Vanilla

New hell

My life sucks

In some ways. I just didnt want to say it out aloud, but really its a new kind of hell.

Im now a parent to two kids that are not mine and i have a husband who has no idea how to parent, went bankrupt has an issue with his ex wife and dragged his two kids along.

Are you kidding me?...im stuck in this marriage, in this cycle and i cant get out, it slowly suffocates me, takes me being and me. I hate them all. Or so i think,

I just know that im fed up.
I need a break.
Its not their fault they were born.
But its not my fault that thid happened to them.
I didnt make them.
i tried my best,
I have a right to leave.