Phillip Wilson

Amazingly, I survived my Life
2011-09-30 00:05:41 (UTC)

2004 REVIEW (PART FORTY-ONE)

October- Childersburg/Sylacauga, AL (continues)

Remember when I found that panty hose one morning? If I am not mistaken, Milt and the inmates - and Marvin - were gone to the Alex City campus: I was making a trans-campus trash pick-up.
Strips of nylon hose was what the “palm” tree needed to be connected to an iron post. And the Lord came through!
Notice above that I wrote “almost”! But it poves to the theist that “God” cares as much for the non-believer as s/he does for the believer. Belief is in no way related to “God’s” care!
The archtypical American Indian religion is pantheistic in nature: The spirit of an animal must give it permission before the animal can be killed.
If “you” think about that, it’s laughable: A suicidal elk? It sounds to me like the hunter is projecting onto the animal what s/he insist on __ the truth. This projection,is no doubt, only a justification for “murder” and an excuse if the target is not hit!

(acerca de 12:30 P.M.) After being photographed by a male hand-holding a “Polaroid”(?), each C.A.C.C. employee was given a notebook (3-ring, white) containing a Personnel Handbook and Policy Manual.
I later told Milt “to get out his paper and pencial to be tested” (I told this standing in the shop to Marvin, who was facing north to my south, this morning)!
Then I stated to Milt - I was seated in a padded chair east of the shop office door - that I couldn’t wait to see the movie!
Joyce, Milt, and Marvin all agreed that C.A.C.C.never went by the rules! If it did, things would be a lot better at C.A.C.C.!
I hadn’t plan on watching “Neanderthals on Trial” on NOVA (7-8:00 P.M., P.B.S.): I thought that the show was going to be another SECRETS OF THE DEAD, in which modern technology is highlighted rather than Neanderthals.
I allowed myself five minutes. Then ten minutes. Then fifteen minutes. Then - well, you get the idea! Before I knew it, I had sat “through” the entire program!
And I’m glad I did! Far from being a wasted evening, I don’t know what I could have read to learn as much as I did from the “lecture”!
I won’t complain if P.B.S. airs the program again and again! I will collect more facts that way!
On the way to the downtown “book depository” - things didn’t go as well this morning as I had hoped; I was on the look-out for supplies, and I haven’t had time to organized them yet - I stated to Milt, and he agreed, that I am more qualified to teach Theatre Arts than Nathan Brackeen! Not only have I studied theatre in college, as well as having been active in a form of theatre, I am watching BROADWAY: THE AMERICAN MUSICAL, the first two episodes on P.B.S. yesterday evening (8-9:55 P.M.). The mini-series is theatre history par excellence!
Of course, Nathan Brackeen may also have watched yesterday evening.
Will SACS change things? It comes next Wednesday. Most likely things will go back to how they have always been come next Thursday!
Grass has really taken over the hill! It won’t be long now before the hill is all the way covered, as it should have been years ago!
With a big evening of television ahead of me, I had to sacrifice something: The final 10-11 minutes of THE NEWSHOUR WITH JIM LEHRER (5:30-6:26 P.M., P.B.S.), a piece of baseball, became the “sacrificial lamb”!

(acerca de 1:27 P.M.) It was last week (?) when an issue of “The Daily Home” carried an article concerning some fundamental Christian religion: The article states that any topic can be debated by its members except abortion. According to this “religion,” abortion is wrong, period, under any circumstances!
I am reminded of the time I told Steve Holt that Abdul-Baha, son of the founder of the Baha’i Faith, wrote that violence must never be used except against drug dealers.
As he should have, Steve didn’t think too much of these “instructions.”
For over twenty years, I was “AC/DC” with religion: I was both a “registered” Christian and a card-carrying Baha’i. I have officially severed all ties with Christianity when I resigned from the Methodist Church. Even though I want nothing further to do with organized religion, I technically still belong to the Baha’i Faith. I don’t think the Faith deserves the “trouble” that I would incorporate by officially resigning!
Let the Baha’i Faith think what it wants!
Besides, my inactive status has never been questioned.
In putting on my wind breaker Monday morning in the kitchen, I accidentally knocked the “rim” of the hanging light over the table “askewed.” I exclaimed, “I always do that!”. Joyce “shot” back, “You shouldn’t!”
It was Monday: Joyce may not be a Monday person!
And morning may not be a good time for Joyce! I guess I can overlook her this time! But I’m sure it will happen many more times!

(acerca de 2:20 P.M.) I don’t if I agree with John Kerry’s plan to make health insurance available to one and all, or not! Medical costs are high not because of “frivolous lawsuits,” but due to insurance: National health insurance would only make the problems worse!
Please, I’m begging you! Don’t mess with the court system: It is the bedrock of this country! Reign in insurance coverage!
“Reporting” to Donna my foot slippage yesterday when Amy brought me home - I was holding on to the hand rail as I descended the steps, and my wet shoes made the drop from the lowest step to the ground without a knee bend of my right leg - Donna didn’t seem to think the bus “company” carried liability insurance. Surely it does! With all the elderly and disabled that ride the bus?
AFLAC would, no doubt, cover the expense, but would the city re-imburse me for pain and suffering?
The sky is still made-up from yesterday, although it is keeping the water to itself!
The mid-70⁰’s (F): The plants and flowers may retain the water they received yesterday, for a while, since Cold is really not a problem!

(acerca de 4:02 P.M.) When I went to get the cat “pooper scooper” Monday morning to clean the litter box, the black plastic bag that held the daily collection bags had been put in the trash and a new bag was in its place. I was planning on doing another week’s worth of scooping before putting the bag in the garbage.
I can’t decide if Joyce was helping me or controlling me! I don’t think she believed me when I told her, about two months back, that I hadn’t put the crappy litter directly into a bag (big) as I was carrying one from the bathroom!
Dick Gregory said “theirselves” when he was speaking at the Million Workers March Sunday. Many African Americans feel it is “white” to use “themselves.”
When Marvin came back to my rest area behind Building “H” Monday, he repeated several times, “You have it made!”
Marvin also said certain people that worked at CACC (I don’t remember who we were talking about) don’t have any “balls”!
Tara will be elg_ble for the business manager’s job once her three-year probation is over. She will then be “tenured.”
Tara has been at CACC for over a year. Andy doesn’t really do anything.
And, as Marvin told me yesterday, Andy is only thirty-two years old.

