Canadian Cutie

Life through my spiritual eyes❤️
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2020-05-07 19:22:30 (UTC)

Hold me while you wait ❤

Listening to: Hold Me While You Wait - Samantha Harvey (Lewis Capaldi cover)
Hold me while you wait
I wish that I was good enough (hold me while you wait)
If only I could wake you up (hold me while you wait)
My love, my love, my love, my love
Won't you stay a while? (Hold me while you wait)
Tell me more, tell me something I don't know
Could we come close to havin' it all?
If you're gonna waste my time
Let's waste it right
"She was the type to fall in love with the moon and everything that was beautifully unreachable" -Santi DP
Good Evening! 🌙
Has been another beautiful day, I thought today was supposed to be cold but no, it was warm and sunny. Or well warm for us Canadians, at 15 Celcius. I spent it outside again.

I am back on tracking everything I put in my mouth. I am wanting to lose a bit of weight. I don't have much to lose or well should I say I more want to tone. I have goals I want to hit by the end of this year. I have overall done well aside from mindless snacking. I have taken nutrition classes so I have a very good understanding of healthy eating and calories in vs calories out. I am just trying really hard not to gain that "Quarantine 15" lol. It's not easy. Boredom is my downfall. That and I am a big emotional eater. Happy? eat, Sad? eat, Stressed? eat lol, you get the idea lol. I went online and ordered a really cute, kinda sexy outfit as a goal. I don't have much to go to fit into it but I want it as a motivation. That is what I did before when I was trying to lose weight. It worked but I grew too small for the outfit haha. I am focused this time. Well, minus the wine I am drinking tonight haha. I am tracking it though so all is good. No work tomorrow so why not? lol.

I had the most beautiful dream last night. It was kind of weird. It was like watching a music video. It was clips of a life. I think of my life. Was of me with a man. It was clips of us laughing and having so much fun. Romantic moments of silly things like on the beach together, laughing, and splashing water. Dancing in the waves. It was really romantic and sweet. It was nice to wake to this morning.

I am really looking forward to going back to work. My goal is to ultimately demand more, better, from this employer, or I will be looking elsewhere. I gave my entire being to this job and I am their highest-rated employee by anyone who deals with me specifically. I get rave reviews on our company reports so I think I am far more worth than they have treated me. I have been given so many false promises. I want them. I deserve it. I am also the highest seniority there and yet others get more than me. Being naturally submissive, I tend to be timid to stand up for myself. Not anymore. I am demanding more, better for myself with everything, everyone in my life. This quarantine has been beneficial to me I think. I am not the same person coming out that I am going in. I see life, so much more differently. I appreciate every day that much more. I am thankful I have stayed healthy. Those I love and care for have stayed healthy. I won't take another day for granted. I won't wish time to move faster for anything.

Well, I think I am going to go coddle my glass of wine in bed and listen to some music before bed.

Have a wonderful evening! ❤