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🐽Pigs do Fly🐽
Man, what pigs. Took over an hour on the bathroom, still isn’t clean. I want to literally scream till I lose my voice. I get I’m OCD, and normally a clean freak, but OMG, flipping disgusting!!! She had diapers behind the toilet. I don’t understand such filth and laziness . Can someone explain it to me.....depression? Then get help, I tried to help her. But she said the usual, I’m fine. I understand why they were trying to take her kids, she needs help. She’s a great mom, don’t get me wrong, but there’s things she needs help with.
My suicidal feelings are not going away.
The depression is not going away.
That dark feeling that is hovering over me, is not going away.
I don’t understand what is happening today.
The sun is up, it’s shining bright. I’m in front of the window, soaking up the sun.
Made a list of stuff I need to grab tomorrow when I go into town, CLR being one of them. I can’t get the bathroom clean. Just irritates me, like bugs crawling under my skin, and you want to scratch till you bleed.
I can not stand the nastiness of some people.
I lived in my room for over a month so that’s partly my fault. I should have paid more attention and been on her ass about it. I know I was on Limps ass when he was here. Never once did he clean anything.
I know, I just can’t live with anyone. I’m too anal about things. I can compromise on some things, but, dear Lord, clean up after yourselves. I’m not a maid. I might be from the south, but jimmy crickets........
Been coughing up so sticky crap this morning.
Realize, I’m lonely today. Sadly, there’s nothing I want to do about it. I could be in a room full of people and still, feel lonely. Does that make any sense?
I know once Sheldon gets up, I’m going to vacuum the ceilings, and get the ceiling fans cleaned. Will open a few more windows too. Tho, tomorrow is to be cold, yet again. It’s almost 75 yesterday and I still wore a sweatshirt. Go figure. I need the 85/90 degree weather.
So, for the rest of today, will work on getting some books moved, get the kitchen cabinets organized and cleaned. Tomorrow I have to go to town, will pay bills, hit the store, go to school, go through the car wash, and put up more laundry. Try to get another load of garbage out of here, maybe two if there is room. Might ask what it runs to have one here....so I don’t have to drive to get rid of it.
But, Indio is at Walmart currently, so I am going to get the tv stand cleaned off and organized. I need to put my Dallas Cowboys stuff back out now that my little grandkids aren’t here.
So, till next time I decide to rant.....
I’m going to fight this darkness that seems to be trying to swallow me whole..
The pigs have flown the coop and I’m off to clean the rest of the barn