Phillip Wilson

Amazingly, I survived my Life
2011-09-30 00:05:50 (UTC)

2004 REVIEW (PART FIFTY)

December- Childersburg/Montgomery/Sylacauga, AL (continues)

You know, Donna, I never thought of Montgomery as a college town, but you are right: It is!
I seem to recall eating at a restaurant in Montgomery on the way back for a location shooting (Mobile?) while with the Center for Public Television in 1994 or 1995. I try to remember the eating place for David.

(acerca de 10:02 A.M.) One of the situations that exerted a strong influence of the workings of society is the male hegemony for many centuries: To be simplistic about it, men considered women unworthy and incapable of assuming positions of importance. What happened before this mindset, I have no idea: If true that women “invented” farming, then at one time, the female must have ruled a “woman’s world.”
Milt and Joyce agree with me that Leisa assigned Jade to the book store the first day of book buy-back because she could: Jade is a female and Leisa feels that only women should rule in the bookstore.
I now suspect Susan Salotto, the acting president of CACC, of resenting men. That is why she gave me that “Why are you here?” that morning in the book room of the temporary bookstore.
Ms. Salotto went out of her way to tell me not to block or even semi block the passage from the supply room of the “new” book store to the lobby of what use to be Upward Bound.
This happened Tuesday morning: I was in the supply room. Ms. Salotto was in transit from the supply room to the former lobby.
Women are quick to point out the damage men have done by ignoring the female. So why do women not heed their own “advice”?
One of my gifts to Kayla was a child’s Calender from “National Geographic.” For years and years, I have given David and Leslie an engagment Calender (each). Each claim that the Calender plays an important part of her/his life, but that could be just patronizing me.
Well, Kayla is now a part of the tradition: As I said, “The beat goes on . . .”

(acerca de 10:45 A.M.) I finally realized something: The mother of “Lalo” of “Lalo and Stitch” frame, should be on the Comedy Central animated series, DRAWN TOGETHER. The “V” of the pubic area is so true to life that the mother of “Lalo” is seductive!
KEEPING UP APPEARANCES (8-9:00 P.M., P.B.S.) became the center piece of my 25th of December 2004, since I couldn’t find anything else to be the centerpiece.
Was Hazel reluctant to have me in the book store because she was under the impression that I wasn’t being allowed? From whatever sources, Hazel was sure that Eric was my actual “boss”! She didn’t believe me when I kept saying “It’s not going to happen!”, but listened to Joyce instead.
I think Hazel, and most other people, are re-considering my “status” at CACC, and the pre-conceptions that abound about me!
NBC NIGHTLY NEWS and ABC WORLD NEWS TONIGHT SATURDAY kept me abreast of “reality” for about fifteen minutes yesterday between 5:40 and 5:55.
Did I hear Correctly Tuesday: April is to be married soon? In the Cafeteria, Hazel was “lecturing” April on early marriage.

(acerca de 12:51 P.M.) As pitiful as it is, I watched the opening and guest host monologue of SATURDAY NIGHT LIVE (10:35-11:35 P.M., [?] NBC) yesterday evening.
And, get this, I sat through the “final” part of SCENT OF A WOMAN (8-10:00 P.M. [?]), mainly because the film stars Al Pacino, one of the greater actors extant.
A & E aired SCENT OF A WOMAN. I sampled other channels at 9:00, but found nothing to my taste.
One morning last week - pardon, the week before last -I made the casual comment that the leaves in the backyard were no where as plentiful as the McHafey back yard.
Joyce, as usual, was in no mood for my half-joking: She pointed out that Jim Veazey’s yard is “leafy.” I blamed the wind, even though that doesn’t explain why the McHafey yard was - is - populated with so many leaves! If the wind shoved the leaves of this yard north into the Veazey yard, it follows that the same wind would have blown the McHafey leaves over here!
Last Thursday, Bill told David, in “private” - Bill was in the recliner and David was standing to Bill’s left, in the den of the Leslie/Bill/Kayla house - of a female that used a candy cane to masturbate.
David had hung a Candy Cane from his shirt, at the neck, via the Curve. This, somehow, triggered Bill’s memory.
Far be it for me to analyze Bill! His hypocricy should be apparent by now!

(acerca de 2:21 P.M.) Just because Osama bin Laden “brags” about being responsible for 9/11, doesn’t mean he actually did it. Many people claim credit for an event or what have you, and that person didn’t even Come close to perpertrating the act.
But on the other hand, just because a person “brags” about being behind an event, doesn’t mean that s/he didn’t do it! I, for example, can tell someone to her/his face that I am about to do an evil deed or take legal action and s/he most likely would think that I am just being a “mad man,” not to be taken seriously.
What a mistake this person would be making! But the more people that ignore what I say, the better!
I am not advocating pre-emptive profilling, by any means! In fact, it’s profilling that can result in the above!
Gender-jealousy makes Leisa the villan!
As I have said repeatedly, women are the major drawbacks to gender equality. There are so many so-called “independent” women - Joyce is one of them - that are envious of Leisa for being able to practice her “strong-willed woman” in her job!