(21st, About 6:18 A.M.) I jolted down outlines of the two dreams, or two parts of one dream, that I experienced early this morning. The heat may have made the dreams or dream possible, as a jumper cable provides a spark for a low car battery, or a de-fib gives the heartbeat a needed push!
In my dream, it was Friday and I didn’t have to go to work. I imagine many people have this dream, but on Monday, and it is Saturday in the dream.
Then I remember being with John Kerry outside. I was asking him about the Vietnam War.
I shook hands with Mike Ferrell (M.A.S.H., PROVIDENCE): He was on the “public” side of a fence, and there was no one around him.
Have at it! I will let “you” decide what’s wrong with me!
Donna was very loquacious when I got on the bus yesterday! I, obviously, don’t know if she is talkative like that when I’m not on the bus, or if she was only showing off for me!
An elderly gentleman that Donna was quick to point out lived 2-3 streets from me - the man said to me that he use to know people on Princeton Drive but has outlived them all. When on Forest Hills Drive - I “explained” to Donna that, when in high school, Forest Hills was “snob hill,” just like Bates Addition was known as the slums - I told Donna she could take the elderly gentleman home first, which she did, almost forgetting me as she returning to highway 76.

(acerca de 6:5_ A.M.) I will go into detail later, if I hadn’t already: Wal-Mart is a classic example of how “popular” outsourcing is, although most people will swear that outsourcing is bad!
As long as Wal-Mart is supported - people want low-priced items, no matter what - not even John Kerry can save us!
A state legislator was quoted in yesterday’s “The Daily Home” as not believing education is a right for children. It only goes to show “you” that the majority of anti-abortion/pro-life people are not pro-children!
The only way to interpret someone’s dreams is to directly transfer the “dreaming” (electrical) energy to a video image. Otherwise, one is only analyzing the recollection of dreams! The actual dream and the recollection are usually miles apart!
Patsy (“Aunt Bats”) calls Ms. Salotto, “salad bowl.” Will she (Patsy) slip and call Ms. Salotto “salad bowl” to her face one day? Joyce thinks she might!

(acerca de 12:37 P.M.) Ity bity “terrorists” are doing harm to the campus! They are everywhere!
Rain is great for the plants and flowers, and re-grassing the hill and other barren spots on the campus, but It also build ant mounds, as a “developer” does prior to the construction of houses or apartments!
One has to wonder why the east tree that is north west of the library - the twin “populars” (?) - wasn’t pruned shortly after the storm did damage to it! It was sure to topple again soon: The root system was straining too much to keep the tree upright!
The tree would have fallen, possibly, on a car! The tree had too much on top for sickly roots!
Well, I sawed about a third of the way to the top: A water hose served me as a “guide” for the part I was removing. Otherwise, the decapitated portion might well have fallen astray!
Marvin brought me a step-ladder; I tied the looped hose to a tree thirty feet or so south of the “patient.”
A passing inmate hauled the cut-off to the library “yard.”
Using the wagon, I carried the cut-up remnants of the toppled top to the dump.
It was all quite simple! Which makes me wonder why it wasn’t done two weeks ago!
I guess the same reason the hill hasn’t been de-barrened in all these years!
The workers have ceased renovating of Building “H” for whatever reason. They weren’t working yesterday when a younger male in a black pick-up pulled in front of Building “H.”
He immediately backed away from the building, not seeing any activity. I was enroute to the shop (south) and was walking on the “loop” road between buildings “F” and “H.”
The male stopped (he was going north) and asked me if the crew was working. I didn’t know what to say! I thought, “Do you see ‘them’ working?”, but just “explained” that I didn’t know: Because I really don’t!
THE NEWSHOUR WITH JIM LEHRER (5:30-6:26 P.M., P.B.S.) began my television-watching marathon yesterday. So there is more to report.

(acerca de 1:51 P.M.) That’s one trip I won’t have to make tomorrow!
I was going to the lobby of The Bank and bitch about my checks, but wouldn’t “you” know it? They arrived by post this afternoon!
But I’m still not pleased with the service of The Bank: Most likely it was the telephone contact Monday afternoon that is responsible for my new supply of checks! The two face-to-face re-order were ignored. Why? Damn if I know!
If only it does what it was designed for: Archer Deluxe Headphone. I have been meaning to abduct it for the supply room at the shop when I “saw” that it would not be used, last week! But I forgot about it until inmate Mike was clearing out the room prior to polishing the floor.
Milt stated that the headphone would be thrown away, so I decided that I could purchase an adapter for the “jack” at Radio Shack (where the headphone was originally bought) and if the headphone doesn’t work, I am only out the price of an adapter.
Why would anyone trash a good headphone? Maybe it doesn’t work!
My beige cap came from The Nature Conservancy, which I “joined” about two weeks ago for ten dollars. Now maybe, by wearing the cap, people at C.A.C.C. won’t question my gardening skills!
I should have known much more about the Phoenicians then I did! An article in “National Geographic” (October 2004), and Quest for the Phoenicians,” a NATIONAL GEOGRAPHIC SPECIAL on P.B.S. (7-8:00 P.M.) made it so that I won’t be a complete idiot if anyone ever starts a conversation about ancient societies!
More theatre history from BROADWAY: THE AMERICAN MUSICAL (8-9:55 P.M., P.B.S.): I sure wish I had the book and/or transcript that is the companion (s) of the mini-series! No way can I hold on to all that information!
A Cloud enveloped us yesterday evening, as the whale did Jonah. We remained in the Cloud’s “belly” most of the morning.
The “inside” of a Cloud provided water for the flowers and plants: Rain is not my only helper!
The upper-70⁰’s (F): As I wrote, Heat chased Sleep away from my bed earlier then Sleep should have left. For I paid for the entire “night”!
I am due money back! For all the other times, too!

(acerca de 6:25 P.M.) Kayla had a short visit before she went with her parents to “PTF” at Cornerstone the school she (Kayla) attends.
It was about 5:59 when Kayla left, having come home with Joyce around 3:55.
Earlier this week, Kayla got a “McShiner” from McDonald’s: A ___ or something struck the area around her left eye. Her first “black eye.”
When I asked Donna how old a woman is Dr. McC_llum, this afternoon - the bus was traveling the road “through” the cemetary east of 8th Avenue - she (Donna) said, “You’re awful!” or something in a non-serious, playful matter.
Donna “senses” that I like women. Yesterday when Donna let me off in front of the house and I was talking with her while I was leaning on the door, Julie was coming south south on Princeton Drive, on the west side, the baby in a stroller, her older daughter pushing another stroller - I waved “hi” to Julie, Donna reacted - well, should I dare say jealous or would I be to meglomanical?
Donna must have talked to Julie about her (Julie’s) children: The bus remained before the house longer than normal.

