Imperfectly Perfect

My Secret Submission
2020-05-26 01:54:11 (UTC)

I cant breathe

This may not be a popular thought or entry so if you are easily upset I would quit reading now. I am defiant all the way to my core. For those who have been with me or played me know I am not an easy one to get to know. Here I am able to feel free to speak out and say what I think and feel. I have shared some dark moments from my past not many but some and I have shared good as well. Tonight I am angry and heartbroken. I snuck away from my kids to watch the press conference where the cop who murdered a man was arrested and charged. 3RD DEGREE MURDER that is a slap in the face.. My daughter saw the images on the screen of riots and a city burning. She saw the death of a man while other cops stood by. If all that wasn't heartbreaking enough she asked me why a cop would kill that man? She asked me if she should fear the police? I have struggled and fought to protect her from all the hate. I have taught her there are no colors. To love every person the same and that we all bleed red. MY 8 YEAR OLD daughter looked at me with outrage when I told her that there are people who are racist. This is an innocence she will never regain. We mourn the death of Geroge Floyd tonight in this house we lit a candle in his honor. I cannot believe in this world today there is still such hatred on both sides. I feel the anger and frustration of those who are protesting and fighting for equality. My plea is that on both sides we can see sometimes there are just bad people. We need to teach love and acceptance to our kids. We must do better so black men and women, Indian men and women, all people no matter their color quit diying at the hands of bigots. For those who don't know this issue is very close and dear to my heart. My mother was shot in the back at point blank range by a black man when I was just 16 years old. For a long time I blamed the whole race for actions of one man. I was so full of hate and it was exhausting. I wanted better for my kids I know that dare I say my brothers and sisters of another color deserved better from me. So I became better and that is what we all must do. I stand with the protestors today for their cause is just and true. It is time for the old school mentality to hit the curb. They are such an asset and add such value to society and each of our lives. Those 4 cops killed him there is no doubt in mind and they should pay dearly for it. There can be no justice or peace until the oppression ends. We must stand united to end police brutality. I have always supported our boys in blue but on this I simply cannot. I go to bed tonight with a heavy heart. I have watched every moment of the riots till I have fallen asleep every night and tonight I will do it again because it is how I can stand with them from here. We must be brave and hold the ground that is gained. There does need to be change riots are not the way but I understand why they are happening. I am hurting tonight for the young women killed in her home, for the man shot in Memphis, and for Geroge Floyd. Words that will never leave my mind I CANT BREATHE.




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