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2020-04-06 14:34:28 (UTC)

Tears of Joy

9:56am

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Sheldon is in bed asleep, bad migraine.
I have a headache as well, and I’m not feeling well. Dizzy, lightheaded, short of breath, chest hurts, hard to breath.

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Indio, came up with a friendly date idea.
(Smiles)
Thought it was cool as hell.
Use Skype, each cook the same dinner and eat while on Skype, like we both are there.
First time ever anyone has suggested that.
Thought it was sweet as hell.
Indio is looking for a place up this way, to move closer. His kids are all grown, and he’s stuck at home alone. I had no clue he was younger than me.

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Awwww just got a video from AD. She’s such a sweetheart!! I’m so glad she still loves me after all these years! She’s such a beautiful woman!
She’s always so full of spunk!

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BabyFace called. She is upset with me, yet again. Wants me to drive up there when she gets discharged in 12 days. Guess she signed an agreement already to live with Barbie. I’ll have to make some calls on Monday. I think this is a bad idea all around.

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Brain is over thinking. (Scale 6 outa 10)
I’m exhausted. (Scale 10 outa 10)

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Yesterday Rads birthday. Turned 8 years old.
Barbie and her boyfriend DB came over.
Rad never thanked anyone for anything.

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Barbie sent me a message:

I was just listening to this song (Hard to Handle - Black Crows) and a memory of me and you singing to this song to pops in my head 😊 I hope you know I do love you and appreciate you sooo much. I love everyone and wish we could all be together again. I hope you aren’t mad about babyface, I’m her big sis ya know what do you expect I want to protect you all and would do the same if it was anyone else.... yes even you. Despite what you think. I’d do anything for everyone. Idk I’m gonna head to bed soon hopefully but I hope you have a good Monday mom I love you 🥰😊

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It made me cry good tears. My kids never tell me they love me. Babyface will when we hang up, but Bear has not said it to me in so long, I can’t remember her ever telling me, same with GQ.

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I replied:

You made me cry good tears this morning. I love you too buttercup. You have no clue how much it means to me to get your text this morning. I don’t have a lot of memories anymore, so I look back on photos a lot to try and remember things. I often don’t think y’all love me, I don’t hear it often. I’ve done the best I could through the years. I still try to do my best for everyone. I want you to know I appreciate your text, it touched me deeply. I love y’all with everything in me. Hope you sleep well. I love you buttercup 😘🥰😍

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I’m doing laundry. Bear got pissy with me this morning, I went to make coffee and both sinks had greasy water half filled in the sinks with the dishes and wasn’t draining. So I grabbed her gloves and started washing dishes again. She made the snide comment “no one else washes them, I’m going to get to it”....
Excuse me, I wash dishes every stupid day, and Sheldon and myself DONT dirty them! I wouldn’t have this issue is she would clean up after herself and her two kids. She’s not working, so be a mom and do what you need to. Her kids had eggs yesterday morning for breakfast, and they are still on the damn floor. It’s sad. There’s diapers scattered on the living room floor. Hello? Why is it my responsibility to clean up after you? I could understand, you’re at work, I clean up after the kids, but she’s here, do the mom thing. I’m a bit sick of the mess.

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My burn on my arm is a third degree burn. It’s infected. I burnt the muscle and did some damage. Had to have it looked at because it was still bleeding and had green liquid coming out of it. It’s cleaned, wrapped with a gauze and purple tape stuff. I have to clean it three times daily with the ointment they gave me and I’m on some antibiotics.

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Other than that, I’m going to get up and try to get motivated to do something else.
Already did a sink full of dishes, a load of laundry, made coffee, and took my medications.

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So, till later......

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I’m depressed today, physically, emotionally drained and numb.

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