Right now, I am at peace. Right now, I'm surviving. Right now, I feel a huge loss but Monday will be the first day I am alone. I know it'll hit me hard when I watch my shows alone and watch a movie alone. I am not trying to be anti-social but I don't wanna be out late at night. I wanna be home with my mother for dinner. I know eventually things will be different, but right now...I need family. Good night all.