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Why i'm on happy pills
2019-09-29 18:29:26 (UTC)

First entry...exciting!!

I'm excited because i finally found this website where i can type the thoughts coming out of my head which are non stop and its easier to type then to write of course as thanks to technology and bloody laziness, our wrists are not used to using pens for long periods of time anymore....and I just had to kak my son out too as being a typical teenager, they tend to think its their right to be a pain in the ass from the age of 13 till they bugger off out of the house. His 16 now.....of course i love him to death but now he must bugger off to bed so i can "talk' to myself. I eventually will make this public so whoever wants to read it can knock themselves out and read it, pffft...doesn't matter, but for me its therapy to type and it helps. This and the hectic PRESCRIBED med's I'm taking that even my own doctor, after hearing my situation that i've gone through in the past 3 years , said 'Damn woman, i think ill prescribe the strongest shit that there is on the market'. You know whats funnier than that?? THEY AREN'T HELPIING!!!' Im so messed up i'm laughing at my own joke!! Shit!! I even had to go back and ask him to UP the dose cause it wasn't helping!! He said ok, he would increase it only a little but after that there's nothing stronger! You know what?? THAT'S A LIE!!! Cause Joey who works with me is on some stronger shit and his definitely been through hell himself and still is cause apparently his own wife is like the devil herself and this man used to be a bloody sniper , so his seen shit and when he comes in the morning to work he says 'mam....eish....i feel sooooo good...these pills i'm taking.....shoh....i feel NOTHING!' and I can see it!!! This man is so high on happy pills and calmers....nothing could affect him now and the doctor tells me there's nothing stronger?? BULLSHIT!!! I want whats his taking!!! Anyway.....where was I? sorry....this happens often....i distract myself....seriously where was i? i forgot the point i was trying to get too.....hold on.....oh yes ok......so...anyway......yah....i'm excited about being able to write now and feel like i'm talking to someone, anyone...even if its my psycho crazy self....I'll tell myself all about myself so maybe i understand myself better and love myself more since this is supposed to be a 'diary' of my thoughts. If anyone should be stupid enough to read this, This is MY DIARY!! I swear like a sailor, i'm sure i'm bipolar, a bit of a psycho now and then, funny.....even if i do laugh at me own jokes....but nevertheless, its my diary so, if i offend you, tough shit, deal with it and try happy pills for your own sensitivity issues mos. I warn you i am from South Africa, so i swear like one...its not swear words actually, its umm...vocab decor...so if you dont like it tough shit, and if you dont mind...then buckle up buttercup cause here i go....




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