candy♥

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2020-04-27 06:32:50 (UTC)

Parents have as usually gone ..

Parents have as usually gone crazy upon me. Aaj ansu firse aya wo b din me. Kisi b baat pe ha bolna ka mu se awaz hi nhi niklta. Lgta h sb me loss hi h apne self esteem ka. Bs ansu niklta h. Jeher piyegi puch to li. Degi kya. Tumko ky pata roz tumara jeher bhara tana sun hi reh h. Wo or b takleef dayak. Mummy papa mereko ganda wala embarass krne ka ek second b nhi chorte. Papa kbi kbi ek do minute chor dete h. Pr dil to jalata h dono ka, hmko dekh kr. Pata nhi janam hi ki dia inligo ne. Ye log kya hi sochte honge. Hm ye soch k paresaan h. H bataya h usko to follow krna ni h. Apna hi alag krna h hr baar wahi sb same galti uske baad bolna galti ho gya. Hr baar ni banta h , fir b wahi banayegi or waise hi. Fir bolegi nhi banta h isliye no banate h. Idli dosa gupchup kachori. Same natak. Jb nhi banta h to mere se banwa sakti thi. Lekin nhi mummy to apna comfort dekhenge or mereko nikamma sabit karenge. Have gye hm nikamme ab Shaam me sb milke k mera esteem or girayenge or fir apna apna time pass karenge. Jb dil ko hota h dard to na fb kaam ka, na insta, na whatsapp, na dost, na acquaintances, na ghar wale, koi b nhi. Sb mere against ho gye h aisa lagta. Ye corona door bhagao god. I know u need nature to be restored. But this is also impacting us psychologically.




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