Ever since I was born, I have been blessed with two amazing parents and 1 amazing sister. I also have a 1/2 brother and 1/2 sister. I have also believed in Jesus and God (as a Lutheran/Christian). But tonight, I need a miracle. I know I keep saying, Christmas is coming and all I want is my father. I really cannot imagine life without him. I also don't really know how my life will be different without him. I came home tonight and he was cold, hot, in pain, refusing dinner. It sucks that I cannot do anything for him. I try to be there on Sundays, Mondays, and Tuesdays. I felt sad a lot today, just knowing...it's almost the end. I cannot really talk to anyone about it and I try to separate work from personal life. I guess I dunno who to turn to. Anyway...night all.