(22nd, About 8:25 A.M.) I told Donna yesterday that Wendy (“Veazey”) is on - or was receiving - disability insurance. Donna wasn’t aware of that fact and wanted to know why. All I could tell her was what Joyce told me 2-3 years ago: Some “internal injury” that prevents her from working eight hours a day.
Donna revealed to me that several have encourage her to go on disability.
I tried to explained my association with dysfunctional lawyers: Greg Graham, Ken Rogers, and the McClusky man from Sylacauga. Donna agreed that the lawyers that practice in Childersburg (Graham and Rogers) are not good lawyers, and that McClusky is a “crook”!
All this was “discussed” while I was standing on the ground leaning in the door talking to Donna.
Donna related to me that Greg Funderburg (?), a former member of the high school band, was caught changing his grades in high school (Greg was an Office Assistant). He shed “crocodile tears” when discovered, to avoid parental notification.
Still, Greg received a scholarship to C.A.C.C. Donna’s daughter, Joanie, didn’t. So what Donna told me about Greg may have been “colored” by jealousy.
Although Joyce told me 2-3 months ago that Greg may present a quiet, polite “face” to people, but behind the smile is a “snake in the grass”! So I was prepared for what Donna said.
In order to remove a strip of paper with a note written on it, I will record what I wrote:
I am reminded of a writer that published an article that many people consider writing an activity for children, not as a career for grown-ups.
This note was in response to what use to bother me: Joyce, granny, Leslie, etc, not considering my journal-writing worthy of a mature, mentally-sound, intelligent person.

(acerca de 9:06 A.M.) The 18th: Monday? This is when Donna told me that her kids call her brother the Eighth, since he is the eighth husband of a woman!
One of Donna’s sons is learning disabled and slightly “retarded.” But, as Donna was telling me this yesterday, the son relates well with the mentally handicap!
I told Donna that “realizing how blessed you are” as an incentive to work with the disabled, especially mentally, is not a good enough reason to be a care-provider for the handicap. In fact, sometimes such a mindset leads to pre-conceptions! And if pre-conceptions ever become mis-conceptions, danger lurks!
I was “talking” to the “palm” tree Wednesday, before I left work. An inmate stopped and expressed amazement that a palm tree is alive and well this time of the year in this area! And he is so right!
I must be doing something right! Milt told me Wednesday as we were going or coming to or from the “book depository” that he needs to fertilize the plants. Why? Doesn’t he realize that fertilizing is the lazy man’s way out?

(acerca de 2:13 P.M.) “You have your finger up my ass! What the hell do you think, bitch?!”
That is what I thought but didn’t say when Dr. McCallum was checking my prostate. When she asked me if I felt any pain, what else was I to say to be honest?
When she felt my testes, I was standing, she was in a chair. And she was directly facing my naked pubic area! If I was crass, I would swear she is into ersatz felatio!
Susan McCallum is older than me, which is no problem. She is no beauty, which, again, is no problem. To profile: Dr. McCallum reminds me of a “butch” woman.
I felt comfortable around her with my pants and underwear down below my knees! In fact, I would gladly have undressed completely for the woman! I doubt if any of her male patients have what I have!
I was coy about revealing my body to her! I held the pre-offered sheet in front of me. But I think she saw “through” my coyness!
She wants to test my blood before I eat breakfast one morning next week. Some morning around 8:30: I can always eat at Burger King.
Dr. McCallum doesn’t think I should have my cataracts removed surgerically unless they are impending with my vision.
You see, surgery is a type of pre-emptive warfare, and should be a last resort: Although most doctors take the easy way out.
And “they” want to limit malpractice lawsuits? I don’t think so, as long as the “Bush Policy” is so pervasive in the medical field!
I get the feeling that preventive medicine - which is what a physical is - is considered wasting the physician’s time! The elderly nurse that gave me the pre-exam “once over” left me with that impression.
Although a “crook,” at least Louise could stock the store!
Bargain Town carried, when I was working there, garden supplies. I was hoping to purchase a planting “shovel” (hand-held) when I went there after a $20 withdrawal from The Bank’s ATM, but shampoo and a bag of R__s_n ($1.94?) were all I bought.
The last “half” of THE NEWSHOUR WITH JIM LEHRER (5:30-6:26 P.M., P.B.S.) and about twenty-five minutes of “Time to Choose” (7-8:00 P.M., P.B.S.) - a BY THE PEOPLE SPECIAL that I didn’t find overly interesting - provided me with my daily dose of - cultural and political nonsense. What else can I call it!

(acerca de 3:02 P.M.) It had me worried for a while!
There, on a corner table, was a bible, in Dr. McCallum’s examining room: I just knew she would expect prayer as part of the physical!
But on second thought, I concluded that religion is usually a “cover” for sexual frustrations. Most likely this is Mary Holt’s problem. If only she would shower with me!
A meal at Hardee’s: $4.29. A $75-check to Nelnet, my student loan-holder. Figure my fiscal lay-out today.
Don’t forget the $20 co-pay for the physical.
Donna took me to the doctor this morning ($1). I footed back home, getting here after 2:00, but not before Deah pee-peed on the old newspapers!
Still no news from Steve or Mary! Did the e-mail go through? I “clicked” SAVE and created a “folder” for Steve and Mary. But there was no sign of this!
As I tell people, I can barely send an e-mail! And I “ain’t” joking, even though people think I am!
BROADWAY: THE AMERICAN MUSICAL (8-9:55 P.M., P.B.S.) completed the mini-series’ first “run” on television yesterday evening.
It has been claimed that 5th century B.C.E. Athens, when theatre was “invented” was more a branch of diplomacy than it was an art form. However, it seems that “Broadway” has also been more political than it has been “art.” But maybe that what “art”suppose to be: More powerful than statesmanship at “controlling” social forces (whatever than means)!
A covered upper-70⁰’s (iF), although there is a yellowish tint over everything as I write. A great day for a hike!

(acerca de 6:35 P.M.) Losing faith in faith? That sounds like a loss to me! And “losing faith in faith” in reality is a gain! Everyone should grow out of the crutch of religion! It’s the natural state of Man!
I learned the other day - from “The Daily Home’? - that United States Senator Richard Shelby, the senior senator from this state, is seventy years old. Even though I consider his politics disgusting, I will give this much to Shelby: He looks damn good for his age!
Richard Shelby was originally elected senator as a Democrat, but changed parties as a career move.
Public insurance, private insurance: Is there really a difference? Insurance, public or private, is, to a large extent, socialism: People pool their money for the medical expense of a few. That’s why premiums go up for all if the “pot” ever threatens the profit of the big wigs in the company!
Around 166 pounds! That’s my weight! Although still short of the “ideal” weight for my height, I consider 166 “fatty”!

(23rd, About 8:09 A.M.) My lower back is suffering such pain due to the masturbatory session I had earlier this week! You know, I lay prostrate on the floor, my upper body at about a 30⁰ angle, the pressure on my penis.
The masturbation feels oh, so good, but it was expensive!