(acerca de 3:46 P.M.) Remember that can of leaves that the city wouldn’t take? Well, I “stold” a bag from the shop, and emptied the leaves into that, and collected kmore leaves to fill it. Along with four more bags, that black plaster bag is awaiting a trip to wherever the city takes un-wanted leaves.
How kind of Wind to “sweep” the leaves in the gutter! All I have to do is transfer them to bags.
Now, to await more gatherings!
Winter is desperate to be loved by 2004! But alas, too late!
The low-50⁰’s (F), beautiful sunny day, a sky that would knock your “socks off”!
Nice going, Winter, but 2004 “ain’t” buying!
The United States senator from Oklahoma that made the undemocratic statement, as a senate committee investigated the prisoner abuse at Abu Ghraib by “dismissing” the charges, claiming that the many should suffer (Iraqis) for the few! I made a terrible assumption that the people of Oklahoma are ultimatly responsible for such a mind-set by electing the creep to the senate: People such as this mockery to the United States can find ways to “win” without the voters.
God Bless America!

(27th, About 8:38 A.M.) I have just turned the 2004 National Geographic Engagement Calender to its final page. It seems that I do this to a calender sooner and sooner each year!
In composing a grocery list, I needed to include those round, long, meaty things (no, not that) that are inserted in a long bun to make a hot dog.
“Weiner” or “Wiener”: Which is it? Discussing it with Joyce, she fell back on the “‘i’ before ‘e’ except after ‘c’” rule, a rule that have too many exceptions to be of much help, which I told Joyce.
But it is “weiner”: The dictionary told me so this morning!
Am I now “creating” a past, something I accuse most autobiographies of? But I think this happened: Dr. Carrie Sandhl (?), a theatre professor at FSU in 1998, told - or hinted - to the Bibliography and Research (?) class, of which I was a member, that “which” is masculine and “that” is feminine.
You see, Carrie is one of those “independent,” “strong-willed” women, which there is nothing wrong with! Except that they grossly mis-interpret “independent,” “strong-willed” feminism: “Which” and “that” differ on the bases of non-essential (the former) and essential (the latter) clauses.

(acerca de 9:08 A.M.) I told Hazel on Thursday that the “new” book store needed to be maintained if it is to remain “top quality.” She required an explanation: Once a week or so, someone should examined the electrical system, computers, etc. Otherwise, it would have been just as good to have remained in the temporary bookstore!
Of course, we all know that such preventive maintenance won’t happen, unless I do it. Hazel should keep an on-going list of what’s not as it should be (using the pre-opened condition of the book store as a standard). But don’t expect that to happen.
It looks as if Hazel - and the rest of the CACC gang - would know after all these years that “you” can’t leave maintenance to maintenance! The reason Eric does “nothing” is because nobody sends him to something that needs to be done! And Eric is not creative enough to seek things out!
I didn’t realize it until Hazel pointed it out, but next year will be my thirtieth anniversary of keeping a journal. There should be a lot more volumes than what I have, but is a “success” that I have as many as I do!

(acerca de 10:11 A.M.) One only has to be familiar with what is Currently selling on television to understand why George W. Bush was “re-elected”!
The vast majority of people insist on “reality” that “they” can control. That’s why the “war” in Iraq is allowed to continued: The Bush administration actually have some people convinced that the reality of terrorism is being “controlled” by going after Iraq!
What a terrible thing to do to these trusting souls! The administration should be ashamed of itself!
If “Hollywood values” are rejected by 51-52% of Americans (those that “voted” for Bush), then why do these people buy into Hollywood’s products, television, videos, and movies?
One of the panelists of THE MCLAUGHLIN GROUP (3-3:25 P.M., P.B.S.) made mentioned of the “re-election” of George W. Bush is an indication that most voters are disgusted with “liberal values” (whatever that means)!
Although not everyone that “voted” for Bush is anti-Hollywood. The voter may have been against John Kerry for some reason!
One of the networks will air a so-called “reality” show beginning next year: WHO’S MY DAD? or something involving meeting “your” dad for the first time.
When I saw the “trailer” yesterday evening, I remember thinking what a cheap shot the show is! So many people, connecting with their real fathers is no game!
If George W. Bush deludes himself about being “divinely-appointed,” there’s no doubt that he is positive that his “leadership” qualities earned him a mandate. Doesn’t he know - of course he doesn’t - that voters “vote” for themselves, not for a candidate? Bush was “re-elected” not to “lead” but to follow. And if he doesn’t follow correctly, the Bush administration is in deep trouble!
NBC NIGHTLY NEWS (5:30-6:00 P.M.), and ABC WORLD NEWS TONIGHT SUNDAY (5:30-6:00 P.M.) were addendums to the pre-taped MCLAUGHLIN. The news programs updated the latter, which is what addendum means! Although the update didn’t last longer than twenty minutes.

(acerca de 11:38 A.M.) By the way, the floor of the “new” book store is not slanting down west-to-east: A round object does not move on its own power. If such a slant existed, the object would.
So its the door that has an “uneven” bottom. If the floor is slanted, both the south and the north glass doors that serve as exits/entrances to the book store wouldn’t “fit”! As it is, only the north door had a graduated space between the bottom and the floor.
As Joyce said, Eric “hired” his buddies to install doors, and that is the results!
The “crack” is very pronounced! Hazel commented on it.
THE SIMPSONS (7-7:30 P.M., FOX) was a much sought-after “guest” in my room yesterday evening.
However, LAW & ORDER: CRIMINAL INTENT (8-9:00 P.M., N.B.C.) was only invited because P.B.S.’s NATIONAL GEOGRAPHIC SPECIAL “cancelled” because of a bad reputation.
In spite of the theme, the Christmas plays that the Family Room had on Saturday were well done. In trying to read the “bug” in the right-hand corner, lower, of the screen (from the perspective of the viewer), it was as if I were “taking” an eye examination: “I,” “N,” “S.” “P.”
Yes, the Inspiration Channel, a Christian outlet that Joyce and granny settled on.
A modern-day Passion or Miracle Play? The stage of the Alabama Shakespeare Festival?
The first large production was from Cascade Hills, wherever that is. By Columbus. GA? There was a “commercial” from that town.
Omaha, NE? The second play was associated with Omaha in some way.
As a non-theist, how do I react to the take-over of the Winter Holiday by Christianity? What the hell, it’s only a name! To be scared of it would be to hand a victory to theists!
But could Christmas be the biblical Spring given to “Jesus’s” birth? Yes, because Palestine is in Spring mode in December!

