Tainted Human Garbage

Insecure and Butthurt
2020-02-02 16:00:05 (UTC)

It was okay (strippers)

I went to the strip club on this Saturday night, instead of this Tuesday as I was planning.

My Angelic Angela wasn't there, bummer. I had to sit around awkwardly for like an hour for the right type of girl to be available. I was checking out every girl like a total creeper. I got one beer to ease the wait, even though I normally don't drink. I started talking to a girl "Minx" who had a nice body but could have used a little more makeup to be attractive. While we talked she smiled, said I was cute, said I was funny, so I decided she was a good pick.

After a lap dance, eventually we went to the champagne room together for a ten minute sesh. In there, she said I was "freaky", which surprised and flattered me. It was because I was giving her direct orders on what to do in the champagne room (titty-dry-humping etc.), and was grasping her throat and her hair as much as possible. So, I'm proud that I'm officially freaky.

Still, it sucked having to wait for an hour to find the right girl, which was partially caused by there being so many guys on Saturdays that the strippers are busy chit-chatting and giving dances. After our sesh, I wanted to talk to Minx more, but it was super depressing as I ended up listening to her talk to her stripper friend while I was just sitting there awkwardly. Much of the conversation was inaudible. I also wasted $60 on lap dances from two other random girls I don't give a damn about.

So, overall I left feeling kind of weak and defeated. Woe is me. I think that I won't go on a weekend again. There are too many guys and the same number of girls.

Segway - right now, I was working on a task for work and I really need to get back at it, but I am feeling tired and grumpy. I'm constantly bargaining with myself to start cutting again, but I don't think I will. And I was making some progress on the task, which is good. Overall I've still been working pretty hard, excursions to the strip club excluded.

It's often very hard for me to concentrate because I hate certain aspects of my work so much, but for the most part I've been able to power through it. My bedrock is that I always follow the rules that I set for myself. Also, I like saying "I am Poison". Like this: https://www.pinterest.com/pin/309129961925352266/.

I am pure hatred and poison.
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