Experienced Life
2019-12-03 06:06:16 (UTC)

Thanks everyone for your input

I have some virtual friends here or at least I consider them as friends. They come out with truthful input and I'm more than open to suggestions. The last post especially. Some were new insight. Some I had in mind. The only thing I'm sure of right now is that this will be on my mind today and probably not a good thing to do since one wrong network configuration can take down a big chunk of the network. Don't want to do that. Especially since we might have a big raise this coming summer. Don't want to kibosh (that's a word right?) my raise. I'm talking something like a 7% raise. Boy of boy, that's be a nice chunk of change for sure ;)

So with Faye? I'm leaning on two options. One by my nice Canadian friend that just to cut Faye off. Don't have dinner. Just mail my stuff or trash it. I don't really care. I actually have a bunch of Calvin Klein T shirts. Love those by the way. They taper off at the waist so you don't look like a sack of potatoes. It makes me look better than I actually am. haha. The other was my custom dart shirt. I like that shirt a lot but.... I already went ahead maybe a month ago and ordered two more from the manufacturer. The blue one that Faye has and of course, while I was at it, I ordered a red one too. My favorite color :)

Scenario two would be to just have that dang cordial dinner. Be the friend the she is asking me to be and not touch her or anything like that. Sort of like how I'm friends with Heidi. I don't like making decisions while I'm not calm and relaxed so I'll have to let that one stew for a bit. Those are my two choices I'm leaning towards.

I almost feel silly posting this. It's not like I'm saving the world. I'm not stopping a war. It's almost borderline childish as far as what I'm even posting. It's just that my feelings are real as can be. It is on my mind and I kind of need to be selfish once in awhile and think of just me. I'm writing this yet I still feel a little selfish and self absorbed. Sigh..

I do know I gotta get this crap outta the way and proceed with keeping my life as positive as I can. I know I told myself this but I need to remind myself from time-to-time. Improvement is not linear. I know I know. How I go through the adversities in life... wait a minute. What's with all these fancy words popping up in my head. With all the crap I have to deal with, I need to have a positive attitude. It's easy to be the cool dude when things are going good. I need to be that cool dude when it's not so great too. I know I can do this. I'm stronger than most peeps.

Well, I checked my work schedule. Today is pretty good so I'm hitting the gym this morning. Clear the cobwebs outta me. Then I'll hit another class after work :) One thing I know is that the gym helps me get my dopamine fix. I sure could use it now.

That's it for now. BTW, the flowers is my room even though I'm a little nuts still is nice to look at and I can still pull somewhat of a smile/smirk from looking at them :)