(acerca de 1:17 P.M.) Can a free-thinker rej_ct free-thought? It is the same conundrum face by a person who is an opponent of bigotry: Can someone be vehemently against bigotry, yet be a bigot towards bigots?
Or, if “God” is omnipotent, than S/He can make another “God,” but if S/He can make another “God,” then S/He isn’t omnipotent!
I am so confused!
How do I know that the translation of “Doctor Zhivago” that I am currently reading - translated from the Russian by Max Hayward and Manya Harari - is true to the original? I am quick to criticize Andrew Davies (?) for his “reworking” of the novel for MASTERPIECE THEATRE (9-11:00 P.M., P.B.S.) when any translation could very well be a “re-write”!
This may not be intentional by the translator or translators: The English language has an entirety different construction from the Russian language!
Though I doubt if I will ever know “first-hand”: The odds of my learning Russian enough to mentally translate, much less even know 3-4 words, are extremely high!
Anyway, Davies’ version is listed as being “from” the novel by Boris Pasternak, not a direct adaptation for the screen.
The back ground music is reason enough to watch the video version! How I would “love” to own a copy of the soundtrack!
Regardless of its connection to the novel, there are many “camera shots” that are thrilling and exciting!
The “capture” of nature on Celluloid almost makes the film the style of the Romantics. It is as if Nature is the “star” and everybody else is unnecessary!

(acerca de 3:07 P.M.) I have already explained that pre-emptied warfare is really a support of abortion: Why take the chance that a person or persons will do evil? The assump- is that the person or persons will , so eliminate that person or persons before s/he or they can cause trouble.
Pre-emptied warfare also turns the basic premise of democracy on its face: The presumption of innocence! A group of people are automatically guilty, just for being what “they” are.
Now “you” tell me: Can one really “sell” democracy this way?
A beautiful but Cold Winter day: The low-50⁰’s (F), cloudless sky, a dance of Shine that is outstanding.
But . . .what the hell! It’s Winter, after all!
I also saw an interview between Brian Lamb and Brian Williams on C-Span, albeit the final 5-6 minutes.
And was it yesterday afternoon that I witness part of the modern remake of SPARTACUS on The History Channel? Which whettled my appetite for more research into the Roman Empire!
The reason for even mentioning the senator from Oklahoma, as I did earlier, when because David told of an employee (a reporter?) at WAKA in Montgomery that use to work in Tulsa, or is from Oklahoma, or went to school in Oklahoma, or something about Oklahoma. It was in the truck either going to or coming from the Thursday gift-opening “party.”

(28th, About 7:15 A.M.) It’s too good to pass up! Page 118 of the December 2004 “National Geographic,” very last line. “Moses,” Rat_iff reminds the crowd, “worked miracles with his rod.”
Tom Rat_iff, a Baptist minister and drag racer at Darlington International Dragway near Hartsville, S.C., conducting a trackside chapel service.
When I was a child, I spake as a child: “Rod” was - is - another nickname for “penis.”
So, did Moses work wonders with his “rod”?
I remember “explaining” to Jo Clifton that there are more sinuses in the body than those located at the top of the nose.
Jo was impressed by my knowledge but she was - is? - known to patronize(d) people, especially me!
The above happened in 1977 in the Hollywood section of Homewood, AL.
Where did I learn about sinuses? No, not from a book! Of all places, a television commercial was my “instructor”!

(acerca de 10:40 A.M.) I am writing this at the laundromat on the highway (280): My blankets were in bad shape!
$3 - 12 quarters - and they are being “de-fleaed’ in a heavy-duty washer.
50¢ for a can of Minute Maid Lemonade.
A roll of quarters is $10, not five: Frontier (?) Bank downtown supplied me with the forty “two-bits.”
My feet brought me to the Cleaning House, the blankets rolled and hung over my back, just like I use to do when with the circus.
At least the day is great for a hike! Phoebus is most kind!
I recall the drive with Jo Clifton from Greensburg, S.C., where she lived with her husband (Robert) and two kids (John and Dulce), to Charleston, S.C.: I was “explaining”diabetes or some medical proceedure.

