2020-03-19 15:21:26 (UTC)

Does it matter?

Okay so does anyone even use this thing? Well I'm here using it because there is nothing else to do. I mean I can study for my board exams but let's be honest, in this corona season, are we really going to pretend that board exams are going to happen just the way they are supposed to do? I could talk to my friends but I hate texting. Kind of ironic, because this is texting in a way. I don't know , I really don't have the energy to pretend I give shit about people's thoughts or opinions. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a psychopath(said every psychopath ever) and I do love my friends but I just don't want to talk to them via text if that makes sense. I absolutely hate it. You know what's going through my mind right now? That this is trap and a fake show and somehow this is going to come back and bite me in the ass, right when I'm not looking. Come to think of it, people who are here are probably either lonely as fuck or pretentious as fuck in real life. Yeah , I do realize what that says about me. 🙄 I don't know what I should write down here. Well obviously I'm not going to mention real names or places because trust issues but I should probably write down some real life events because why the fuck not? I do have an actual hard cover diary in real life but even there, I couldn't right down some stuffs that I don't want people who know me to read. Ever. So I might as well write it down on this beautiful black hole which is the internet. There will definitely be multiple entries someday and no entries someday. And yes I do realize, this may never be read or seen by another human being, but I never really gave a shit about it before and I'm definitely not going to give a shit about it now when we are all more or less self quarrentined and everyone's struggling to be alive and to be well stocked with tissue papers. So I'm just going to pretend I have an audience just for fun. Love ya peeps.
this is so fucking stupid.