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Life through my spiritual eyes❤️
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2020-05-05 20:22:54 (UTC)

Crazy Beautiful ❤

Listening to: Beautiful Crazy - Luke Combs
She's unpredictable, unforgettable
It's unusual, unbelievable
How I'm such a fool, yeah, I'm such a fool for her
Beautiful, crazy, she can't help but amaze me
The way that she dances, ain't afraid to take chances
And wears her heart on her sleeve
Yeah, she's crazy, she's crazy, she's crazy
But her crazy's beautiful to me
Her crazy's beautiful to me
"The best time for new beginnings is now" ~Lynette Evans
Good Evening! 🌙
Gosh that song, Sighs, so beautiful. Do men really think that about women much less say it? lol

Late-night to be writing but well, It's a quiet night so figured why not write lol.

My day has been good. I spent it being productive. Sunday the weather was absolutely gorgeous and I managed to get a lot done outside. Felt good. I am now mapping out how I want the yard to look. I am thinking of putting in a fountain. Still in initial stages. Yesterday was soo cold, It was at last 15 degrees (Celcius) lower than Sunday. Today is about 8 degrees less so a bit warmer. That is Canada for you lol. We can get 4 seasons in one day.

I have a grocery order to pick up tomorrow fairly early. Then I have a curbside pickup from a nursery here for some flowers and a strawberry patch to plant. Excited to get those going. I also ordered another Lilac bush.

Yesterday my best friend (who I have been friends with since we were kids) reached out to me. We lost contact for several months and I was so happy to hear from him. He was the one constant in my life all my life and I am glad he reached out. He works for the police dept and been swamped lately but He said He was thinking of me lately and wanted to reach out. It's funny, I was thinking about him yesterday after I got a "from your memories" on Facebook of him and I together. A little while later the phone rings lol. We chatted for a while and promised not to let the friendship slip again.

The other night, I had a dream about my mother. Anyone who knows me knows it was a really unhealthy relationship and she died tragically many years ago. I still have not grieved. I was too busy planning everything and having been the one who found her. I can't move past that anger. I have yet to cry. I only keep asking myself why? I have been thinking a lot about her lately. Anyways, I was asleep, not quite in REM sleep but close when I felt pressure on my bed, this has happened before many times but rarely have I had this happen and smell the familiar baby powder scent I have often smelled when her spirit is near. I know in those times not to open my eyes, just listen. Feel. I felt the pressure of the sheets tighten on my side. It lasted all of a few minutes. I don't remember falling back asleep or if I was asleep the whole time. Fast forward to the next day. I am talking to my girlfriend who is a little more in tuned with her abilities as far as being a medium. She asked me if I had dreamt about my mom lately. I was kind of taken off guard but not really. This happens quite often. Just not usually about my mom. She said your mom said She is sorry and you were her most prized possession I was really not expecting to hear that because all my life I only believed she hated me because of the abuse I sustained growing up. It brought a bit of comfort and for once. I cried. I know it was meant to happen that way. I was to hear it from her that day as the anniversary of her death is coming. I feel some sort of peace.

Another of my favorite songs came on "Take your time" by Sam Hunt. lol so romantic. Yes I am a big-time romantic lol
And I don't wanna steal your freedom
I don't wanna change your mind
I don't have to make you love me
I just want to take your time (swoons) lol

Anywayssssss lol, It's late, it's almost 10pm and I think I will head off to bed and curl up with my puppy and read until I fall asleep.

Have a wonderful night ❤