My_silentnight

Progress.
2019-08-29 03:06:00 (UTC)

Progress

I had an old account that i forgot the user to and i had this whole entry but basically i am a girl who is bisexual and was dating another female for 8 months. we broke up exactly 8 months later because of her mom. or thats what she said. later on i found out she was cheating and used me the whole time and my heart was shattered and well, i never got over it. i was inlove with her. its been over a year and all i can say is i may not miss her but i miss what we had. the late night calls, the empty promises yada yada yada... but a little after that break up i met a boy, lets call him...Rue for short. Rue is a friend i met online through my real life bestfriend that she met through her own friend. so they never actually met. Anyway we clicked instantly. he is so kind like its crazy, we both love music and photography, we never argue or disagree, and his looks are only a bonus cause when i tell you this kid is so talented im like awestruck. Me and my ex had our own thing which was art. we drew together all the time. but that was about it. Me and Rue have music. we sing together and he plays the guitar while i play the piano and its just amazing. like i cant find him real. tomorrow will be a whole month since we last seen eachother in person. The first time we ever met in person was at the mall (a month ago) and we hung out for a while then the next day we went to church but after that he had to go back home which is in Haiti. Imagine realizing your full feelings for someone then they had to leave so far away. Now you might be thinking "how can you like someone who is so far" well heres the thing, his family are christians who help children in need so they live where im at AND in haiti. so he travels alot. hes never had a girlfriend or his first kiss like wow yes please. any way im getting off topic. so heres the thing after church he told my bestfriend he has feelings for me and her stupid ass told him i liked him but as she tells me this she forgets the whole part of him liking me back and i start crying like full on rivers pour out my eyes. man what a jerk lmao. so for the past month we have been stuck in our feelings not being able to date because his parents dont want him dating and well hes across the damn contry. hes coming back on tuesday for a day and he decides to tell me he told his older sister (shes like a second mom) that he likes me. now she wants to take us out for dinner after church and im shitting bricks. idk what to do alot is already happening and im scared. hes the best thing thats happened to me since my ex and like imma fuck it up. i can already tell.




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