Grace

Smells Like Adult Spirit (But Not Really)
2019-11-03 23:55:41 (UTC)

Stuck

I am so fucking stuck. I graduated in May but I've been living at home ever since then. Confession? I have barely applied to many jobs. I've gotten like 4 interviews. And one offered me a job. (Back in May) But I said no because the pay was too low. And the rest didn't pan out. Now I live at home with my father who I do not get along with. He has a shit temper and treats my mother like shit. He raises his voice. He is disrespectful. And I have no patience for it. I am so fucking done. I hate myself for not taking that job. And for failing before this. All I want is to be out of this fucking house. So fucking far away that I never have to see these people ever again. I hate it. I hate myself. I've wanted to punch a wall so many times until all my fingers broke. genuinely. I can't do this anymore. I can't. I absolutely am losing my fucking mind. I can't do it. I'm dead. All I want is to be alone. Alone and independent and away from this house that is a fucking PRISON for me. I can't DO IT ANYMORE.




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