Elliott Nest

The Importance of Being Earnest...and Frank
2020-01-14 07:37:46 (UTC)

I've Fallen Because I Got Off

Well, it happened, I suppose it had to one of these days.
The short answer is I ended my 19-day nofap by jerking off to porn today...
The more detailed answer is: after work, I usually take a 45-to an hour nap in my car. ..then go work out, or go home . This time, well I usually get hard right when I wake up but the horniness has been 'coming to a head' the last few days (see what I did there) and it's kinda like wen you're drowning (but not really but)when you 're thrashing around in the water but it's only like 5 feet and you stop moving aund and finally stand up? Like, it felt soo hard and then the feeling kind of subsided, I could've fought it then but I was like "fuck it, I think I need this" and just went thru the motions aka looked up XHamster and Pornhub...and OF COURSE videos of porn you never saw in a long time show up so you're like "hell ya" and just went thru with it. 2 more times today as well. I did get a decent shoulder workout in at the gym, though...so it wasn't a total loss. But yes, now I just have to get back on it, and not slip back but move forward. Cumming at the climax did feel great tho after so long not doing it....like 'lil seizsures (I always want to look that up but I never think about it until the actual event) but yeah.

I feel good about something else too. Long story short before my job now, things were tight budget-wise so I'd raid the big dumpster on the military base in the back for items like bikes, etc for my art projects and/or to sell. I found 2 mountain bikes, put them up for sale only in Facebbok and they sold in about 2 days....awesome sauce! So, there's always that
AND THAT'S ONE TO GROW ON




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