What is it like in heaven? I know my father went there. Is he watching over me, happy or disappointed? Is he missing me and the rest of the family? I am worried that I will be alone in this world after my mom passes. I am worried that my parents are disappointed in me because I cannot be great. My sister is the successful one and the one that always achieved. I know I failed in life, I was lazy and had other priorities in life. I always drive home and look at the same bridge 5 days a week and wonder, what if...I admit, I have thought of suicide but have never tried it. I believe everyone has in their lives and if I am wrong, sorry. Anyway...long day tomorrow...night all.