(acerca de 8:46 A.M.) After months of leaving it unattended under the shed behind Building “H,” I finally brought the W___er thermometer home. No telling how long the thermometer had been in storage!
Four or five months ago I took a “___” thermometer to the shop. Or is this that “___”? Could it be that inmate Mike took it upon himself to unclutter the shop? If so, it won’t be the first time he has been “controlling,” which is probably the reason he is in prison in the first place!
According to the thermometer, it is 80⁰’s (F) in this room.
Among the Letter Box of the October 2004 “Freethought Today” (page 14) is a letter (“Religion ‘All in One’s Head’”) in which the writer (Glen M. Hard_) questions a Dr. Hamer, as claiming to have isolated a “God” gene in the D.N.A., in effect making it possible for some people to be believers and spiritual, while others lacking the “God” are pathological incapable of believing.
In the first place, there is a big difference between “religion” and “spiritual”!
In the second place, such a fantasy as a “God” gene is dangerous: It is the same kind of mindset that claims the black people lack the genes to be as intelligent as white people.
As I said before and I will say again: Non-theism is not a loss or lack of something. It is finally reaching the state humans should be in!
Joyce, granny, and Kayla left for breakfast at Mama Reeves, a local restaurant, around 8:45.
Maybe I am imagining this, but I think Kayla was asking me, “Why don’t you have a car?” yesterday evening. She whispered it to me as I was in the rocking arm chair and she was on the floor, east of the “coffee” table - but I only “read” definitely, “Why” on her lips. Kidding I told her to tell me in sign language! Joyce, in the non-rocking arm chair, not aware of the true nature of American Sign Language, made a statement that Kayla can’t spell. Joyce thought ASL consist of only the manual alphabet.
I corrected Joyce, as I demonstrated “Why?” for Kayla (“Y” straight forward from the ear).
No doubt Bill has articulated some rude, discrimatory remark about my car-less state. It doesn’t make any sense that I don’t have a car, but I don’t think Bill should emphasize the fact that I don’t!

(acerca de 9:50 A.M.) “Open Saturdays; Walk-ins Welcome”: The banner hanging from the permanent marquee of the Childersburg Primary Care Clinic is as if the clinic is a hair styling place or a restaurant! Both Donna and I commented on it (the banner) yesterday morning.
As soon as I got to the window and signed, Kay “asked” me if I had completed the pre-exam paper work that she gave me when I made the appointment ten or so days ago.
Kay gave me no papers. And I think she realized that she didn’t! The “admonition” was a joke, I take it.
I must be careful not to undertake medical treatment just because I have health insurance and I want to recoup my losses! This is why medical cost is so high, not so much because of frivolous lawsuits!
Dr. McCullum advised me not to have cataract surgery. When I told Joyce what Dr. McCulum had said, Joyce shouted that she had tried to discourage me. Although she hadn’t really.
I will probably cancel the appointment with Dr. Bowers in March: Maybe I don’t need it!

(acerca de 10:09 A.M.) I remember walking down the hill of the “loop” road that bridge over the “rear” drainage ditch that the children’s program THE TELETUBIES is futuristic: Rabbits are shown among the four teletubies (or vice versa). Rabbits live mostly in underground burrows. And I guess so happens that the teletubies live in an underground burrow. Rabbits and humans have similar life syles in the future, it seems!
When Barney and kids return from the castle in the Valentine’s Barney video, it is a STAR TREK transport: “Beam me up, Barney!” as Joyce said!

(acerca de 10:40 A.M.) Of course, most military and naval personnel are politically supporting George W. Bush: Bush, as “commander-in-chief,” has to be supported if the soldiers, marines, air people, and sailors know what’s good for them!
Supporting Bush in public is a career move. However, what “they” do in the privacy of the voting booth is something else!
I managed to see the final twenty or so minutes of NOW WITH MOYERS (8:30-9:30 P.M., P.B.S.) yesterday evening; and the fact that the military, which questions the “war” in Iraq, overwhelmingly supports George W. Bush for re-election.
The Rev. Pat Robertson and many of the Christian Coalition are “leaving” Bush. I don’t know what happened, but this is why church and state must forever remain separate: Theocracy is a dictatorship. Any descent will not be tolerated, no matter how trivial the “mis-understanding” may be!
The Christian Coalition expected the Iraq war to be a modern-day, 21st century Crusade to rescue the “Holy Land” from the “infidels.” But oil is getting in the way.
The original Crusade was launched for economic purposes, though I will need to research the motivation of the Catholic Church in doing so.
But to the Christian Right, ownership of the Garden of Eden is more important than owning oil fields!

(acerca de 11:2_ A.M.) I was pleasantly surprised at what Scott Simon, host of ALL THINGS CONSIDERED (Public Radio) on the weekend, said on TUCKER CARLSON, UNFILTERED (9:30-10:00, P.B.S.) yesterday: In response to a question by Mr. Carlson, a conservative, as to whether “God” favored the Boston Red Socks in winning the National league baseball title, Simon replied something like, “I don’t think she (referring to “God”) favors any franchise of professional baseball!”
AUSTIN CITY LIMITS (10-11:00 P.M., P.B.S.) opened its thirtieth season with John Fogerty. If you recall, Fogerty was the “front man” - some would argue the entire band - for Credence Clearwater Revival in the early-1970’s. It backgrounded many a “smoking pot” session!
Of course the war on terrorism is as much law enforcement as it is military, if not more so! Just as the election will be as much law enforcement, if not more so, as it will be voting. The 2004 presidential is not unique in that way.
The ten or so minutes of LOU DOBBS TONIGHT (5-6:00 P.M., C.N.N.) “show cased” the truth of democracy yesterday.
The Republicans are all upset because the Democrats are turning to the court system for the election 2004! Can you believe that? After what the Republicans did in 2000?
The ___ THE NEWSHOUR WITH JIM LEHRER (5:30-6:24 P.M., P.B.S.) ___ that came into my room yesterday evening was the analysis of Mark Shields and David Brooks. As good as the rest of the week is, the 5-day “run” is at its best when synicated columnist Mark Shields and New York “Times” columnist David Brooks are featured!
Is Cindy Strange still at C.A.C.C.? I asked Joyce about the English instructor. I haven’t seem her all semester.
Not that I care, “you” understand! Only that it is a good way to end this sub-entry.

