Boomer

Street Corner
2020-01-16 11:26:00 (UTC)

I Guess I'm Ok

This is one of those mornings where I'm just sort of numb. My work schedule is not so normal so I actually got to sleep a normal night but that's not normal for me any more. Well that was a stupid sentence. Some of you may understand that if you work odd shifts. I retired but I haven't stopped working. I can afford to I'm just scared to and I have a ton of excuses too, but the reality is I'm terrified to retire.
All my dad wanted to do was retire a little early so he did and five months later he was dead. I was 19 and it ripped the soul right out of me. You go on because there is nothing else to do. You bury things deep inside and do what's expected and then you get older and they start to float to the surface.
The truth is your life doesn't flash before your eyes it just sort of starts to play slowly like some vintage movie. You get to contemplate all the major events that happened in your life.




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