(acerca de 11:05 A.M.) Maybe the “explanation” to Jo Clifton was about the menstrual cycle (the female period).
This was the early-1980’s (1982?): Give me a break!
The blankets are tumbling in a dryer. Their “play” cost me 75¢.
A pack of cigarettes from the convenient store “up the road” (north): About $2.02. I can’t tell “you” the exact amount, but I saved a little by relying on the store instead of Allen’s Food Mart.
Besides, that non-Allen’s store is closer, since I am not at work.
AMERICAN EXPERIENCE presented a biography - Part 1 - of Woodrow Wilson (8-9:22 P.M., P.B.S.) yesterday evening. “Ain’t” it a bitch that I was born into the “wrong” Wilson clan? Milt - whose surname is also “Wilson” - and I was joking about this a few weeks in the shop.
Even Wilson’s Sporting Goods: I would gladly become a football enthusiast if only . . .
If any other “leader” of a country is as “semi-democratic” as the Bush administration, s/he is labelled a dictator. That is what is being said about President Putin of Russia.
Methinks someone is jealous!
A few minutes of SCARBOROUGH COUNTRY on MSNBC, after the “lecture,” let me know that Mr. Y, the opposition candidate, won in the Ukraine.

(acerca de 11:30 A.M.) 25¢, the blankes got out of me for more tumbling. How could I refuse?
It seems what Andrew Davies did was to take one or two “scenes” from the “sub-chapters” of “Doctor Zhivago,” and “explained” them. For I “recognized” the film version in the novel!

(acerca de 1:48 P.M.) If I was a homeless person, why in the hell would I choose Childersburg, AL, to be “homeless” in? It’s bad enough having a residence and a job in this “city”!
Maybe the skinny librarian was kidding, but a few minutes after I had sat down before a computer, the woman said, “Sir, sir, sir” (I didn’t hear her for several “sirs”) “are you going to be here long?” or something referring to the “bed roll” I had plopped down to my left.
A lot of homeless people spend their days at libraries: The public library in Tallahassee, FL, comes to mind.
I checked my e-mail, and left as quickly as I could!
37¢ for a stamp before I was a victim of mistaken identity at the library.
John Kerry is doing it right: He is behaving like a “co-president,” visiting Iraq and everything. The Democrats could very well Come out ahead in 2006 because of his unofficial presidency: He (Kerry) will show the people what could (and should) have been!
I was too tired to shop at Dollar General, so I decided to purchase some “C” batteries - for the keyboard - from Family Dollar: $4.32 for two packs of two batteries.
Woodrow Wilson’s racism can’t be blame on his southern upbringing! He was president of Princeton University, for heaven’s sake! Racism in his 20’s can be trace to child- and boyhood. But racism when 50? That’s too easy an excuse! What, was racism in the air, a part of the DNA if born “below” the Mason-Dixon line?
Wilson would surely have inter-acted with African-Americans and free-thinkers at Princeton. Not to mention his active role in civil unrest!
No: History must look elsewhere for the reason for Wilson’s racism!

(acerca de 3:37 P.M.) Kayla was here in her pajamas-- in the kitchen - when I left the house this morning a little after 9:00. She was in the kitchen, still in her pajamas, when I returned from town a little before 1:30.
You see, Kayla had spent the night, after Joyce - Kayla was napping on the couch; it was around 7:45 - had told granny that she (Kayla) wasn’t.
After I saw what I wanted to on SCARBOROUGH COUNTRY, I went back to the Family Room (around 9:40). Kayla, though, was coming down the hall, followed by Joyce, headed to Joyce’s bedroom.
Joyce was moody and snappy all day. When she and Kayla left around 3:0_, granny “set me down” at the south end of the kitchen table and asked why Joyce was behaving like she was. I told granny not to take Joyce seriously.
Joyce was her usual, bitchy self, as far as I could tell.
Granny said that Joyce got angry because Kayla wouldn’t leave granny’s room, although granny tried to get Kayla out.
Joyce and Patsy are out to dinner. Kayla was taken home, although, according to granny, Leslie and Bill are doing something that Kayla will be in the way.
Granny told me that Joyce has been “moody” ever since work ceased for the year. And Joyce tells me that work is the only way that she can escape granny. But Joyce “invites” granny’s meddling.
That’s how Joyce is: She “insist” “you” do something and when “you” do it, she bitches that “you” did it!
It was around 4:30 yesterday when Kayla came over here.
No wonder the laundry trip was so appealing: The afternoon reached the upper-50⁰’s (F)! Phoebus continues Its “year-end” sale, getting rid of unused 2004 Shine.
Clouds are beginning to fill the sky: Rain any time soon? 2004 or 2005?
As I stated, the Family is not a democratic unit: In the case of this one, pretending that Joyce, by virtue of owning this house, is the “head” of the household, the Family is an awful training grounds for social-functioning! If granny was as “grannyish” as Joyce is, I would be less prepared than I am for the real world!
All these years, I thought the “pilonidal cyst” that I had removed on February 14 (Valentine’s Day), 1980, at Cooper Green Hospital in Birmingham (free-of-charge) referred to the location of the cyst (located between my buttocks, at the end of my spine)! But I learned yesterday, while researching in “Dorland’s Illustrated Medical Dictionary” that pilonidal is a descriptive term, meaning “having a nidus or tuft of hair.”
What in the hell took so long to discover the truth?
By the way, Steve and Mary - I have “wetdreams” of Mary - are “insured” (along with Martin) by Cooper Green Hospital, the premiums based on their income.

