Sophie

Sophie
2019-10-22 03:20:49 (UTC)

Oh dear god. Why love?

Ever since the 3rd week of our friendship, I knew...I’m going to catch feelings for him. He’s great. Smart,talented,kind,funny,hardworking, selfless and even good looking. And the thing is, he holds my hand, says I love you, buys me gifts, hugs me, cuddles with me, sleeps on me (and vice versa). He does everything that would signal he likes me but there’s one problem.........he’s gay. He’s been gay since a very young age. And although he’s told me that if he was straight he would definitely like me, I know that I don’t have a chance with him. He’s gay and that’s that, I can’t change that. But to be honest, where him and I are at right now feels like a relationship but really it’s just a strong,bonded friendship. He’s helped me through so much even though he doesn’t know what’s actually going on with me because I told him I don’t want him to see that side of me. So he comforts me, dries my tears, makes me laugh but doesn’t make me say a word about why I’m crying so hard or why my mood has dropped. And it feels great, not to be pressured into telling him something extremely personal.

But anyway, yeah he’s gay and yet I can’t help but be head over heels for him.
Surprisingly, no one knows. Which I find weird because the way I look at him when I’m with friends or the way I interact, it’s so obvious. Although, every single one of my friends believes him and I are just meant to be. But boy, how would that ever happen. He wouldn’t turn bi or straight for me, right?




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