(acerca de 3:28 P.M.) The Arthur-Daniel Middling (?) Company: ADM. ADM is an underwriter for several shows seen on P.B.S. One of the commercials presents what many think will be the “food” of the future: Three capsules. ADM thinks differently, however.
I remember in my Baha’i days, it was predicted by many in the Faith that humankind will get its nourishment in the future in pill form.
Let’s see who’s right!
I was told yesterday evening that someone stold Bill’s credit card number. Jokingly, I told Joyce it is like the commercial of someone buying a surf board on a man’s credit card and going to Malibu or Mauli, __ a television commercial.
The front yard is well-groomed for the introduction to 2005 in about ten weeks. Ten weeks! God almighty!
The lower-70⁰’s (F), with a flattened Clould using the entire sky, just as an untalented performer feels s/he must cover that fact up by using the entire stage.

(acerca de 6:00 P.M.) Two things I would like to bring up for “investigation,” cause I don’t know how else to describe them!
When I was preparing the tree Thursday to bring it down, Eric passed in a C.A.C.C. pick-up, going east before he turned to go north. Yelling out the window, he again reminded me of how he found the tree immediately after the storm. Never once did he offer to help. He just drove off as he said, “Be careful!”
I have yet to figure out how I should interpret Eric’s response to my “initiative”!
It wasn’t until I moved a screwdriver into this room to periodically tighten the Philip’s screws of the door, several weeks ago that I began to have illusions of driving the screw driver into Deah’s skull. It is as if the screwdriver is alive and sending out a hypnotic force to cause me to do evil!
As are many small towns across the planet, Childersburg is laid-out like a quadrant, as the ___ on graph paper. The “X” and “Y” ___ are like the railroad track that crosses 3rd Avenue (?) - the track that carried this family to Chicago in the mid-1950’s - and the track that parallels Highway 76 on the north.

(24th, About 7:36 A.M.) The plants and flowers had a wild “party and orgy” overnight: Rain provided the refreshment.
And the festivities appear not to be over. But at least I got that front yard mowed!
While I was giving the front yard a haircut, Kayla and Joyce arrived home, being brought here by Bill and Leslie. This return was around 2:15.
It was around 6:00 when Leslie came for her.
Jim and Wendy spent yesterday (or some of it) at Jim’s house on the lake. Wendy left behind her small black dachshund, secured by a leash and chain to the back porch.
The dog barked most of the: afternoon. It wasn’t Oscar’s fault: Apparently Jim isn’t a dog “person,” and Wendy, in her campaign to “spread her legs” for financial support, is sacrificing the dog.
It was bad enough for her to have a child! Adopting a pet is also outside her capability!
I laid sawdust around the “trees” boring the “loop” hill (the hill that overpasses the rain drainage ditch north of the shop). Marvin “hinted” that sawdust is not a good thing to have in contact with a plant.
Go look at how the courtyard planters are responding to sawdust and then tell me that!
After I had pruned that tree northwest of the library, Milt and I were at the shop “discussing” the tree’s twin: The tree is becoming top-heavy. Snow or ice may cause it to fall. Which is why the tree should be pruned.
Marvin is bringing a limb-cutter from home: The two that the shop use to house have mysteriously disappeared.
The limb-cutter is 15 feet long. My height and reach will add another 7-8 feet. And if I stand in the back of Milt’s C.A.C.C truck, I will have a little over twenty-five feet before I make a first cut.
That is, if the limb-cutter is there for me!
It would have been so simple for the inmates to have gotten the tree Friday! But believe it or not, any out of the ordinary seem to be “beneath” Milt and the inmates! And Eric!

(acerca de 8:36 A.M.) Most of the plants that are said to be “indoor” plants and relegated to the lobby of the administration building at C.A.C.C. are plants that were “captured” from outside and forced to serve inside! Why do “you” think the plants do so well out in the open?
I would love to take credit for my gardening skills! But the plants are only doing what they were meant to be before “ordered” to be what they weren’t!
It was a shock to have an e-mail from Robert Redford! What the e-mail was, though, was a form letter to John Kerry supporters, bemoaning the destruction to the environment done by the Bush administration and encouraging me to vote for Kerry, as if there was ever any doubt!
I told Joyce Friday evening - she was seated in the non-rocking arm chair - that I had received an e-mail from Robert Reford, as well as Bill Clinton and Al Gore due to my involvement in the Kerry campaign. How should I interpret her silence? As jealousy? As unbelieving? What?
Thursday, Donna and I “discussed” Pell Grants (I was standing on the ground looking in). Actually I had brought up the point of the abuse surrounding Pell Grants and how many people just use them as a sourse of income. This is when Donna began to tell about Black women that were bus riders. I stopped her before the racism became too strong.
Remember when granny told me her racism was a part of her and she couldn’t help it? She was implying that there is a racist gene carried by her DNA. That’s why I reject this “God” gene: If people are born to “believe,” then wouldn’t there be born racists?
Former neighbor on 5th Avenue, Gordon Justice, a “part-time” Primitive Baptist preacher, believed that people are born “saved” or “unsaved.” Such is support of a “God” gene. And such is totally unacceptable to a rational-thinking person!

(acerca de 9:41 A.M.) The woman that appears as “The Queen of Hearts” in a Barney video: She must be a fan of LAUGH-IN, If “you” watch closely, “The Queen of Hearts” is very similar to the character Joanne Worley (?) plays on LAUGH-IN.
I mentioned this to Joyce Friday evening while Kayla was watching the Barney video.
While watching BROADWAY one evening (Thursday?) I came to the conclusion that I didn’t have nearly the talent I thought I had! Why did I delude myself into performing all those years?
Or did I fall victim to the public relations play that surrounds BROADWAY? Did watching the mini-series de-value what I did in the “ring,” and demean clowning? I really should be ashame of myself for allowing that to happen! What I did in the “ring” was just as intense as anything on the “boards”!
The first show of the day was KEEPING UP APPEARANCES (8-8:30 P.M., P.B.S.), a captioned program. I followed this with an interview with THE DAILY SHOW’s Jon Stewart on C-Span, for about twenty-five minutes.

(acerca de 11:22 A.M.) One day last week, I was discussing with Marvin down at the shop the fact that the inmate that was sitting across the inmate “desk” from Mike is a “dead ringer” for Phil Collins. He (Marvin) said that he knew who Phil Collin is, but I don’t think he does. Which is no big deal if he doesn’t!
Not when he “fronted” the band “Genesis,” I stated. I found out the next morning that “Genesis” is the name of the alternative high school, the educational institution for young inmates.
I remember seeing the “tail” end of ARE YOU BEING SERVED? yesterday evening. ___ as the P.B.S. program a transition from C-Span to LAW & ORDER: SVU (9-10:00 P.M., N.B.C.)?
In SERVED?, it is hinted that middle management is not needed for the smooth operation of an organization. I have “discussed” with Joyce, Marvin, and Milt, on different occasions, the sinecure of Andy Jordan’s position at CACC, that the duties can be - and are - executed by others in the business office.
Which is why, I guess, the Dean of Financial Services is the Supervisor of Grounds: There must be something to keep the “dean” off the streets!