(29th, About 7:43 A.M.) “. . . fingers his prayer beads . . .”? Why would a devout theist do that? According to Maynard Owen Williams, that’s exactly what a coppersmith did in a 1930’s or 1940’s photograph, seen in the December 2004 “National Geographic.”
Though the fingering is not the “second” finger usually meant when instructed to give a thing or person the finger!
A 1946 photograph.
Milt received two approx. 12” x 18” boxes by U.P.S., last Tuesday (or was it Monday?).
I was joking with him in the cafeteria later in the day - I was standing, my chest westwardly. Milt was seated at a table near the new bookstore - that any box must be picked up within ten minutes after it arrives, or it reverts to me. This after telling him that he had two boxes in the book store.
Keeping in the spirit, he asked what the boxes contained.
Then it became serious. Milt told me the shipment were probably chemicals he had ordered or sent back to the company, which returned them to him.
I didn’t think chemicals could be sent in the mail or U.P.S.
Of course, this was Monday or Tuesday of last week, the 20th or 21th of December.
For some reason, Milt “explained” what the boxes may contain, as he was about to enter the book store.

(acerca de 8:24 A.M.) Don’t “ you” think its kind of puerile to continue with anthropomorphizing “God” when “you”reach adulthood? It’s like still believing in a corporeal Santa Claus when 14!
Besides, “God” must be saddened that S/He failed with humankind! S/He made it possible for humans to make use of their brains, and here “we” are, unable or unwilling to advance beyond an anthropomorphic “God”!
As we all know, I use to think that I had been chosen by “God” to “purify” clowning.
During this period of self-delusion, I was pathetic! Other than circus and television, my clowning skills were an embarrassment! As long as I was mis-guided in this way, my growth was stunted.
According to the AMERICAN EXPERIENCE biography of Woodrow Wilson, Wilson “declared” the fact that “God” put him in the White House. If such was the case, then why did he do so many ungodly things, especially in race relations and wartime civil liberties?
Not only are such presidents pathetic, but also blasphemous against “God”!
Though we all know that the “Divine Right” label is only a career-move, which makes the claim all the more dangerous!
If a person was actually chosen by “God” to be president, s/he would be too childlike, too inocent, to attempt an “end run” around democracy, since “democracy” is considered “God’s” gift to human kind!

(acerca de 9:07 A.M.) Due to my diurnal trip to the laundromat yesterday, I still had my “schedule” to “meet.” That’s why I only allowed myself the first “half” of THE NEWSHOUR WITH JIM LEHRER (5:30-6:25 P.M., P.B.S.).
Besides, the “schedule” included the third hour of “The Elegant Universe” on NOVA (7-8:00 P.M., P.B.S.) and LIVING EDENS (8-9:00 P.M., P.B.S.).
As for my bed: The aroma of the blankets isn’t as troublesome as it had been! And the fleas are “endangered.”
The shitted feet - I mean fitted sheet - greatly smooths over the surface!

(acerca de 10:06 A.M.) Now which is it, a tsunami is a tidal wave or not? Public Radio’s ALL THINGS CONSIDER (or was MORNING EDITIONt?), this past Sunday, interviewed a woman that is connected to the National Tsunami Center, or whatever, in Hawai’i, and she said that a tsunami isn’t the same as a tidal wave. But many research vehicles, including “The World Encyclopedia, state otherwise.
Channel 42 (WIAT), a television station in Birmingham, announced the effects of a “tidal wave” that had struck the coast of Asia and Africa, instead of a “tsunami.”
Whom am I to believe? “Tsunami” is Japanese for “tidal wave,” but shouldn’t I believe the woman in Hawai’i? After all, she would be familiar with all the subtle difference between a “tsunami” and a “tidal wave.”
The first time I heard the word “tsunami” spoken was by Jim ___ (?), as he sat at the controls of the Center for Public Television one day in 1994 or 1995. I happened to be walking the hall in front.
THE LATE SHOW WITH DAVID LETTERMAN (C.B.S.) and THE TONIGHT SHOW STARRING JAY LENO make me a yuppie American like a lot of people: These 10:35 to 11:35 P.M., programs are reputed to be a part of the daily regiment of the “movers and shakers” of this country!

(acerca de 11:20 A.M.) LIVING EDENS - yes, a “s” should go in the above report of this program - presented a male salmon ejaculating his sperm over the female’s eggs. In an extreme close-up, no less!
Talk about “shooting your wad”!
Both the male and female salmon, side by side, had their mouths wide open, in estary. Now I can understand the male’s reaction to the masturbation, but the female? Unless - where where her fin, anyway? Was she giving the male a “hard”?
The MASTERPIECE THEATRE’s presentation of “Doctor Zhivago” includes footage of the actual revolution and civil war in Russia. The Communists were very disciplined, that for sure!
It is alleged that the Bush administration is very much disciplined. Draw your own conclusions!
Many people claim - maybe jokingly - that the moon affects their mood. And we all know about “werewolfs.”
Well, maybe there is a direct relationship between the moon and aliberant behavior: In researching tides, I understand that the
influence of another “heavenly” body on any liquid object or fluid, moveable thing on earth are subject to tides. And since the human body is mostly water, it makes perfectly good sense that there are “low tides” and “high tides” in all people!
Is astrology and the zodiac to be taken seriously, then? “When the moon is in the h seventh house/And Jupiter aligns with Mars . . .”: Are “we,” indeed, in the Age of Aquan__s?

