Gorgeous_Nightmare

The World Behind My Wall
2019-11-24 15:45:30 (UTC)

We Stitch These Wounds

I know I said I was probably going to do an entry assigned to every couple of months that have passed since the last actual entry I've done, but I think I have come up with a way to coherently sum it all up in one post.

My ex and our other roommate both moved out in June, a month before our lease is up. J lost his job and he was moving to Kansas in a month anyway so it was pointless for him to find a job here just for a month. We made the agreement that he could just go ahead and move early since it was the smartest decision. A ended up getting back with her ex that she was dating before she had her baby and ended up getting pregnant so of course they moved in together. They're now engaged and their baby will be here soon. We don't really talk much, but things are still kind of tense because she owes us a lot of money and pays us like $50 here and $50 there whenever she feels it's good for her. Super annoying, but I'm also too damn nice to say anything. My ex also just got into a new relationship. Good for him I'm glad he's happy. He's been talking a lot of digs at me though lately that are starting to rub me the wrong way. I know he does it because he thinks he's being funny buuuuut it's only funny for so long. Again I'm just too nice to say something. His new girlfriend kind of looks like me and it's weird. I don't think she does, but other people keep pointing it out to me. I don't know why it matters. But yeah living alone has been great. Of course I have nights where it gets super lonely not having anyone in the house or if I hear a weird noise I can't just blame it on one of them. It doesn't help that Zero barks at literally everything lol. Talk about heartattacks.
At the beginning of July I started talking to someone we will call himmmmmm S. I'll also elaborate on this in another post. I will say though he is pretty great.

August I started the new year of school and will hopefully have my degree by May if I keep it up. Nothing too interesting happened except your typical depression spells.

September was probably the best and worst month of the year. B and I took our trip to ICELAND! It had always been my dream to visit and to make it come true was magical. I really want to dedicate a whole entry to that trip because it deserves it. I really wish you could attach photos to these things.

October was decent had a Halloween party and B and I went as Chucky and Tiffany Valentine. One of our friends got alcohol poisoning and we had to call 911. That was a trip. My sister was also in the backyard freaking out because she took a hit off of someones THC pen without realizing what it was. I know she's an idiot. I was too stoned to want to deal with any of it but talk about being sobered up real quick lmao. After that I kicked everyone out and went to bed. I'm so thankful that our friend was okay even if she did throw up all over my room. >.<. My room smelled so bad but thankfully another friends husband was sober enough to help me clean everything up. No more parties for a while.

This year has been pretty crazy. I've spent a lot of time trying to piece myself back together. I don't think I'm there yet, but I do think that I'm on the right path to get there.
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Until next time.




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