(acerca de 12:26 P.M.) One of the reasons Leisa McGaha is the way she is, is due to the fact that ennui and boredom “inspires” her to be manipulative, bossy, controlling, etc.

(acerca de 12:40 P.M.) Although there are other reasons why Leisa is manipulative, bossy, controlling, etc!
No doubt Ronnie went to law school as a challenge: C.A.C.C. didn’t offer him one, that’s for sure! And as a result, he didn’t take CACC seriously! If he had, it wouldn’t be as it is, both externally and internally!
Why not cram democracy down the throats of the Iraqis: The United States has to force people in this country to tolerate democracy! Cases in point: Poll taxes; the senator from Oklahoma that thought abusing Iraqi prisoners were o’kay because one or two may have “American blood” on them; Rick Santorum (?), the senator from Pennsylvania that doesn’t feel the United States Constitution guarantee privacy if privacy would allow same-sex relationships; voting; etc.

(acerca de 3:13 P.M.) Milt’s method of ant-killer? Run over the mounds with a lawn mower! Granted, I do that “method” also, but only because there is no ant-killer at this house!
No wonder Eric ha_ to take charge: Milt can’t or won’t keep a supply of ant-killer at the shop! Not that Eric is efficient or anything! Nay, just the opposite! But he is more efficient than Milt!
Beautifying the grounds is not rocket science: It shouldn’t be as I found the campus over two years ago!
Slowly the grounds are resembling a “normal” campus! I don’t want to be meglomanical, but it’s all due to my “creative grounds”!
Deah was shampooed in the tub this morning; the back yard was “shaved” this afternoon. The former while the sky was in overcast mode; the latter watched over by Phoebus and the low-80⁰’s (F). A beautiful final Sunday of 2004’s Daylight Savings Time.
Yes, it’s that time of the year, folks!
I may have thought I heard granny state this because it fits her mind set, but either last Friday or the Friday before that granny reacted to a television “report” by “whining” that “they” always have to defend the Black community.
What a pathetic woman! What a waste of a “good” heart, when so many people need transplant, people that may be able to do some good in this world!

(25th, About 6:43 A.M.) I don't remember if it was Friday or Saturday, but Kayla uttered a passing comment on the length of my hair. Obviously the child was coaxed, or overheard, (by) her mother or father, most likely the latter!
Part of the non-tactile examination Friday was a discussion between Dr. McCollum and me concerning the hemorrhoidectomy I underwent in the summer of 1997.
According to Dr. McCollum, I should have a scare across one of my hips (in front). A scare is not apparent, but maybe the doctor made an incision in pubic “forest”!
And what is a “double” hemorrhoidectomy, Dr. McCollum wanted to know? Do I have a scar on both sides of my pubes?
The fact of the matter is, “double” hemorrhoidectomy is my own term! Dr. Tim ___, the “plumber,” told me that there was more “entanglement” down there than he first thought. Which probably didn’t “sit well” with the operating crew: After all, the proceedure was a “freeb__,” but required twice as long as expected!

(acerca de 7:07 A.M.) It was Thursday morning, wasn’t it? Marvin and I both had on a black “C.A.C.C.” Polo Shirt, although Marvin’s was of a slightly different style. Well, as soon as I walked into the shop to begin my work day, Milt made a big deal of Marvin and me being dressed alike. Obviously Milt was joking.
I “announced that Marvin and I were twins. This made Milt laugh, but I didn’t mean Cynicism or anything racist by the remark!
Wednesday or Thursday, Milt and one of Boots’ sons (sitting on Milt’s left) “discussed” with me down at the shop Boots’ cataract surgery.

(acerca de 1:35 P.M.) I was sitting in this room yesterday when suddenly there was an unfamiliar noise, as if a rat scurrying. It scared the “shit” out of me!
The noise occurred a second time in a minute or two.
Halloween is Sunday: Are ghosts using my room as a “dressing room”?
I was holding the television remote in my left hand yesterday evening, as I watched television. The remote was near my face.
A “loud” snapping noise came from the remote, as if an electrical “short”!
What’s with this room?
Coming across a plastic bag in the closet of this room yesterday, I discovered a bottle of cologne and a pack of about nine regular, ultra-light GTO One Cigarettes.
A strange weekend!
There is a powerful scene in the conclusion of “The Lost Prince” (9-10:33 P.M., P.B.S.) - featured on MASTERPIECE THEATRE: “Johnnie” gives a recital for his mother and father (“Queen” and “King”) just when a war council is to get under way. The camera alternates a medium shot of “Prince John” and a medium close-up of the “Queen” and the “King.”
In essence, the mentally-challenged “Prince John,” in child-like manner, “explains” that the war shouldn’t be taken seriously. It is almost as if “Prince John” is a secret weapon of England!
His duty done, “Prince John” dies. Oh, I’m sorry: I guess I spoiled it for “you”! But since I really didn’t describe the climax good enough, see for “yourself” what I’m talking about! Don’t take my word for it! “You’re” be a fool to!
Pat Buchannan (?) stated that “Democracy is a fraud!” on THE MCLAUGHLIN GROUP (1:30-2:00 P.M., P.B.S.) yesterday. It’s about time someone said that on national television!
“You” can tell the country is violently divided by watching the “group” debate among themselves! As go the “group,” so go the nation!
N.B.C. NIGHTLY NEWS (5:30-6:00 P.M.) presented nothing surprising. What, “you” didn’t know th__ country is going to hell in a hand-basket? Neither did “Rip van Winkle”!
Hey, that’s a “neat” interpretation of the Washington Irving story! If only I was able to do it when it counted: In graduate school. Though I did my analysis of Irving a few years before George W. Bush was made president, and before “9/11”!
I only realized it right now: The “episode” of BATTLE IN THE ATLANTIC (8-9:00 P.M., The History Channel) was the third part of a three-part mini-series. Oh well, the mini-series will replay, I have no doubt! I will even get a chance to see the 5-10 minutes I “missed” of Part 3!
When I went back behind Building “H” this morning to enjoy a pre-work “smoke,” a black-and-white cat hurried over the courtyard wall. For a moment I wondered how Samantha got to CACC, but then I saw that the Cat had a tail, which Samantha doesn’t have!