(acerca de 3:__ P.M.) Bill Cosby, among others, claim that many African Americans reject education because it makes them “white.” Well, let me tell you, the anti-white discrimination that is rampant among African Americans - using the Cultural Unity Organization at C.A.C.C., turning it into a "Black Power” club, is only one example - makes them white! The purpose of bringing African Americans “up” to a level playing field was to exocise discrimination from the face of the earth! But it hasn’t turned out that way? Racism is stronger than ever!
Before I forget it, I saw the “final” ten minutes or so of TONY BROWN’S JOURNAL (2:30-3:00 P.M., P.B.S.) last Sunday.
The lower-60⁰’s (F) on the final day but two of 2004. Winter is desperate to stay put, not to be displaced in a new home.
Phoebus is in negotiations with 2004, but as the Bush administration did in Iraq, 2004 “ain’t” listening to reason.
If I remember my history, all presidents that embarrassed this country at least did some good to off-set what they did: Nixon opening the “door” to China, Johnson and Civil rights, Wilson and the League of Nations, etc. But what has George W. Bush done for the country? Surely “you” don’t think he has protected the United States from terrorism!! To the contrary, he has made things worse!
That a powerful country like the United States, a leader of the world, is presided over by a pathetic loser! What a waste!
Forty-one years ago, a dreadful snowstorm invaded Childersburg. I remember trying to deliver newspapers while pushing my bicycle, the snow and ice preventing me from riding it. And that was the morning: I have forgotten how the afternoon was.
A white New Year’s Day for 1964 to come into history!

(30th, About 8:03 A.M.) When I was active in the Baha’i Faith, the “rumor” going around that if humankind continued to make a mockery of the “hegemony” s/he has been given in the world, the rocks will take over. As all things religious, the “rumor” is only a metaphor, that it is not written in stone that humankind is guaranteed the Number One spot in life. The s/he can have it taken away from her/his if s/he doesn’t straighten up and fly right!
Technically, women were “liberated” so that the playing field between genders would be level. Maybe what’s going on is only “normal” for a transitional phase, humankind has been given yet another chance, and the pressure is on the female. It is obvious that the male can’t or won’t do it alone. The female must work with him, not at cross purposes, as seems to be wide-spread at the moment.
Isn’t it ironic that independent people don’t wish for her/his neighbors to be “independent”? It was bad enough when men did it!
Maybe it’s male-controlled women’s lib that held out high hopes that the woman would value “independence” in others! And male-controlled women’s lib is a oxymoron!

(acerca de 8:36 A.M.) Some time it seems that Joyce finds my “self-sufficiency” too much to handle! It pisses her off, I can’t help but “fell,” that my “status” at CACC is beyond her control!
This reminds me - the intention all along; the above was only a note that was demanding transfer to the journal - of an “event” with Anita Matlow in Tallahassee, FL, in 1997: It was not uncommon for Anita to seek “consolation” with Don after she and I had one of our almost-daily “fights.” One evening after one such dispute I went in search of Anita (we lived on Piny Road at the time).
I found her. She was either sitting on a picnic table with Don in the nearby pondside park, or walking with Don in the vicinity.
I remember Don stating that each of us- Anita and me - was “independent,” the implication that our (Anita’s and mine) relational problems stem from that fact.
That explanation was too simplistic! Anita was - is - not capable of working in concert with any man, the same “malady” that Joyce, granny, etc, have!
Most likely the reason Anita Matlow came back to me - I was living with Talmadge Guilliard on Ponce De Leon Road (?) when Anita appeared at the front door - is that Don “rejected” her or in someway disappeared.
It didn’t help that I kept driving by Anita’s house most evenings during our, what should have been permanent, “separation” in July of 1997!

(acerca de 9:35 A.M.) David told me when he was in town for the holidays - he and I were in his pick-up, going to or coming from Leslie’s house - that his friend that worked for the Alabama Public Television quite in disgust. I initially “supported” the friend’s decision. But maybe APT fired the guy and he told David that he (the friend) quit.The guy had no formal training in broadcasting.
Alabama Public Television has enough problems without having to deal with a probable “Dave Hubbert”-like individual!
To give “you” an example of what Alabama Public Television does: The beginning of LIVE FROM LINCOLN CENTER (7-8:30 P.M., P.B.S.) was sans audio.
It seems that soon after a fund-raiser, APT displays massive technical problems. I don’t know if APT is trying to convince viewers that such wouldn’t happen if APT was supported financially, or if APT is telling on itself by demonstrating the wasted money that are donations.
THE NEWSHOUR WITH JIM LEHRER (5:30-6:25 P.M., P.B.S.) was o’kay yesterday evening, although I was away for fifteen minutes or so: I watch, “uninvited” the “opening” of the re-airing of the late-night talk show hosted by Conan O’Brien (?), on MSNBC the re-airing).
O’Brien tries to hard to be funny! And when that happens, the funniness “evaporates.”
Conan O’Brien takes himself way too seriously!
I remember Joyce “rubbing it in” that public television airs commercials. Bur, damn, if I can recall when and where Joyce said this! Was it here, within the last four years?
Underwriters of programs on P.B.S., sometimes presents short film about their products and/or services. These are commercials?
How did Joyce know, anyway: Is she a “closet” P.B.S.-watcher?

