue thought. Baby pink faded into baby blue. I like them, but they're weird to type with. Weird to do everything. Open doors and change clothes and shower. I couldn't have these on 24/7 I don't know how other girls do it.

I still feel guilty. I was really mean before I left. She left me $30 dollars on my desk for me to go, but I just put it back in her room.I sent her some long paragraphs on my little brothers phone about how she doesn't listen and the reason I said no. I was really acting like a spoiled bitch. I was just kind of expecting everything back like they said they were going to do, and then just didn't. I'm not very good at saying sorry.

Hanging out with Noe makes me think of Leo more. I thought about texting him on Noe's phone. God. I'm some psycho ex girlfriend. What is wrong with me. I'm everything I once found distasteful.

We're going out to the Lake tomorrow, with Nick's side of the family. I just don't...really feel like it. They're lucky I don't have to work. I called of Sunday because they said we were going on Sunday, but now they just planned to go Friday and I just happen not to work. It's irritating that they don't communicate.

My two corporate managers worked with us today and god both of them are so hot. They have to be at least 6'4. I get so nervous. I hate myself for that lol. I can't play video games so well with these nails. I'd rather take the win than these nails. Leo would've found something to dislike about them. I can hear his voice. "Yours are short. My roommate gets hers really long."
I didn't want the really long ones. I want to text him again. I'm just out of passion. Like. What do I do? Where do I put all of my attention? It used to be him. He would be the first person I showed. Now there's nobody that I want to even bother talking to. What would I even say? I wish he was still my friend on snapchat. Then I'd just post it and he'd see it. Maybe I should just be straightforward. "I miss you." Or maybe I shouldn't bother until I have a phone again. It'll be more painful to have him and hardly get to text him than just not having him. I know he'd only want me to jack off, and my parents would probably take my phone at night anyway. That'd be worse than it is now.

I still type in his name to see if he unblocked me. He could. He'll get bored and he'll do it. I hope it's sooner rather than later.




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