(acerca de 2:47 P.M.) Deah is “wild” about those dog biscuits I purchased at Dollar General about a month ago! It was truly the best dollar I have ever spent, with no exception!
I can’t go into details: “You” will understand as “you” read on. And “you” will read on, won’t you?!
Early yesterday afternoon I was in my room writing, without a hearing aid in. All of a sudden granny yelled on the other side of the door that Joyce had shouted for me to help her bring in the groceries from the car.
What happened next I can only guess: Granny agreed with Joyce that I should bring the rest of the groceries in by myself! Joyce had already brought in 3-4 small bags.
Once again, in what she thinks is punishment, Joyce was non-talkative to me!
See how fragile my relationship to my sister is? I have long ago split with my mother, and if I ever get out of here, I will severs all ties with Joyce, as I have with Jane!
A foggy morning parted to reveal a late morning and afternoon conducted by the low-80⁰’s (F). I watered the courtyard plants and flowers, as well as the marquee “residents”: The lantanas (except for those in the southeast “apron,” which I “fed”) should still be sucking up Saturday’s Rain.
The Clouds were all down here. As a result, the sky was free of Them.
A gorgeous day!

(acerca de 7:15 P.M.) 3:26 to 7:14: That’s as exact as I can be! That was Kayla’s time over here.
The “3:26” I know for sure: I was juggling, and was four minutes shy of my 20-minute goal.
The “7:14”? Because Kayla left about three minutes ago.
Joyce told me last Tuesday or Wednesday morning that C.A.C.C. - along with all the other 2-year colleges in the state - requires a three-year probationary period, then it becomes virtually impossible for a person to be fired.
After Tara has fulfilled her 3-year “trial period,” she is scheduled to take over as Dean of Financial Affairs.
The automatic “tenure” is good and bad: The “bad” is that someone as inefficient as Milt must be kept in employment!
I articulated a harsh criticism of Milt on the way to work this morning: Joyce met it with silence. Did she ignore the remark because it was uttered on Monday morning and/or I had to be awakened by a knock on my door a few minutes before 6:00? Or do all “lifers” at C.A.C.C. stick together, especially against a overly-educated newcomer?

(26th, About 6:07 A.M.) It’s colonoscopy I need, not a sigmoidoscopy!
I first mentioned to Dr. McCollum that I should “see” a urologist. But that kind of specialist is for the bladder. And a sigmoidoscopy enters via the mouth, not the anus: The sigmoid is higher up in the colon than I want to go.
Unless one has a history of polyps and/or a hemorrhoid, insurance won’t cover a colonoscopy. Although either condition applies to me, I pointed to an imaginary picture over my left shoulder and said something like “What’s wrong with this picture?” and “discussed” with Dr. McCollum - who reminds me of Blanche Watkins, a former teacher at C.A.C.C. - that preventive medicine should be encouraged.
Even Donna knew about a colonoscopy! I have had a lighted wire stuck up my ass enough times, I should know the name of the “torture” by now! But I am aware of the evening before preparation: Drinking a laxative, an enema, etc.
I don’t look forward to either the preparatory “torment” or being rammed in the ass!
A Dr. Hakim will poke me. When I casually asked Donna about him, she was xenophobic: “You can hardly understand him!” Maybe it’s also vice versa, did “you” ever stop to think about that, Donna?
In “Ideas and Men,” Crane Brinton compares communism’s utopia with the Christian heaven. I have always instinctively done this, adding also a “high” produced by a drug.
It makes one wonder why devout Christians are not communists or heavy drug users! Or is this why people are heavy drug users?

(acerca de 6:38 A.M.) I have no idea how long the plant had been lying there!
While examining the lantanas of the southwest “apron” yesterday, I came upon, to my chagrin, a plant above ground. The leaves were brown and “dead.”
I thought for a moment that someone had uprooted a lantana, but I didn’t see any hole from a forced “outage”!
The roots appeared as if they may make it if quickly returned to the underground. So, using a hoe, the plant was moved to the southwest corner of the administration building, north of schubbery.
If the plant doesn’t make it, something needs to go in that spot!
I told Marvin yesterday - we were walking the sidewalk by Building “C,” going north - that one doesn’t treat plants that way! I had “lectured” him that most of the plants that occupy the indoors, were originally outside plants. He “agreed,” but I don’t think he really agreed.

(acerca de 1:55 P.M.) I went to work this morning without breakfast!
But fear not, ladies and gentlemen: There was a reason!
I had blood drawn this morning. Around 8:30.
The lab technician resembled a young “Smokey” Robinson: I expected to start singing, “If there’s a smile upon my face . . .”
After the blood-letting, I hurried to McDonald’s: I had meant to order only one bacon, egg, and cheese biscuit, but I wound up with three! It happened this way: Thinking out loud, I asked myself was the #3 breakfast combo - a McGriddle - is. It was number one that I wanted.
Actually I really desired a meatless biscuit, but, alas, this is a “meat and potatoes” society!
As I was walking back to C.A.C.C., I noticed that my bag was too heavy for just one sandwich. Maybe the male order-taker gave me someone else’s order for the $1.90 or so that I paid. Was I going to report the mistake? Yea, right!
However, upon checking my money, I realized what I had done! It was a classic case of “a failure to communicate”! For I had trouble making out his low-volume voice!
I can always heat, in the micro-wave oven, the two non-eaten biscuits on two different mornings!
A $2.15 pack of cigarettes from Allen’s Food Mart, on the way back to campus. The female clerk knew what I wanted before I asked: The clerk replied, to my amazement at the service, that it is her business to know her customers!
AMERICAN EXPERIENCE (8-9:00 P.M., P.B.S.) presented “The Cash of 1929,” an expose on the Wall Street crash. Being economics, there were many, many “points” that were beyond my “grasp”! I sure hope I get a chance to see the program again! And again! And . . .!
Over three hundred tons of ammonition was stolen in Iraq, according to the NEWSNIGHT WITH AARON BROWN (9-10:00 P.M., C.N.N.) report. Speculation is that Saddam Hussein may have handed it out to “insurgents” before the war. If so, what a brilliant strategy! Not only was the post-invasion well thought out, but it is apparent that the “quick victory” that George W. Bush stated was the reason frustrated fighters gathered into insurgency, but instead was part of the overall plan to defend Iraq.
Saddam Hussein is well aware that the United States can not fight a “war” without relying on “cutting edge” fighting technology.
I only watched about thirty-five minutes of the show, with C-Span covering the commercial “breaks”!
The moon has been “full” for the last 2-3 evenings! Did it eat at Taco Bell? (The slogan in the current Taco Bell television commercial is “I’m full!”)
Tacos even for dinner yesterday. When Kayla announced that she was full, I joked that she must have been at Taco Bell. But, of course, Kayla didn’t know what I was referring to!

