Emily

Day In the Life of an American Teen
2020-06-30 00:12:42 (UTC)

Lost my patience

I told Mom 2 nights ago. "I lost my patience."

I kind of just quit talking to her. It's annoying. She tries to buy me candy and clean my room while I'm at work to try and 'win me over.' It's annoying. I don't want to be spoiled. I just want to tell her to stop spending money on me like that and leave me alone. Noe asked me on snapchat if I wanted to get my nails done with her. I told her to text my mom and ask. If she really doesn't let me go after almost 2 months now worth of trapping me here I'll really just be done with it. I say that now but I can never stick to anything I say. "No, Leo, I'm done this time." And then I stayed for another year.

Like mother, like daughter.

so like 6 hours later and i've got the cops called on me
I decided not to save this entry earlier today. I made a joke about it to myself. "A lot can happen in one night."
And now the cops gave me a "citation" so. yeah, ive got a headache. I tell myself dont be afraid, because being afraid is just a sign of weakness. i hate how my mom makes herself the victim. she took my first. shes unharmed, im the one with scratch marks on my arm. she tells nick, "bend her over.' and it makes me feel so sick. one time i had a dream they both raped. i had a dream ym mom and her husband raped me. why did i dream that. things werent even bad then im just sick. lol this is it. like this is my life. this is what ill wake up to over and over again. i dont think i can do that. i might end shit.




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