(acerca de 11:17 A.M.) The Teacher’s Retirement is one of those “have-to” things. One can not receive benefits at C.A.C.C. - and I assume from all two-year colleges in Alabama - without “subscribing” to Teacher’s Retirement.
I thought such was illegal! I was under the impression that one could work in a “place” without becoming involved in a labor union. So how can one be forced into Teacher’s Retirement? Especially a person my age! What is the chance that I would ever have enough years to receive full pension? I have been told that, if one withdraws funds before the 25-year minimum, there is a financial cost.
How is that fair? I suspect that David Bonner, the “chairman” of Teacher’s Retirement, is using the fund for his own venality!
This is why I question the proposal to invest a part of each person’s Social Security “savings”! If voluntary, o’kay, but as a requirement?
This is an example of unwanted government interference in the lives of citizens.
SOUTH PARK (9:30-10:00 P.M., Comedy Central) and a few minutes of one before it (9-9:30 P.M.), brought quotidian philosophy from a different perspective. A viewpoint that each of us needs.
I remember - have I told you this? - discussing Teacher’s Retirement with Cindy Strange, an English instructor at CACC, who is in the same situation that I am.
Look on the good side: I’m told that I can fly at low-cost on U.S. Air or whatever airlines the Teacher’s Retirement has brought into.
But wait a minute! Hasn’t U.S. Air filed for bankruptcy? Just my luck!

(acerca de 1:13 P.M.) Remember that follow-up I had with Dr. Hakim on the 13th? I was there for less than thirty minutes: The cost to the Blue Cross-Blue Shield was twenty-seven dollars (with my $20 co-pay, Dr. Haikm made $47).
THE LATE SHOW WITH DAVID LETTERMAN (10:35-11:35 P.M., C.B.S.) and THE TONIGHT SHOW STARRING JAY LENO (10:35-11:35 P.M., N.B.C.) each made me laugh! No Letterman or Leno, but each went directly to the source to bring humor to the viewer (Letterman presented “Stupid Pet Tricks,” for instance).
Telemundo doesn’t caption its news in the evening, so I couldn’t quite follow the rapid-fire talking of the female anchor.
I receive a “ADVISOR” every month: “ADVISOR” is the publication of the Teacher’s Retirement (Retirement Systems of Alabama). It’s the only “benefit” I get for my forced membership! And it’s something that has no bearing on the quality of my life!

(acerca de 3:08 P.M.) Methinks I see the influence of 2005 on this penultimate day of 2004!
I can’t say that I blame “you”: Winter has been very naughty up into You, 2005, stepped in! Who would want it?
In addition to a new year, a new month is less than thirty-five hours away! Is that why the mid-60⁰’s (F) are here, supervising transition?
2005 may have to call out Rain to start anew! The tone of the New Year’s Eve eve is telegraphing such a “response”!
Last Thursday at about this time, Leslie displayed “excitment” at receiving the annual gift of a National Geographic Engagement Calender, although David didn’t.
Leslie exclaimed that she will be renewing her drawing and painting “sideline,” and that the calender will be a great “model” (the weekly pictures).
I can’t tell if Leslie is sincere or not! She has been known to patronize me in the past. Whereas David is too much like his mother.
Which do I prefer? I wonder . . .!

(31st, About 7:50 A.M.) I was bragging to somebody (the person was on my left) about a clown gag or something. Levitation? Are my dreams falling to such depths?
I also remember rushing to write the inter-action down. Which shows some sophisication by my dream machine!

(acerca de 7:58 A.M.) I don’t know how it happened, but somehow the fact was revealed (on a game show?) that the press is considered the “Fourth Estate.” I remember intimidating Joyce that she didn’t know that (and I sure David didn’t, either).
I was at this house: Within the last four years?
I didn’t realize that I have been receiving “Advisor” since October! My membership in the Teacher’s Retirement became effective in September.
So you see, yesterday wasn’t the first time for the “newsletter”: Only the first time I have taken the time to read “Advisor”!
The only reason I came upon the other three issues of “Advisor” - October, November, December - was that I was sorting a “collection” of paper items, yesterday.
A big deal was made out of the fact that the emporer of Japan during the second World War claimed “personally hand-picked by God.” Many Americans saw this as blasphemy, and no doubt was a superficial cause of the conflict.
So it is with irony that I wonder what George W. Bush is doing by insisting that he is meant to be president!
Divine rights of kings: That was used to ensure that the people would follow a ruler, even though s/he didn’t deserve to be followed.

(acerca de 9:__ A.M.) The “Chicago Daily Tribune” had a headline in November 1948 “Dewey Defeats Truman.”
Years ago I heard the “saying” that went something like this: Someone asked either Mrs. Dewey or Mrs. Truman what it was like to sleep with the president of the United States?
It’s possible that Thomas Dewey won the majority of the electoral votes, and still lost to Harry Truman: The “presidency” is a business venture, and the Democrats may have manipulated a “victory” for Truman, although Truman probably never knew.
Harry Truman wasn’t the first, and certainly not the last “president” to delude himself (and soon herself) into thinking that he has some type of mandate to “govern”!
Who is to say that all the accusations levied against David Keresh and the Dravidian compound were true? The government “fights” dirty: It resents not being needed. And the Dravidians were doing o’kay without the government.
Is what the government did to the Dravidians any worse than what Saddam Hussien supposively done to the Kurds or Shia?
Someone once told me long ago - an older female? - that Adolph Hitler only did what he had written in “Mein Kampf,” that, yes, the world had plenty of warning! This “being shocked” was undoubtedly used, especially by the United States, as an excuse for inaction and anti-semitism.
It is said that George W. Bush knew exactly what he would do as president.
Of course it’s all Republican nonsense! Bush himself had no idea what to do!
The reason Bush was flown in a zig-zag flight path back to Washington could also have been a diversion to keep Cheney and the real, actual president safe from terrorism! I doubt if George W. Bush is aware that he was a decoy!

