I needed to make the entries even so excuse me if this verse is cerebral. I found a phrase, actually a movie called Gaslighting and it set my soul on fire. I was so surprised.
It felt like "There is someone out there for everyone". Who has to tell teachers or doctors that they are in a position of power and do not abuse the trust of their students?. I needed to hear it put Gaslighting includes Negative Surprises, Hostile humor, the silent treatment, withholding intimacy or distorting reality.
When you are young and optimistic everyone is a lover or a friend. I am ashamed to admit it but one of the details that makes my life so unlivable (by QUALITY) is the abruptness of my revelations.
18 mos in love
Ansieosidad when I cannot pay or shop.
Complete social collapse when I do not have steady disposable income.
Imagine me. Struggling not to judge. These people SEEM miserable and unattractive by my standards. Yes I have standards. I also have nightmares of other thriving adults, on housing, or professionals having to submit to these bullies just to survive.