MensaMan

Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia diary.
2020-04-16 02:52:24 (UTC)

Day 370

This is getting monotonous.

Maybe the worry will kill me.

Or maybe starvation. My teeth hurt so bad now that I can't chew. Seeing a dentist is financially just a fantasy, plus I don't want to risk infection. Then there's the bleeding problem, which would mean stopping Imbruvica for weeks, which terrifies me.

So, I just live in pain and terror.

And I just keep wondering what I did to deserve this life. I've been a straight shooter all my life, playing by the rules, avoiding vice, yadda, yadda. And all I see are the "bad" guys getting the help.

But at least I have my dignity still. For a while longer, anyway.

I hope.




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