I was diagnosed with manic depressive disorder today. I am depressed right now, a lot more then normal. Half of it is social and the other half is personal. I love my mom and my job. Besides that...everything else sucks. I am happy when I get to spend time with my mom and when I work. The middle pieces (no friends and loss of my father). I think about my father whenever I watch TV, cause that's what him and I did. I miss my friends a lot because of the whole no friends rule. I admit I am very depressed and have even admitted to suicide ideation. I wouldn't do it, but just the thought of it. One more day off....