Watasumi Kasai

Complaining about shit
2020-05-21 02:44:45 (UTC)

Idk man

All I do is hurt myslef, physically and emotionally. It's like the only thing I know how to do. I was so close to being free from all these issues, I'd made up my mind to go to school. It was a slow process but getting over my ex was happening. I just keep messing up. I keep talking to him and learning new stuff.

He doesn't even know why he did what he did, all he knows is that he just did it. Lol the person he was with left him, and went to a new game server. He'd told my ex, he was a homosexual furry. Who preferred the female pronoun. But was on this new server saying he's Bi and was looking for a gf or bf. A person I'd walked away from because they were toxic, recently contacted me, they are on that server and sent me a screen shot of that "furry" saying this stuff. Lol so I showed it to my ex 😂😂😂. He had a little bit of a freakout moment. I felt nothing in the moment that I showed him but now I'm feeling a little bad. He got played around with so hard.

I keep feeling like he's just tolerating me, of course I know I'm not the one who did things wrong. I'm also not the one who wronged him. So why do I keep feeling like I'm bothering him? Sheesh man.

I've been at my mama house for a whole and I honestly need to go home but I'm kinda scared. I keep thinking that if I go home, I'm going to get so sad, that something bad is going to happen. Like I'm going to get hurt or kill myself of something. But like I'm fine right now. I'm not going to kill myself.

Another thing that bothers me, when my ex and I are hanging out, he's distracted, which is normal for him, but he's talking to a new friend, and that makes me so uncomfortable. I asked him him "is this going to end up like another >insert name of furry




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