(acerca de 9:55 A.M.) Although my main source, THE NEWSHOUR WITH JIM LEHRER (5:30-6:25 P.M., P.B.S.) was not the only source yesterday evening: C.B.S. NEWS, N.B.C. NIGHTLY NEWS, C.N.N. (LOU DOBBS TONIGHT) also provided a perspective that differeniated from the NEWSHOUR, something that all free-thinkers must seek.
I even allowed about ten minutes of the late news (10-11:00 P.M.) on Telemundo reach me, although if asked to summarize what was reported, I couldn’t! It was Spanish spoken very fast!
Not knowing what the hell was being said, I couldn’t help but pay special attention to where the words came from: The manipulation of the mouth that is necessary in order to speak Spanish seems different than when English is spoken! If so, then maybe - just maybe - the seemingly over-exagguated (is “over-exagguated” a redundancy? Can’t I forego the “over-”? Shouldn’t I forego the “over-?)) of the oral cavity in pronouncing Spanish would help my “lazy mouth! Or is it too late: Should I have stayed with Spanish when I had the chance?
Colon cancer will, sooner or later, get me: i can have colonoscopies until I’m “blue in the face”! I have been lucky so far.
I can honestly say that I am living on borrowed time!
Ten years? Fifteen years? Colon Cancer won’t be held off forever!
The only way Colon Cancer will be defeated is if I die from another cause!
SPY IN THE HERD (8-9:00 P.M., The Discovery Channel) was about elephants. And having been Circus, I feel close to these Big Ones.
The “final” 8-9 minutes of another SPY show on Discovery - a view of wildlife from its perspective - forewarned me of what was to come later.
THE LATE SHOW WITH DAVID LETTERMAN (10:35-11:35 P.M.. C.B.S.) and THE TONIGHT SHOW STARRING JAY LENO (10:35-11:35 P.M., N.B.C.) presented humor from the east coast and west coast, respectively, of the United States. And you know, there’s not much difference in the two cultures!

(acerca de 11:21 A.M.) I wish someone would tell Mrs. Reeder that orange cake is not made with the pulp!
Yes, Mrs. Reeder gave granny an orange cake - again. And like the previous one she gave granny, it doesn’t taste good! It’s more like the rind from an orange!
Now, the orange cake that Mytle McDowell made for granny 3-4 years ago was how an orange cake should be made!
I am trying hard, but I can’t seem to remember what I heard on television, out in the Family Room, within the past week or two, that led to my declaration that what was said was an oxymoron! And to whom did I say it?
Maybe I will remember! If not, be aware that there in something in the latter part of 2004’s Month XII that is deserving of the “oxymoron” label (and that covers a lot of things)!

(acerca de 12:55 P.M.) You go with the “God” you have, not the “God” you want!
So saith the victims of last Sunday’s tsunami.
A $20 bill from the office of Dr. Hakim. Or should I say a bill for twenty dollars?
I may as well get use to such expense: It is the only thing between me and colon cancer.
If not for Journal, I would surrender to the inevitable! It’s going to happen, so why throw all that money at it? What, do I actually think it will keep me safe? That’s like saying that the Department of Homeland Security will prevent the next “9/11”!
A study of General Pershing recalled to mind the older male in the United States History, 1920-45, course at Florida States during the Spring semester 1999: During a Tuesday graduate seminar (the course was for upper undergraduates and graduates), before his “regularly-schedule” research lecture for a grade, the man explained that General Pershing had received the ivory-handle pistol during a military campaign in Mexico.
If I am not mistaken, Dr. Connor, the instructor, had shown a film in class (same day?) that featured General Pershing “reviewing” the firearm on his left hip.

(acerca de 3:01 P.M.) You live the life you have, not the one you want!
If only Donald Rumsfeld had better choice of words: He didn’t really mean the army! It just came out that way!
Although the Defense Secretary’s out-of-place remark, “You go to war with the Army you have, not the army you want,” shows what an insensitive cad he is and the statement is a cruel joke, __ a piece of philosophy, what Rumsfeld said can be restated and be remembered as a more important words of wisdom from the early-21st century!
Sure, I would rather be somewhere else, working at another job. But it may not happen for a while, if at all! Frustration only aids to the “pain” if I allow it to! And I’ll be go to hell if I let frustration boss me around!
2004 is ending on a split decision: The air has the upper-60⁰’s (F) to pass on to 2005. But 2005 hired Rain to “run” Its (2005’s) transition team.

(acerca de 4:39 P.M.) There is a documentary extant - P.B.S. aired it 2-3 years ago - in which George H.W. Bush is among the former presidents and vice-presidents interviewed.
Now, you must be informed that during the 1992 presidential debate, George H.W. Bush kept looking at his watch. It’s one of the things that caused him to lose the presidency.
During his interview, he “explained” that a person’s speaking ability has nothing to do with his (and soon “her”) capability to be president.
I ask “you”: Did George H.W. Bush somehow know that his son would be in the White House? As is painfully clear whenever George W. Bush gives an official speech, he is a piss-poor orator!
It’s not that “marriage” is no longer a major player in society: It’s that too many people are pushed into marrying that has no business marrying! With more “tens,” there are more “unfit” people. This, my friend, and not the institution of marriage, is responsible for the high divorce rate!




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