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Hotmess Express
2019-10-09 17:18:55 (UTC)

Oh, Michigan.

Dear Michigan,

First of all... no rant of any sort ever end on a happy note when someone says "first of all".
But seriously, Michigan. ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS?!?! "Sorry, I still think of you like a filthy little whore". To be completely honest and fair, Fine. I love sex-- nay-- I love FILTHY sex. Unapologetically. I will never deny it. But that whole comment made me feel a little uneasy and dare I say, a little ticked off?

I feel super weird about this whole thing. Maybe because there wasn't any emotional connection, but we had sex? I mean, it's not like the sex was amazing. I was faking it half the time, I don't think I came once throughout the whole weekend. You did though-- multiple times lol. I still think about the weekend, but every time I think about it, I have to stop myself because then I just go through the countless possible scenarios in which it could have gone. But it's done. It happened. It didn't work out. I should be over it.
I'm not over it. I should have told you in the car that I just wanted to be friends like I intended to, because then I gave you the prime opportunity to pull the trigger first and I am beyond pissed that you did. I'm only pissed because I should have done it first lol... That's why I'm pissed. Because you beat me to the fucking punch. Not because of some weird emotional lingering from all that fucking and all that time spent together... It's because I'm petty as fuck. SO BE IT. I'm petty.

Now we're supposed to be "friends" who actually keep in contact. Usually when I reach this point, I just stop all communications. I don't care. You can contact me, but you GMFU if you think I'm reaching out to you first.

I don't have time to waste on a 35 year old, self-proclaimed selfish man, who is too busy wrapped up in himself. Byeeeeee. I can't wait to talk to you like a normal, "non-filthy" person. For the mean time, I'll wait for the right person we both knew you never were.


See ya,
Hotmess Express




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