Mars

My Life
2020-05-26 15:17:46 (UTC)

Just to spite

Wednesday 27th May

Today was a pretty good day for me overall, well yesterday technically. Its 3am right now.

I cleaned the hell outta my room, changed all the sheets and worked out a little bit. Cleaning and changing my sheets is normal for me, FYI, it just feels nice to do it and just felt like a big accomplishmebt when I've been feeling a little lethargic as of late.

Ian told me that Joe was raving on about how I couldn't handle Stevadoors. How I was too weak physically and mentally. That I wouldn't be able to handle the workload and that people would pick on me. Man fuck you you snake ass mother fucker. This is all shit I know he wouldn't say to my face like the pussyass man child he is.

Sure, I'm not all that strong physically. I'm "meh" I'd feel, but thinking I'd cry or some shit because people would "pick on me"? Man what? I'm a grown adult, I can handle my bizz. I'm 19 out of my parents and you're in your forties still living with your mom Joe.

It's that same buzz that Al had when he told Nikora he thought I couldn't handle working at the Rutherford. Guess what? Not only was it fucking easy to me but I found it fun too! Fucking downers.

All this had done is motivate me more to work there and to do this trip with Ian. I know I don't gotta prove nothing to nobody, but to achieve goals I already wanted to achieve with the added bonus of spiteing people who said I couldn't do it will just make it all the more enjoyable.

Although, if these rumors I've heard today are true I might not even end up going to Stevadoors. A huge chunk of the population were let go from their work because of Covid-19, including myself. Because of this there have been tales that people who have been let go will continue to earn what they've been earning on the wage subsidy for about eight more weeks. It'd be similar to a benefit I suppose. This is all so far just rumors I think, but to me and how Jacinda has been operating this makes sense to me. I'm hoping it's true, because as much as sticking it to Joe would be fun I'd rather sit back and continue to collect whatever income.

Speaking of my work, I woke up to an email from them this morning and felt so much dread. A fucking weekly roster. I was thinking, "Oh hell naw, y'all are not making me come in this week. I'm not going in. What are you gonna do? Fire me? I'm already let go early next month." Luckily I wasn't on the roster. No idea why they sent me it but I'm just glad I'm not there.

In regards to our trip, I got a text from Vicky late this afternoon about going in to see about the study stuff. I'm still really keen to do it! Just... Not quite right now since me and Ian are now planning this trip. I honestly imagine that if things open up to a safe level we'll be doing this in the upcoming month or so.

Since I've been occupied since then I've pretty much ignored the text. I feel a little guilty, and I really don't want to let her down. She's awesome for supporting me so much so far and I really did want to study at that point in time, it's just now I have something I want to do even more. Studying is definitely something I would look at once we returned however.

We went to K-Mart tonight too, me Ian Min and Francis. God it is so hard for me not to give Min shit. She's... Not a terrible a person, I think. Just annoying. Her whole vibe about not being a mother to her kids is what upsets me the most. So every now and then during the car ride I'd make some smart ass comment or reply to something she said. It was partly banter and partly me just being a dick. I don't know, my vibe has been sort of aggressive today. Not totally, like I've been in a good mood but I just feel, I dunno.

Anyway! Me and Ian looked at gears for our trip and brought a tent each and some tarp for it. They're just cheap tents, they were small ones for just shy of $40 each. They're small and can apparently fit two people each. Cool.

The idea behind getting a two person sized tent is that me and Ian honest to god might try and pull some chicks on our journey. I'm usually pretty confident with girls but I never really bother persuring anything when I'm sure I can. But if we're gonna be in some random tiny middle of no where town for a night I reckon we could totally hit the bar and have once of us bring back a girl to a fucking tent in the woods no problem... It actually sounds pretty suspicious and all when I type that out but yeah. And if we don't do that well a big enough tent will be nice too.

Us buying these tents to us was further cementing the fact that we are gonna do this if we've already invested our money into it. Next time we're there we might buy bags to carry stuff and other things, but Nikora said he has some gear that we can take so we wanna suss that all out first.

A nice expensive, few hundred dollar camera for recording and taking photos is something we definitely wanna do to. I'm thinking I'll either buy it out right because I know I'll use it after the trip or ask Ian to consider going 50/50 on it and I pay him back later, depending on how fast we wanna go and do this trip.

I also brought some more pillows and a winter blanket while I was there.

I still really want to dye my hair white/silver too, and it's only a matter of time before I'll officially be in the clear to do so.

I've been listening to a lot of music posted by l0user on YouTube. It's really cool, stuff like "slow dancing in the dark by joji but you're in a bathtub" or "I can't help falling in love but you're thinking of a future with that person". It's really cool yo.

I brought Minecraft Dungeons, it came out today and its been pretty fun. Although I feel like it's pretty short because I think I'm already towards the end. Oh well, it seems like there's a harder mode and there's all these other weapons and artifacts that'll make the game more interesting on different playthroughs, especially when I get Ian or someone to go through it with me. Right now I'm running a sort of ranger set up. The next one I'm thinking of is a big ole tanky boye.

I've continuing to progress with Nobushi and its great. I can hidden stance people on reaction and prediction almost all of the time, and it works so well in team fights when I'm avoiding everyone on the battlefield. I want to grind her out to at least rep 50 before I play another character. She's rep 45 right now. I think the next hero I'll try and play will be Conq, just to be an asshole.

I don't know what else to write. It's a bit of an odd and confusing time in my life right now. In everyone's lives I guess. But I'll make it, I'll thrive and continue. I have no doubt about that.

Peace,
Mars




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