Scream Above the Sounds
So, it turns out my classmates got the date wrong. Results day isn't the 15th, it's the 22nd. Nooooooooooooooooooooooooo. The wait increases. I'm actually feeling a bit nervous about it. I suppose I've built it up in my head that I'm going to do well, or very well. I think I'll do fine, I'll definitely achieve the 'C', if I don't...I'll be devastated. I gave my absolute best in these exams but there are some strange fears lingering. My mum wants to come with me and is supposedly bringing my sister now, plus Louise is supposed to be coming. The thought of not being happy with my results and just feeling disappointed around them, it's a thought and scenario I could do without. Like I say, I think I'll achieve the C, I just...want more. I want an A. I want to be the best that I can be.
I wonder if I'll see any of my classmates on the day, they've said we can go to the college at 10am and collect our results, and then enrol assuming we hit the criteria and actually wish to pursue an Access course. I wish we were a lot closer, I mean... I guess I wish I was a bit closer with them. Two of the girls came over Friday night, which was cool. It would have been nice if we all opened our results together or whatever, but I dunno. I'm trying not to make a big deal out of it because it's only GCSE. It's still a very big part of my life and it is the catalyst for what my life and future will eventually become. It's a start of the journey, so I shouldn't discredit it. So yeah, results day and enrolment on the same day now, which is pretty convenient. I'm interested to know what the timetable is, then I can look at working a job in around my studying. I should be more excited, maybe I will be on the day.