All that is
Ad 2:
2020-06-30 18:48:23 (UTC)

happy happy

My brain feels scattered and i can't work. can't focus.
My self-discipline goes away. My self-will. But Images are sweeter yes, sound is sweeter. Connecction between both is seamless. i could paint a picture gently guided by the flow of this music.

But i can't do it. It's been two months. lets keep it that way.