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2020-04-04 16:30:23 (UTC)

History Draft


10:42am

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Here we go.....things are finally starting to ‘wake up’ around here.
The turkey getting yelled at by Bear. Rad is grounded.

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I attempted to wash a sink full of dishes, made a pot of coffee, and cleaned up my burns and cuts that are healing still. I look at them, and say to myself “my body is healing, just like my heart and soul”. I do not think less of me for that coping skill. Most do. But it’s been something I started at age 6. It’s helped me mark different mile stones in my life.

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As fo other things to jot down.....

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Well, been trying to do a rough list of events and dates of life events. Just so my therapist has them. Don’t think we ever really made one. I know my last therapist has one. I still talk to her, but as family. She was one of the people who really helped the most till now. My new therapist is awesome, and I think as I get better and learn more skills, I will become a complete person who will grow into someone more beautiful than I am now.

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Here’s the rough list of events:
1. Born 1971
2. Abused by biological parent
3. 1976 adopted
4. 1983 admitted to abuse
5. 1984 drug/alcohol abuse
6. 1988 first attack
7. 1990 second attack
8. 1991 graduated
9. 1991 third attack
10. 1991 pregnant
11. 1992 child 1 born
12. 1995 child 2 born
13. 1998 homeless due to sever abuse
14. 1999 child 3 born
15. 2000 moved to new state
16. 2001 child 4 born
17. 2003 married
18. 2006 moved to new state
19. 2007 child 5 born
20. 2008 homeless
21. 2009 left abuser
22. 2014 moved
23. 2015 cancer surgeries
24. 2016 homeless due to abuser
25. 2016 got my own place
26. 2017 had 30 stitches internally from abuser
27. 2017 more surgeries
28. 2018 disabilities
29. 2018 got divorced
30. 2019 left abuser
31. 2020 am single and working on myself

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Sooo, been a full life. Just a rough draft of things. If I have to fill more details in, I will with my therapist.

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DD3 called. On the phone with him now. Talking about my dreams of winning the lottery, what all I would change. Yeah yeah, I know I shouldn’t want to change certain things, but I do. It’ll never happen, but I can dream. 🤣😂

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Anyway, back to my phone call...


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