(acerca de 3:06 P.M.) When I boarded the bus yesterday afternoon, there were numerous bags by Donna: She had been shopping for the Halloween party for the “Old Farts”! Half-joking, I asked her if there would be a pinnata(?) at the party, or would it cause coronary failure?
Donna was serious when she told me that the seniors would not be able to swing at the pinnata(?), as if I didn’t know that!
Casey Holt is one of the elderly people that Donna provides transportation for.
The Childersburg Bus is for losers: Are Steve and Mary making the most of my situation, falsely thinking that I am desperate for “religion”? Is it so very hard to accept the fact that religion was the main thing holding me back?
Spring is back: During the daytime! For instance, the low-80⁰’s (F) were with us.
However, Fall returns in the evenings and make things “Octoberish”!
Although “you” can’t tell it at the moment, Phoebus gave a strong showing all morning and this early afternoon.
This afternoon I told Donna that the year I was born, Christmas was warm like this, although I don’t remember it! I also told Amy several weeks back!s
Milt is the one that doesn’t buy the “stuff” that any efficiently-running grounds department requires and then blames Eric. Although Eric neglects the department: He didn’t have a supply of weed-killer this afternoon, forcing me to use the “dry” herbicide.
Last week I whined and bitched because I needed tape to repair a water hose and neither Eric nor Milt had any! How pathetic that ground or maintenance doesn’t!
But, mysteriously, Milt located a roll of duct tape! I wonder: Was the roll his personal tape?

(acerca de 4:27 P.M.) There is a video over here for Kayla featuring “Strawberry Shortcake.” The story line anthropomorphizes the seasons of the year, winter being an old man (a predator of children? ha, ha!), spring a young flying thing.
Ancient religions anthropomorphized Nature and all things that were puzzles to people.
Compared to knowledge-holders today, ancient people were “children.” “Strawberry Shortcake” would not be children’s entertainment!
Can’t you” see: Theism is puerile! “God” is no more than a non-Christmastime “Santa Claus”!
Not only is winter a “predator,” but how about the “grandfather” (?) in “Heidi”?

(acerca de 6:30 P.M.) Yesterday (?) when Donna and I were “discussing” the upcoming Halloween Party for the elderly, Donna told me that last year - or two years ago - the theme of the party was the ‘50’s. Jokingly I asked “1850 or 1950?”
Hells bells: The 1950’a aren’t really all that long ago when “you’re” 70 or 80! The ‘50’s can really be a theme for those born in the 1980’s!
I was standing up facing Marvin and Milt who were sitting on opposite sides of the shop office door, Marvin on the east, Milt on the west. Among the declarations I articulated was that, if I was kin to the Wilson’s Sporting Goods people, I wouldn’t be at CACC!
Milt, whose sur-name is also “Wilson,” agreed. I even stated that I would be a sports fan!
Do Your job, Month X: Don’t outsource to Spring!

(Purchased from Dollar General in Childersburg, AL, at 10:29 AM, on Friday, January 16, 2004, for $1.08)

(27th, About 6:14 A.M.) I have no choice but to use an “amateur” vehicle for my journal until I can get some more heavy-duty paper.
Let me begin this “new” notebook by reporting what happened Friday evening: I was outside with Joyce, granny, and Kayla. Kayla was at play, and we three Old People were in lawn chairs, Joyce and granny looking east, I with my chair facing north.
We were sitting at the “top” of the driveway, just outside the carport.
For no apparent reason, granny asked about the “nearest” tree in Jim Veazey’s yard: Instead of just treating the question lightly, Joyce was bitchy with her answer, saying something about it being like the one in the back yard. When actually it’s not.
As estranged granny and I may be, I ignore what granny said and shrug it off. Joyce’s reaction only damages herself!
Last week I said to Marvin and Milt - they were sitting in chairs by the shop office - that “I could just see me leading two anteaters around campus!”, then imitated an anteater eating ants.
Milt laughed, which doesn’t mean anything.
Obviously, the three of us were “discussing” the many ant mounds cluttering up the campus.
And then the grass was cut! The mounds vanished.

(acerca de 6:45 A.M.) “Discussing” with Donna yesterday that the price of gasoline will keep increasing due to the world market in oil, plastic, computers, etc, even if new sources of oil are located. Donna said that in ten years $2 a gallon of gasoline will look good, just as $1 a gallon of a few years back is remembered with “affection”!
Joyce was explaining Daylight Savings Time to Kayla Friday evening, outside, and that it will be almost 7:00. Monday, Joyce had just explained that clocks are to be set back an hour, and then she said that about! I corrected her: “Almost 5:00.”
Several weeks ago, Donna was complaining about the inmate that had been assigned to the bus service spends a lot of time washing Amy’s car instead of cleaning the busses. I obviously don’t know the particulars, but the idea is to keep the inmate busy. Inmates are not paid, so it’s not a question of diverting the state’s money.
I get the feeling that Donna is hate ful and jealous of Amy because she (Donna) thinks she should be boss! And who was it that forgot me?

(acerca de 2:20 P.M.) I was on my way to water the lantanas in front of the secondary exit/entrance of the administration building (I had already “bathed” the other plants and flowers), from a “break.” My return route took me in the back door of the administration building, and out the front door.
On the way, inside the building, I passed Eric, standing by the door of Lisa’s office, looking east, with a lost, confussed appearance. Eric was on my left.
Eric was surprised that I was “wearing” a picture/name tag! He wasn’t.
Eric made a remark about me having a name tag, as if he didn’t think I was entitled to one.
What did Ronnie tell Eric about me: To “humor” me, for I am a “retarded” fellow?
As I told Joyce this morning, Ronnie didn’t take C.A.C.C. seriously. And it shows! Does it ever!
I was trying to joke with Milt Monday: My name tag was on my “fanny pack,” since SACC wasn’t due for a couple of days. Seated in a chair east of the shop office, I “compared” tags with Milt, who had his on his chest. “I know who I am!” Milt replied, “Yea, but ‘they’ don’t!”
Inmate Mike and another inmate were looking on. There was a hateful expression on each face.
Although The “Nature Conservancy” on my cap may have caused the reaction.
Come on: Ask me if I care what those two inmates - or any of the inmates - think of me! For that matter, Milt’s or Marvin’s - or Eric’s - opinion doesn’t control the quality of my life! ‘
If President Johnson studying a map during the Vietnam War, planning military strategy, doesn’t look like Adolph Hitler doing the same thing! The photo is part of “Rumsfeld’s War” (9-10:00 P.M.) presented by FRONTLINE (P.B.S.) yesterday evening. I only watched about sixty-one minutes, though.
Living history; this is how it must have been like planning, say, World War I; but surely “you” don’t believe the pre-war story is as recorded? Such is my reaction to “Rumsfeld’s War.” It’s why I’m not overly “disappointed” not to have seen the final moments.
Can one even take THE NEWSHOUR WITH JIM LEHRER (5:30-6:24 P.M., P.B.S.) for the “truth and nothing but the truth”? (continued)




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