Scream Above the Sounds
2020-05-09 13:48:10 (UTC)

Awake & Alive

I promised myself I would write. I've been meaning to for sometime, and being cooped up in the house 24/7, I don't really have an excuse not to. So yeah, I am still here. I feel like I should have a lot to write but honestly, not much comes to mind. My Access course is officially over now. The deadline was yesterday to finish any outstanding work and now we wait. We are getting predicted grades because of covid, but i'm not too worried. I only needed 80 UCAS points to go to where I wanna go and I should easily get that, so yay! I decided to pick Sports Journalism at a University in my city, so I can continue to live at home with my parents, it just seems like the right decision. The idea of living somewhere else excites me and terrifies me, I'm not sure if I'd make it on my own somewhere. My mum would never forgive me if I moved too far away either. So yeah, we'll have to wait and see what happens between now and September. Aside from that, things have been business as usual. Covid or 'social distancing' really hasn't had much of an effect on me because I'm such a homebody anyway. I've been finishing up assignments, playing a bit of the Final Fantasy 7 Remake, WoW and....I installed all of the Sims 4 expansions. So I've kept pretty busy I guess.

Quarantine has made me realise though that I guess I'm not valued as much as I thought I was. Hardly anybody has reached out to ask how I am or how I'm doing or whatever. Maybe it's because they know I'm doing okay though and this social distancing and staying indoors hasn't been too bad for me. I guess it makes me a little sad when I see people are facetiming each other and stuff though, and I don't really have that with anybody. I'm not very close with my family either so it would be weird to just go and sit downstairs with them, I dunno. I guess maybe I'm at the point now where I just NEED that social activity with somebody, and facebook messenger, discord and various other platforms just aren't cutting it right now. I think I'm just going through a bad patch. I listened to a lot of sad music last night and I guess that has carried through to today.

There is a lot more I'd like to talk about and I'm going to promise myself that I will come back and write again tomorrow, and hopefully get back into the swing of things. I hope everybody is staying safe.