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Learn From My Mistakes
2019-06-19 23:19:52 (UTC)

Highs and Lows

I have felt at a loss today.

The guy that I fell in love with two years ago, no longer wants me in a romantic way. He used to be my best friend, now my messages get ignored as he's active on social media. My mind travels, wondering who he is messaging or sending snaps to. I used to be the one that he replied to in the morning as soon as he woke up. He used to be excited to speak to me and would wait for me to get home from work so that we could talk and connect. Now my messages are left on read most of the day. He used to act patient with me and listen to what I had to say when I would address certain things or talk about feelings. Now he almost immediately gets upset if I try to talk about my feelings. It wouldn't be so bad if that were the end of it. I've had relationships fail before, I know how to move on. What makes this so difficult is that his words say something completely different. He says, "No, I care about you. Of course I want you in my life. I don't want space from you. I care about our future. I'm available to talk to you any time!" The actions say something completely different. The actions say, "No, you're no longer important to me. I don't want you. You're annoying and I need space because you annoy me. You make me so mad and frustrated. I don't enjoy being around you anymore. I don't care what happens to us in the future."

We got into an argument today. I asked why he no longer seems to have time to talk to me, especially at night. At one point he always would talk to me, particularly in the evenings. He didn't give me an answer. Left me on read. I got upset, then he got upset. We argued. I explained that I no longer wanted to argue, and that if he wanted to talk about things he could reach out to me. He replied, "We can talk anytime!" I rolled my eyes because the truth is that he always makes himself busy and does not make time for me at all. We haven't spoken the rest of the day. All I want is a straight answer. I probably won't ever get it, but hopefully tomorrow will bring a bit more peace as I seek to remove myself from his life.

Instability is such a bad thing. It can kill relationships. Learn from my mistake. Please run if you're considering dating, or already dating someone that has no idea what they want and are totally unstable. It will cause nothing but confusion in the long run.




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