Abbon

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2020-04-25 09:36:33 (UTC)

10th day

Yesterday meditation - It wasn't really long one, but I haven't experienced silent whistling while being in silence. It was strange, because this whistling is my gateway to second layer of my mind. It doesn't really matter because after few minutes my sister came and I was disturbed. I tried to continue and it wasn't necessarily unsuccessful but I know it might have been better. I also tried to meditate on time flow and it was interesting to see how presence flows. The "now" moment goes further and so on.

9:48AM:
Shielding and Grounding - I grounded. Pretty well visualized. Nothing unusual. Same with shielding. Interesting thing was that I felt thebeam of energy again while sending it above me.

10:56AM:
Recharging the ward - I felt something like electric shock between my fingers and the ward. But it was very weak. I'd probably need to center more energy to actually make it more intense. Aside from this there was nothing unusual but I should be more patient next time and actually progress more slowly.

1:20PM:
Meditation - It was around 30 minutes long sweet meditation. I was laying and I just let my mind to flow to second layer. But I appeared somewhere else. In second layer of mind I am actually focused. But in this state I was relaxed. It was similar to feeling when you are about to fall asleep, but I actually didnt fell asleep. It was a state where I was able to see even with closed eyes for few very short moments. It wasnt that I saw what was around me, but it was like seeing with normal eyes. Not mind's eye really I'd say. I was able to project a sight to the blackness you have in front of you if you close your eyes. I saw some kind of regular room, but I was sure I have never been there. I will name this Sector B of second layer of mind. You are not focused, you are in a state very similar to sleep, but you dont actually sleep, when you have a vision of a room I described above, you realize that you wasn't asleep. You completely stop to feel your body and your environment until the vision comes. When it comes, you start to focus on it. It disappears and you get back into first layer of mind, which is generally mere thinking and laying with you body relaxed.

2:46PM:
Invocation of Azazel - I prepared a candle, sigil, paper, pen and mantra. I lighted up the candle and started to chant "Alash tad al'ash tal ashtu". My voice changed to very weird form after about 15 seconds. I ignored it and continued to chant. It was first time I experimented with this mantra from The Book of Azazel. I kept doing it for few minutes and nothing significant happened. Then I closed my eyes and started to still my mind with counting breaths to 10. While doing this something happened in me. My intent became a lot stronger because it was somehow powered up with passion. After my mind was still, I centered energy and moved whole bubble to my right hand. I opened my eyes and saw the wax pouring on sigil and a table. I ignored it and put my two fingers on a sigil and started to gaze into it saying Azazel's and and visualisating the bubble activating the sigil. I said "Eya on ca Azazel aken" three times and then told "Azazel, I invoke you, come forth." I felt intense ammount of energy entering my mouth moving to my body. I had minor pain in my head while he entered my body. Then silence. I meditated for a minute on him and then said: "Hi, Azazel." He probably answered something similar. then the conversation continued:
Me: "Do you think that it is right to work with book about you?"
Azazel: "Not necessarily."
Me: "So do you think it is wrong?"
Azazel: "No, but you have to have your own experiences with me. (...)" I have a feeling that he said more but I wasnt able to understand him.
Me: "I will need your energy to help me in visualization and some other things in the future."
Azazel: "Ok.. (...)" - I dont exactly remember what he said but he simply agreed.
Me: "Ok Azazel, thank you. Go in peace."
Then I felt that he left me. He left me with pressure in my head. I should prepare my questions before summoning him. I will now make a file where I will store all question I will need to answer from him. I call it success.

3:06PM:
Norse LBRP - Well.. huh.. I was doing pretty well with visualization and such.. but when I have been closing the LBRP with Hammer sign.. exactly last part was vibrating WOD.. I was on "O" part and then something behind me knocked on something two times and I freaked out and stopped vibrating.. I vibrated RIGR in that direction.. I will find out what that Rigr is.. the artifact was Sword Sumarbrandr.. I haven't completed it. I don't really think I want.. It was probably because I messed up one pentagram there and almost completed it clockwise instead of counterclockwise to banish.. so if I accidentally summoned something, I will have to banish it if it will bother me..

3:31PM:
Invocation of dragon - Pretty interesting and intense. I took my time to visualize everything pretty well. I prepared myself with few minutes of meditation before invoking a dragon to still my mind. And after doing it I meditated to compare the feelings to state before invocation. I was in pleasurable state. I felt stronger as well, nice experience.

3:43PM:
Chakra meditation - I added throat chakra to my meditations.. Its mantra is HAUM, while H is hissing like a cat and its mudra is hard to describe for not native speaker as me. I was adviced to do it only 5-7 times a day and continue with Thoh and Maum just less intensely since I can hurt myself while overdoing it and the headaches I had are now meaningless since I opened those chakras for first time already. So I did everything and I can't wait to see the results.

12:24AM:
Ice shower - Nothing unusual. No shivering after full cold.

12:27AM:
Cleansing the self - I took my time to visualize it as well as I can. And I tried to do it a bit faster. I mean the fishing net going through my body. I'd say that it was a bit better. More intense, more fast paced.

12:47AM:
Shielding - nothing unusual. Just as last time.




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