Hotmess

Hotmess Express
2019-07-12 21:24:48 (UTC)

No, I get the last words.

Hello Diary World!
I've started you before, but you already know how inconsistent I am, so of course all those previous attempts are now naturally abandoned.
I've noticed a couple of things about me lately (this is my "diary", I'm allowed to be narcissistic and conceited!)
1. I've been smoking weed every fucking day. My bitch ass is obviously not the slightest bit interested in participating on a tolerance break. So here's the problem, I know I've been smoking too much weed (is there such thing?) and I know that I have to take it slow... But I don't do it. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME?!?. Oh yea, I'm a crazy bitch. Seriously, I do need to figure out what I need to do about my weed-smoking habits.

2. My priorities are all sorts of fucked. I need to get back on track. I think I already know what I need to do, I'm just lazy. To recap:
*** I need to go back to school, which means finishing up my enrollment in school and get ready for the semester. Obviously, giving up on it for the 1947298th time is not an option this time. I'm going to come out of this whole thing a fucking RN or NOTHING. I'm so tired of fucking around, I need to start taking things seriously. Which brings me to my next recap...
*** I need to stop being a hoe. Men--the wrong kind-- are the worst road block. I love sex though, but once operation be a good girl starts, no more hoeing around.
*** I need to get my finances in order, which means no more spending stupid amount of money on frivolous shit.
*** Focus more on my work quality. My current job is perfect in terms of schedule flexibility, so if I want to keep this and have my schedule work out, need to put in the work.

3. I really need to stop being a lazy bitch. That's it, I just need to stop. Period. Time is flying by and I feel like being lazy is my futile attempt at slowing time down... And it isn't working. At All. Time to be a big girl and stop being lazy. No more fucking myself over.

4. I need to start being more honest with myself.

5. I need to be more honest to the people like mattered.





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