LustingforNightmares

tumbleweed
2020-02-24 13:56:56 (UTC)

tired

"Carnival" by Kevin Devine

I felt a feather fold
A tree trunk split
Inside my lion laughed, played violin
He said, “You should give up your voice
Before we both end up destroyed,”
I said, “All right,” He said,
“Good boy.”

“’Cause you’ll believe anything”
And we went and copped
“And you’ll fall for anyone”
And I said, “That’s not exactly true
Only you. I’ll do what you do.”

February 24, 2020 Monday 12:58 PM

Same entry at the sameth time, another year. Experiencing non-calm, non-calm after uncalm, or something stupid like that, I don't know. I'm very tired today. I'm frequently tired on Mondays because I have a 7 AM shift at work, but today especially because I didn't go to sleep until 1 in the morning, which is my fault, but whatever. And my hands were so cold. My hands were very cold last night.

I didn't go to Russian and I don't think I'll go to Spanish. I'm thinking of going home for a good ol' nap. Crawl in bed and just fuck around for a few hours. Maybe. I don't, I don't know. Probably better to get my Spanish homework done. And then do my Russian. And then do reading for sci-fi. And then do history reading.

It's a nice day out. I have therapy later for the first time since before the semester started. This song made me feel very emotional because it was so cyclical-sounding, which appealed to me and my angsty sensibilities.

C ya.


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