Grace

Smells Like Adult Spirit (But Not Really)
2019-11-04 00:17:42 (UTC)

Lost

Not only am I stuck, but I'm exceptionally lost. I studied science policy but I don't know if I want to do that. I am thinking I want to be a teacher. But I have no fucking clue what I want. I'm applying to a lot of things now, but I feel like I'm driving my references up the wall with how many different programs I'm going through. I hate this.

Plus, my friends are away. They're all finishing up their last year of college and having casual sex and starting relationships and travellng and getting internships. And I fucking can't deal with it. I am so god damn alone in every way that I don't want. The only people physically around me are my fucking family who I can't STAND. I can't STAND my father. I can't STAND my mother. I want to be on my own. I cant STAND my brother.

I just want to have a job, live in an apartment. I can't do this anymore.




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