Mess Ups
Ad 2:
2019-10-10 17:58:20 (UTC)

Love Me Or Not....

Dear Diary,
I woke up this morning with a message from my girl, "I think you need to focus on yourself and love yourself." I was kind of surprised she would say that to me because she makes me a better person. In my life, there has been rejection, one and done, being called "gross", used, abused, and hurt. I have never loved myself because of the way I look and have always dealt with obesity. Even when I was younger, I was chubby and even at 32/33, I am still fat. So, yes...I have low self-esteem because of the way girls have treated me. I guess because I have been a loner for so many years, that's why I am closer to my family. I do love my girl very much and hope she understands why it's hard to love myself....night all.