Habibullo-Eugene Kiselev
A Synopsis of my Life
December 7th, 2019, Saturday, 08:14:00 p.m.
Yekaterinburg, Russia. GMT 05:00
I would like to make a very short account of some events that have had a very profound effect on my spiritual as well as emotional life. Recently I have noticed that I began to lose interest in this paper of mine. This is kind of sad, I would admit. Writing your own Journal of creative activity should be considered beneficial. After all, many people whose life was worth being reflected on paper have kept their own journals, diaries, blogs, and so forth. What am I saying: millions of ordinary people write their numerous blogs on the Internet! This paper is also a blog; however, I am trying to make it worthy of attention of my readers and creative colleagues, first of all. The Journal is still being written, I hope, this mood of mine is just a result of my depression.
Okay. The other day I met Timur Shemonayev (), a professor of Philosophy of the Ural State Mining University. I told him I was going to take up Philosophy seriously and eventually become a philosopher. “I’ve got some basic knowledge of what Philosophy is. I had studied it at a university and had been interested in this science”, I said. Timur offered me to take any meaningful text and try to ponder it over deeply. “This will be your start in Philosophy”, he said. Also, he advised me to read and ponder over the works of Merab Mamardashvili, a very famous classic philosopher. Timur gave me some advice on reading modern philosophers like Alexander Sekatsky from Saint Petersburg. I think, I must find a book of the latter soon. Oh, yes. I will also reflect my philosophic searchings in this Journal, for I am sure this is a part of my creative activity.
Yet this week I got acquainted with Damir Xəzrət Abdulin (Tartar Cyrillic: Дамир Хәзрәт Абдулин), who is serving in a mosque named “Mawlid” and is a spiritual child of Sibagatulla Xəzrət Səjdylin, the mufti of the Urals. We met at the University. Damir Hazrat said it was Sibagatulla Xəzrət who had sent him to the Ural State Mining University to pursue a Master’s Degree in Islāmic Theology. “Indeed, Sibagatulla Xəzrət is very good as a spiritual father”, Damir Xəzrət Abdulin said.
Today I took part in a regular meeting of “Petroglyph”. Eugene Lobanov, my Teacher, presented his new audio-play about a life of the petty bourgeoisie of the Perm guberniya in the second half of the 19th century. Generally, the public enjoyed the play; however, Natalia Nikitina said there had been too many melancholic songs, whereas the whole mood of the play had been playful.
Nicholas Ganebnykh prepared a message about Nicholas Merezhnikov, a poet who was a “Teacher” of some members of “Petroglyph”. His speech was not very long, though.
Lyudmila Dvornikova (Russian: Людмила Дворникова), an economist by training and composer and singer by vocation, was our guest today. She sang several absolutely beautiful songs which she had written to the poems of Eugene Lobanov, Lubov Ladeishchikova and Marina Kamenskaya (May she rest in peace!). I loved her voice and expressed my admiration after the meeting in my words. I also kissed her hand as a sign of recognition of her musical talent.
Yet we have had another guest, a poet Vladimir Zyus’kin (Russian: Владимир Зюськин). He read some of his poems, most of them were about drinking, and as for me I do not enjoy this type of poetry.
Generally speaking, the meeting went smoothly, and I enjoyed every moment of it. After the meeting Galina Kronovich and I went to the tram stop. We were talking on the way. Galina was telling me I was a talented poet and researcher; I was denying all of that saying her words were exaggerated. “It will be much better if I do not exist at all”, I said. Galina Kronovich disagreed. After all, we took a number 13 tram at the Kirova stop. In the tram, we continued our conversation about poetry. We discussed Yuri Kazarin and members of his seminar, who literally worship Yuri and think it is okay to do so. “The reason why I left this society was simply because I wanted to be an independent creative personality”, I said. Galina agreed with me.
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